08-04-08 Went to a meeting

*** copied from BL journal ***

Well, I went to an NA meeting today. I fidgeted in the back the whole time and was real uncomfortable when people approached me. I was open-minded and critical at the same time

Dude asked if anyone had a burning desire to use, before I could raise my hand, some motherfucker (who walked in late) started talking like an NA guru. He actually preceded his little speech with "I have a burning desire HaHaHa, no, I just wanted to share". Get there earlier motherfucker.

Next, some chick started sharing about how great life was now that she's clean. (You had time to say that earlier, bitch). I want to get to the point where life is great and I knew I was gonna use after the meeting. For some reason I thought if I could have said something, I wouldn't have rushed out of there to get fucked up.

I'm going back Thursday, though. I'm gonna kick this shit and no self-important 12 stepper is gonna get in my way.
 
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