XTc_for_me said:
i called the dr. and made an appointment, its scheduled for tues at noon, hopefully they can help..... i have this terrible problem were i look at myself and see nothing but ugly, when i try to talk to ppl i dont know i freeze up.....i really do hate myself, doesnt the saying go you cant love others if you dont love yourself? i have caused alot of drama with my dad over the years because of it, i wish i could just talk to him like a normal person, i keep everything to myself, i dont feel like i can let my emotions out to my few friends i have, or my dad.......im rambling on i know, kinda buzzed, hopefully some medication will help me.....
Sounds like you have social phobia, a bad self-esteem, a complex maybe? (you know, even the attractive and some celebrities are like this) and depression. Do you get anxiety when you're around other people and just want to be left alone? If so, then that's basically social phobia. Medication
may help, but it is not successful in all who suffer from these conditions. Cognitive Behavoural Therapy, with a psychologist can help, but is not always successful either. Sometimes, it requires time, determination, and a combination of CBT and medication to, I won't use the term "cure", but I'll say it can make it easier to cope with.
Life experience can always help. And I know, myself, as a sufferer from depression, anxiety and social phobia (sometimes), I would crawl into my little hole and not face the world. This is a form of avoidance and when you're avoiding these things like social confrontation and interaction, you're only depriving yourself of better ways to cope with the root of the problem. Take it one step at a time, as psychologists like to say and the more experience you have with facing the things you don't like doing, you have a tendency to be able to cope with it easier and ignore the negative, sometimes invasive thoughts that go part-in-parcel with depression and social phobia/anxiety.
Good luck man. There's people out there that want to help, whether you believe it or not, and there are also people who like to "feed" of other people's weaknesses too, so this can make it harder to deal with and sometimes force us into avoidance.
You'll get there man, you're still only very young. But, the sooner you get onto this problem, the better.