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Opioids 17 Days free of Methadone (How long to feel normal?)

EatClenTrenHard said:
Day 48. W/d's were especially bad. Terrible Pain radiating throughout right side of body. Heart is pounding out of my chest and fluttering (EVEN STILL).

I caved everyone. I went and did a small shot of dope. I feel like the shittiest man in the world. I just couldn't take it anymore. After 48 days i needed a release. I know i wont use tomorrow or the next day, but it's still terribly depressing. Even worse, it's my girls birthday. Not sure if i should tell her today or tomorrow.

I'm so depressed. I can't believe i caved. I'll let you guys know how my body reacts to this. Fuck. I hope i didnt ruin my progress guys. Im breaking down
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Ahh. That sucks, man.. but it happens. No sense beating yourself up about it because relapse is part of recovery. You still had 48 days off opiates, so using once is not going to set you back to day one. Provided you do not continue to use, you will be fine and you can just keep on fighting like you were.
 
I've had to relocate to get off hard drugs...In twelve step programs they talk about "geographical cures" not working...but if you're living in a situation where you know too many people that are involved to avoid it, it makes it so difficult to not get sucked back in....

The main thing going to rehab does for people IMO, is taking them out of the environment they were in, so they can get a different perspective on the whole thing. I think going away to anywhere, for at least a few months, away from the your "friends" and dealer's can help a lot, no matter whether it's rehab, or just staying with a relative or friend who lives at least a few hours away...

I permanently just can't go back home and stay clean...Something happens 2 seconds after I get into town...I just want to get high! I don't even think about it or feel bad about it at all when it's happening! So, I give you a lot of credit for being able to stick it out!

Nothing you can do now...feeling bad about it isn't helping anything!
 
Somni thankyou for your post bro, we got this! Im here for you aswell buddy!

Scag and blue's thankyou aswell for the support
 
Day 49 - Week 7!

After yesterdays stupid, stupid careless mistake, and lots of vomitting from being too high, today i've awoken with very minimal withdrawls (probably still masked by the leftover dope). Though, I do have some bad nausea still, and i did have some major uncontrollable tremmering and shaking upon waking up, but a shower seems to have cured it.

Hoping the withdrawals dont get drastically worse over the course of today.

Happy to report that i currently have no desire to use again, and i KNOW for a fact i will not use today again.
 
Day 49 - PM

Seems like the hangover from yesterday is finally subsiding. Felt much like the day after ecstasy, but more intense. Along with some annoying w/d symptoms.

If i were to stay where im at right now, ill be happy. If tomorrow i wake up feeling worse, ill be dissapointed.
 
I was 13 months metadone treatment. 100mg/day.
I stopped just one day. I was sick 80 day! Metadone suck.
now I am again in methadone and thinking how to stop. I live
in Finland and we have peopless who have being methadone
over 10 yers. All those people are killing them selves.
 
^Yes, but you're not supposed to just stop at 100 mgs, you're supposed to gradually taper from it...100, 98, 96, 94..etc.

So, it doesn't surprise me that you went through hell...
 
Akoistin said:
I was 13 months metadone treatment. 100mg/day.
I stopped just one day. I was sick 80 day! Metadone suck.
now I am again in methadone and thinking how to stop. I live
in Finland and we have peopless who have being methadone
over 10 yers. All those people are killing them selves.
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Either that... or they've increased their quality of life, stayed out of trouble with the law and are healthier than they were before they got on the sauce... :rolleyes:
 
I am glad you have this attitude Eclen and remember if you do feel a bit worse tomorrow don't use no matter what. From my experiences you shouldn't have that much of a set back. Maybe 1-3 days of slight agitation at the most. If you did? It most likely wouldn't be more than 2. Then it will start to decrease again.

I had terrible panic attacks today and flirted with relapse myself. Thankfully fate intervened when I found out that everything is garbage at the moment but I really need to take this as a serious warning sign and become proactive. I have to start occupying my mind and body more while I am weak and my brain is healing.
 
Methadone saved my life.
The four-five years I spent at the MMT were easily the most stable of my life as an addict. I issues OC only once or twice, heroin only once in that period. Now that I've stepped down to Suboxone I've done almost a half OZ of bth, thousands of benzos, dozens of 80s, and smoked ounces of meth to combat the depression. Also got onto z-drugs. I feel I was so much better on 'done, it satisfied problem cravings, it was half the price, it had less negative side affects on my body (no constipation, headaches). Only problem is methadone is hell to quit cold turkey, it is severely fucked up, and while bupe addiction is no walk in the park it's not supposed to be as bad. Quitting methadone cold turkey was was worse than heroin or even oxy, because it lasts so long on your system, and methadone users tend to go on long runs. The thing to so is taper off over the course of a year
 
EatClenTrenHard said:
^^ awesome thanks


Man... today i've been having some pretty godamn bad pain. My lower back hurts like hell from sitting around with bad posture for the past 48 days, and on the right side, it travels all the way down my leg and calf, and can feel it constantly. ALso w/d symptoms seem to be somewhat bothersome today. This isn't supposed to be so miserable. Ugh.

A shot sounds great, but i know it would probably give me even worse withdrawals afterwards, along with delayed recovery
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That sounds like a disk issue i.e. sciatica. You may need an MRI scan.
 
Keep on keeping on brother, we all suffer the slips when getting clean.

Get the fighting head back on and kick this beast's ass whilst you've still got a shot at it!

Plenty water, less smoking bowls, see a doctor to have blood pressure checked and radiating back pain.
 
somnilicious said:
I am glad you have this attitude Eclen and remember if you do feel a bit worse tomorrow don't use no matter what. From my experiences you shouldn't have that much of a set back. Maybe 1-3 days of slight agitation at the most. If you did? It most likely wouldn't be more than 2. Then it will start to decrease again.

I had terrible panic attacks today and flirted with relapse myself. Thankfully fate intervened when I found out that everything is garbage at the moment but I really need to take this as a serious warning sign and become proactive. I have to start occupying my mind and body more while I am weak and my brain is healing.
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I think you're absolutely right. This morning i woke up back to normal w/d's. If tomorrow is the same and doesn't get any worse, i got pretty lucky lol, and somewhat cheated.

Btw everyone, i didnt use yesterday, and i dont plan on it again anytime soon! Phew.

WantToBeReborn said:
Keep on keeping on brother, we all suffer the slips when getting clean.

Get the fighting head back on and kick this beast's ass whilst you've still got a shot at it!

Plenty water, less smoking bowls, see a doctor to have blood pressure checked and radiating back pain.
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The back pain was only that one day, but if it keeps coming back i definately am going in...
 
Day 51 - better than yesterday, but fuck im sick of withdrawals. Still haven't used since that one day, 3 days ago. Gonna keep pushin on, hopefully this doesnt last another few weeks though i bet it f-in will -.-
 
Man, there's gotta be a much better way to do this than suffer cold turkey heroin withdrawals or being bed ridden for weeks... fucking hell
 
Fuck. I ruined everything im pretty sure. The cravings got to me. If i don't go into extreme withdrawal in the next 5 days im going to do everything in my power to prevent using. Going to give all my money to my girlfrend or somthing to prevent further relapse. I knew what i was doing too, but my desire was too much. I swear if i can just make it through 4 more days, i should be back to normal emthadone wthdrawawls. I just don't know how i can take methadone withdrawals for another 1-2 monts.

I let you all down... including myself
 
Yeah man, i used 3 days ago, didnt use the day after, or yesterday, then used today.... fml. i cant ruin my 50 days. FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk im so fucking stupid!
 
I know everyone is different, but no one I have ever encountered has had methadone wd after the first 2 months...and I'm talking ppl who did cold turkey wd as well as tapered detoxes.

You should not in any way have another 1-2 months of methadone wd. PAWS maybe, but not wd. Ive never personally experienced much PAWS, from either methadone wd or heroin wd. But everyone's different

Stop beating yourself up. It's normal for someone who is addicted to opiates to crave them. Sometimes we give in ; sometimes we don't. And the cravings r going to be harder because you just did dope recently. You've got to really fight it the next week or so.

Hope it works out for you...
 
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