16 days clean off oxy need some advice/support...

[tyson101]

to get right to it,i was addicted to oxy for a year, its was time to something about it as the last couple of weeks of my habit hit 1000 mg... yep 1000, but only for a few days, usually 300 to 700 mg in the last few months befor that its way lower like 100,200 mg maybe.

i went to a detox / rehab center for 7 days , they gave me subutex starting at 8mg then 16mg on day 2, then tapered me down to 2 mg in 7 days i left feeling ok, (16 days off oxy now including the time in rehab) been out about 9 days now and having bad sleeping problems.

AM I 16 DAYS CLEAN OR 9???

iv taken xanax only a couple of times in the 9 days to sleep a bit as i am very aware of the dangers i have valium too but again iv only taken that a couple of times aswell,i dont like benzos anyway thank god..and dont wanna w/d from that ****..

I pretty much flushed every real opiode i had laying around when i got home,i left some of tramadols tho i had a couple wen the bupe wore off 7 days ago and i had one today , im aware of tramis addiction and w/d too.am i setting myself back??? as its a weak opiode???,i only have one left anyway.

now my main concern is SLEEPING,I have some melatonin,but its not working well,n i refuse to keep taking xanax every night, n feels like im going crazy wen i get 2 hours of sleep all night long,yuk man, last night was around 5hrs with the help of xanax.GOING CRAZY...

im trying my best to stay as strong as i can for my lil one n wife but no one understands what im going throught except YOU GUYS so PLZZ anything will help at this stage, y am i still felling like crap(nothing like full blow w/d) n cant sleep well after 16 days clean...and when will i be able to sleep at least 6 hours straight???

i tried to keep it as short as possible, just need to know how much longer n some support,i told ppl i was of to work wen i was in rehab as no one knows i had an addiction so i cant really vent out to anyone plus they wont understand anyway..

thanks alot in advance ...

 

[T. Calderone]

You didn't say how many days you've been off suboxone but it has a real long half life. But tramadol will set you back too so stop using it. It may take some time for you to get to be able to sleep longer. Only use the benzos at night and be careful not to use them for too long because you can easily get dependent on those. Keep yourself busy during the day- exercise if you can, keep yourself hydrated and eat well.

 

[maybeimamazing]

hey there, i know exactly how you feel. you are not alone. check out a 12-step, NA mtg. they're everywhere. i go regularly for the support, camaraderie and fellowship. when you have other friends you can share, relate to, and give and receive support from, you won't feel so alone.
addiction is such a lonely, shame-based disease, and any kind of support system is better than none. good luck to you!

 

[tyson101]

so today is day 17 from the last time i had an oxy and day 10 alomst off the subs, the w/d is from a delayed reaction from the oxy im guessing yes? not the subs , as i was only on them like 7 or 8 days.

well last night i went to bed at 10 tossed n turned for a couple of hours then must have slept for a couple of hours to about 2:30 then was up till about 6 then fell back to sleep till about 8 so all up im guessing i got like 4 or something,(im greatfull) but not straight obviously kept waking up man ,i get so angry at that but then i have to remind my self that its a good reminder not to ever go back down that road n that iv come so far yet its not far enough..
i didnt take any benzo either,just .1 clonodine and melatonin.

i dont feel too bad later on in the day, its the mornings that get me the most,and wen i only 1 or 2 hours sleep i was like a druken zombie all day..lol,no joke..

 

[fritzerman]

Best thing I found for sleep is valerian root. For mornings and mood in general gabapentin works well for me. Good luck.

 

[Nicholai]

For sleep, you can combine 3mgs melatonin with 400mg magnesium and 100mg benadryl for better effect. Works so much better than melatonin alone.

The xanex is very very valuable for sleep imo. Praise the lord for alprazolam, it's awesome when you're in WD. Just don't get addicted to a different drug, but it sounds like that's not going to happen in this instance!

Good job for kicking that big of a habit! It's hell to w/d from that much oxy, I know from experience!

 

[hello_goodbye]

Personally I found the subs to be a pretty crappy withdrawal. The hardest thing is trying to preoccupy your time and not focus on it. It takes a good while to readjust and balance out again. One thing that was a godsend to me was taking clonadine. If you have a good dr I would try that. It helps with the spikes of anxiety and not feeling jittery. Best of luck.

 

[tyson101]

thanks everyone..
its day 23 today off of the oxy and day day 15 off of subutex, its hasnt been easy at all but i can see the light at the end of the tunnel, been getting 5 hours sleep with the help of ambien which wasnt working up untill 2 days ago been taking it for maybe a week max , melatonin wasnt doing the trick obviously and xanax was barely helping when it came to sleep for some reson,i only took xanax 4 or 5 times in the last 3 weeks( hardly ever use it) dont like benzo THANK GOD ...
as for energy and strength , its coming back slowly.
tonight im not guna take any sleep aid n see what happens...