i wanted to give a special thanks to DAISY
Daisy
@✿Dai₷y✿
Once upon a time I was in a bad spot and I'm TOO PRIDEFUL I KNOW PRIDE IS A SIN AND I'M A SINNER, I know, I know, forgive me lord Jesus, and so, you offered me $100. I was TOO PROUD TO ACCEPT IT, but the offer, the fact that you would say that, means the world to me.
You are a good person and really truly wanted to help someone out. Maybe it's because I'm like you I don't want to be a burden on society, and I hate the fact that my mental health gets in the way of me being productive. I mean, I used to work 50+ hours a week and I LOVED that overtime! I did. That used to be me, and I SO want to get back there.
Same to SOSO.
@Soso78
You literally gave me the same offer, and I felt the love/respect behind it.
It's not about the money to me, money means nothing to me. I just want a family around me, people who respect me, are chill, can hang out, and discuss ideas.
Both of you guys tend to be economically to the right like me and I think that's why you feel that part of yourselves that keeps you driven/working. I am devastated I can't contribute to society the same way. The left want me to think it's OK to not contribute and to get handouts/kickbacks. I don't. I want me dead over it, and ya'll are telling me IT'S OK LOVE YOURSELF YOU CAN KEEP LIVING by giving me $ instead of encouraging me to rely on the welfare state.
I love you for that.
You guys are truly worthy. I AM TOO PROUD/ANCAP TO ACCEPT YOUR HELP. Seriously. I KNOW we are all one. Hold onto your money. Maybe there's a day when I really will need it or someone LIKE YOUR OWN FAMILY MEMBERS or CLOSE FRIENDS who have shown you TRUE ACTS OF KINDNESS AND MERCY may need it. Save it for THEM/THEN. Right now I'm going to be able to make it to tomorrow. I have food to eat. I have good friends who took care of me tonight. I have at least 1 hit of shatter I'll save for tomorrow to help cushion the blow of sobriety.
If I'm mentally ill and acting out remind me of this post ok guys

I do love myself and love my life. I just have SERIOUS PTSD.
I have had psychiatrists laugh at me because I'm so PTSD and they're like "you don't get it? of course you're PTSD" and they have laughed in my face. It's not a good feeling. It was the most pathetic I've ever felt in life.
Thank you for having some empathy for my mental disorders guys.
Except for SHADY. I love you too brah but you have no empathy and you should work on that.
