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DopeM said:
They're all great when used with moderation
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some minds can't handle certain things like i've seen so many ppl crumble from that VROOMVROOM shit but

you seem chiller somehow

so good for you bro

live for the moment, for the future, for eternity. don't get caught in the past because it fuckin' sucks I wasted a lot of my life like that.

It all dawned on me last year when I stood at the foot of one of my family member's graves who I revered and looked up to my whole life. They died a disgraceful death to top it off.

Life's too precious to live in the past, for any of us. You've got a wife and a daughter and I can't imagine that isn't the American fuckin' dream right there. Live in the moment w/ us all and you're welcome to play all the time. <3
 
Captain.Heroin said:
i'm already buzzed but I want to work it up to wasted so I can get buzzed later because at leats 1 oz will wear off
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yeah, I am working on getting comfortably numb today as we have had a shitload of snow dumped on us and it has amped up my pain level to 10 MAX PAIN! MUST ADMINISTER MORPHINE!
 
i need HAPPY :D and am so close

just poudning a few beers and gonna have like more cereal and then an ice cream sandwich (lit. down to no $ and very very broke; my one friend was so kind and bought me a meal 6 tacos mmm and tonnsss of toppings becasue lit starving and had 1 meal yesterday)

beer helps cuz it has calories
 
I like passion in a lover.
I like passion in a person period!
I like a fiery soul!

I like tenderness but I can also dig some loosing your mind going at it like madness!
It just has to be done with finesse.

I love to have that heart to heart connection .
I do love kissing too! It is a very intimate thing to me.
A good kisser is a MUST!
 
Yea, it's weird. I see good ppl seemingly lose their shit on it. Maybe I really have ADHD? I've never rly noticed any negative effects even after like day 5 or 6. The worst I've gotten was some auditory hallucinations of some very nice orchestral movements. Some minor paranoia and maybe slight aggravation at not being able to sleep. the wife gets a bit cranky though
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Sorry I've been drinking and dealing w/ grief and I get emotional easily.

5 humans and my pet of 9 years passed away last year and it's fucking with me a bit.
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It is alright.
You are okay.
Feeling grief over those we love is human.

At least we got the pleasure and honor of having them in our lives!
They will forever be part of us. ❤️

I am also feeing a lot of grief. This time of year is hard for me.
I lost my beloved dad and grandma and others all at this time of year.
I am feeling it too.

Come give me a hug!
🌹
 
Lol you post like 1000 miles per minute. Its tough sometimes, also I get stuck on work stuff and then harassment from TL resident drama queen (sup Wolfy?)
 
DopeM said:
Yea, it's weird. I see good ppl seemingly lose their shit on it. Maybe I really have ADHD? I've never rly noticed any negative effects even after like day 5 or 6. The worst I've gotten was some auditory hallucinations of some very nice orchestral movements. Some minor paranoia and maybe slight aggravation at not being able to sleep. the wife gets a bit cranky though
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oh yay you replied

but also like such ppl also lose their shit on high dose psychs and shit

if you can "bounce back" from that shit well then speed is likely also not too terrible but I can't assure you of that i am not convinced yet

I've been up for up to 7 dyas in a row and I get more "child-awe inspired at the world", at simple things like a butterfly or bumble bee instead of scared.

It's because NE tends to burn out, DA/5-HT goes to what like "normal happy" people arel ike because I'm PTSD fucked

I'm so glad I have a new protocol and it involves no speed :D
 
DopeM said:
Lol you post like 1000 miles per minute. Its tough sometimes, also I get stuck on work stuff and then harassment from TL resident drama queen (sup Wolfy?)
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oh u at work good for you man keep up the work shit

after my fam member died, and that was like in the middle of series of personal losses i went thru, i mentally shut down for a while and just couldn't be productive and i tried and it ward hard. Gonna try again soon.
 
I'm sorry for your losses, I know I'm not rdy to let go of the pupper and much less so any of my human family (cept maybe moms, sry ma). Its good to grieve and grow you seem to be I the midst of it rn. I wish you the best bruv
 
Lol, I'd actually suckle on Mal's salty balls. They seem to have the right amount of salt.

Wolf seems to have caught something, I think they switched the salt out for puss infected maggot when they made wolf's salty brand

If wolf isn't harassing me then I guess I wasn't harassing Tabitha.
 
ahh i'll leave the posts up

fuck i'm so drunk from just 2 going on 3 beers

i gota get a 5th one in me and then get my shit together i hate this shit

it's like a beautiful death each time, a chance for me to keep getting better and a nice escape from the tedium of my disorders.
 
You need a new dog In your life.
Or pet of some kind.

Animals are the most awesome little healers ever and you will never find a more loyal friend!
 
Captain.Heroin said:
ahh i'll leave the posts up

fuck i'm so drunk from just 2 going on 3 beers

i gota get a 5th one in me and then get my shit together i hate this shit

it's like a beautiful death each time, a chance for me to keep getting better and a nice escape from the tedium of my disorders.
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I liked this.
I can see you doing a lot of growing and changing CH.
It is a good thing to see. 💜

You are going to come out of this metamorphosis wonderful!

And yes... we all need a nice escape from the tedium, pain, symptoms, etc. etc.
You are certainly not alone in that!
Did someone say 4:20? Alrighty then! I can dig that!

Love you guys!
Have a Great Day!
It is FRIDAY!!
I am snowed in. So I am going to forget my worries for awhile and make a nice crock pot full of chili or stew that I can munch on for days! Some cornbread too. Enjoy some drugs and a nice fire, some candles and cuddles from my doggie.
She is in agreement over the pot of stew.
I think that is a good goal for today!
ENJOY!

☃️❄️🍲🥧🍨🎸
 
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