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Fuck, I'm not reading six pages of this shit.

im just gonna assume

1) Fuck you shady

2) it will be okay cap < 3

3) how U doin' DG?
Thank you mal

It will be okay and i am so loving how sexy you are you lumberjack <3

I love you guys. Thank you for talking me down when i am having issues

I dont know what i would do without you beautiful people
 
I just saw the banner welcoming me at the lounge. That’s awesome, thank you Bluelight aliens! Those types of things mean a lot to me! I’m willing to anal on the first date! Fucking 2020, The year of the Butt. Let’s get nuts!
btw thank you for being kind to me today

I totally needed it, I can tell everything's going to be alright now and I still have my WORDS in tact. <3
 
i wanted to give a special thanks to DAISY

Daisy

@✿Dai₷y✿

Once upon a time I was in a bad spot and I'm TOO PRIDEFUL I KNOW PRIDE IS A SIN AND I'M A SINNER, I know, I know, forgive me lord Jesus, and so, you offered me $100. I was TOO PROUD TO ACCEPT IT, but the offer, the fact that you would say that, means the world to me.

You are a good person and really truly wanted to help someone out. Maybe it's because I'm like you I don't want to be a burden on society, and I hate the fact that my mental health gets in the way of me being productive. I mean, I used to work 50+ hours a week and I LOVED that overtime! I did. That used to be me, and I SO want to get back there.

Same to SOSO.

@Soso78

You literally gave me the same offer, and I felt the love/respect behind it.

It's not about the money to me, money means nothing to me. I just want a family around me, people who respect me, are chill, can hang out, and discuss ideas.

Both of you guys tend to be economically to the right like me and I think that's why you feel that part of yourselves that keeps you driven/working. I am devastated I can't contribute to society the same way. The left want me to think it's OK to not contribute and to get handouts/kickbacks. I don't. I want me dead over it, and ya'll are telling me IT'S OK LOVE YOURSELF YOU CAN KEEP LIVING by giving me $ instead of encouraging me to rely on the welfare state.

I love you for that.

<3

You guys are truly worthy. I AM TOO PROUD/ANCAP TO ACCEPT YOUR HELP. Seriously. I KNOW we are all one. Hold onto your money. Maybe there's a day when I really will need it or someone LIKE YOUR OWN FAMILY MEMBERS or CLOSE FRIENDS who have shown you TRUE ACTS OF KINDNESS AND MERCY may need it. Save it for THEM/THEN. Right now I'm going to be able to make it to tomorrow. I have food to eat. I have good friends who took care of me tonight. I have at least 1 hit of shatter I'll save for tomorrow to help cushion the blow of sobriety.

If I'm mentally ill and acting out remind me of this post ok guys <3 I do love myself and love my life. I just have SERIOUS PTSD. I have had psychiatrists laugh at me because I'm so PTSD and they're like "you don't get it? of course you're PTSD" and they have laughed in my face. It's not a good feeling. It was the most pathetic I've ever felt in life.

Thank you for having some empathy for my mental disorders guys.

Except for SHADY. I love you too brah but you have no empathy and you should work on that. <3
 
Some of my speech doesn't make sense because I'm drunk and shit. Hopefully half that made sense.

Basically if I need help I'll ask for it, or I won't from pride but remind me "CPT STOP SINNING PRIDE IS A SIN" and I'll get humble and start loving myself again. I have a very static worldview and it has caused me much hardship in life but also has made me who I am today which is why ya'll love me and I'm LEARNING to love myself too. It's a process but I'm a long way on that journey. And I'm encouraging others on the self-love journey because I sense we can make the world better that way. IRL and BL peeps. <3 I can LOVE THE UNIVERSE and I DO!
 
Since I have no self-conception and truly know we're all one these are really just intricate notes to myself that I know y'all will intuitively or knowingly mirror back to me in your own words later.

@devilsgospel

And I'mma listen to DG more. SATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATANSATAN
 
You’ll be fine, thanks again being so welcoming here. I’m excited to get up to 50 posts so I can start helping people with addiction here and make sure that people are less in danger. I need to be on my game when people want to know the safest way to inject Windex into their fucking eyeballs. I love helping people! You should read the terrible things I’ve been writing on you forum trying to get up to 50 posts. I’m not proud.
lol brah is there a cool down period between posts

I don't set that shit but you seem legit. Of course I am told I'm not a perfect judge of character, so perhaps those limits are there for good reason. But you can PM staff as much as you want if you wanna chat/shoot the shit. I'm always around. I'm gonna try eating but LIQUOR seems more appealing.

Yes I only had $17 or $22 left or some shit and I bought $14 worth of liquor. I DID. I gave half of it away to a friend because you have to share the wealth no matter what you have and it comes around tenfold. And being a self-lover and loving person helps too. <3 So I am drunk WHAT OF IT.
 
"Do you think maybe you have a drugs/alcohol problem"
I HAVE MENTAL HEALTH DISORDERS AND I'LL DO WHAT I NEED TO IN ORDER TO GET BY, ALRIGHT? DON'T JUDGE LEST YE BE JUDGED

if I was MENTALLY HEALTHIER like ANYONE HERE except for Shady, I would strive to live a sober life. WE ARE WHO WE ARE BECAUSE WE'RE AS STRONG AS WE NEED TO BE TO GET THROUGH THIS.

Lots of love <3
 
legs guy from earlier in this thread

seriously read through this whole thread, it's a trip.

I tend to "cultivate" the posts here by deleting a lot of my gibberish leaving the good stuff

sometimes if I get quoted and the original is lost = it's because the quote was enough to get the jist

highlights
sexual stories I later expanded upon in words before deleting (i may repost them sometime because it's about me having public sexual encounters)
GAYCOLLEGE (INCLUDING GUEST LECTURERS WOLF AND MAL) iirc
and um
HYLIGHT, madness, shady aka ERICHA meltdowns, etc.
 
who

i am a musician but i don't know who ur talkin about
im kinda faded and will wake up sober as shit tomorrow groaning about my crappy life which is really awesome but it seems crappy in CB-1 wd and I'm a total bitch

if there's any LOVE in the world SOMEONE might help me out (fam, friends, someone) and I will totally get them back if I ever can one day <3 I always have friends' backs, I try to.
 
I have three rules in life that everyone should have learned in Kindergarten.

I live by these three rules and expect everyone else to.

1 Always share
2 Don’t ever tell on me

And the most important rule

3 Don’t steal my fucking crayons!

I usually scream that 3rd rule to new acquaintances I’m introduced to.
I don’t compromise on those, ever

That’s my moral compass that everyone should have learned.



Ner ner I have my pen license
 
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