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Harm Reduction ⫸Should I Try HEROIN?⫷

Well, I am a 20 year old, living a decent life, minding my studies. But I have always wanted to try the "H". Only once, of course, to experience it.

Is it safe or worth doing?

I attempted that when I was 19 in college. I failed out. I got an OUI charge because I was parked with my keys in the car and the cops found dirt needles, and just got out of detox a month. Now I have to goto meetings once 3 times a week and am drug test. The high is amazing though.
 
Well, I am a 20 year old, living a decent life, minding my studies. But I have always wanted to try the "H". Only once, of course, to experience it.

Is it safe or worth doing?

Good luck doing it once.

I was going to do it once too... Didn't really work out.

After you see how good it feels, my guess is you'll do it again.
 
its been 3 days since my last shot of dope, and i am having trouble finding a reason to put up a good fight and stay sober. for the past 2 months, i have used heroin once a week, sometimes snorting because i usually get angry with myself and throw my rigs away after i run out of heroin and say, " atleast this next week i will be sober!!!!" then usually about a 3-5 days after i get that insatiable urge to use heroin again. i know this will lead no where good, and everytime i inject heroin/cocaine i inject like a gram of cocaine in 2hrs along with .3 of heroin, i get too high and end up throwing up like multiple times that night, or i get really sedated and cannot enjoy the euphoria because i feel guilty. it is never that pleasing per se, and i end up having guilty thoughts while i am doing it. thing is i dont really enjoy the high unless inject with cocaine aswell. wtf...

FUCK i want a speedball right now, but i dont. i have so much going for me, the past 2 years i have been to 5 different inpatient rehabs, 2 outpatient, and 5 different halfway houses, i have been in and out of jail multiple times, i was homeless, robbed at gun point, and so much other crazy shit and i cannot go back to where i was. i got out of my last halfway house this past may, and i used heroin once, decided it was not what i wanted, and then i just used kratom a couple times a month for 4 months. then i found out my next door neighbor had a script for hydrocodone, and started using those pills maybe 3-5 times a month.. then i got the brilliant idea to inject heroin. and ever since then i can feel myself slowly slipping back down the hole. i am 20 years old, i have my own apartment, my parents are finally talking to me again and they are SOOO happy that i am sober (or atleast believe that i am), i have been able to have a job, i have never been so happy in my life.

however, i keep going back and forth back and forth. i will get high, then i will decide never to use again, then i call my dealers and tell them never to call me, block their numbers, delete their numbers etc.. then at most 2 weeks later (i can never make it past a week) , i will call them bak or find a need dealer or something and get high, and start the process over again.... it is so ironic that a story never told quite like mine has ever been told before.... who knows, maybe i will stay sober, maybe i will go on chipping for a while, maybe i will get HIV/hep c, maybe i will overdose and die, who knows what the fuck will happen...

that monkey on my back tells me, "one more time wont hurt, there is always tomorrow to get sober and stay clean." then i say no i really dont want this, i know i feel soooo much better about life when i dont use heroin!!!



edit: right after writing this i went and copped some heroin :(....just goes to show you how much of a fucking beast heroin and opiates alike are. i feel like i can never get away, but i know in my heart that i can. the most sober time off opiates i have had since i started using opiates 6 years ago was 4 months long, and i wont say i was the happiest, but i loved my life alot better. i guess my ego started to kick back in and negative thinking started to happen again and i got the fuck its and said what the fuck i DESERVE to be happy. but i have to remember life is not always about being happy, that is the duality aspect of my ego talking to me, telling me that there is something to achieve out of life, that things are either black or white, nothing in between. but that is not what life is like, life is ambiguous, and there nothing to get out of life, we are living purposeless lives. by that i mean ok so someone moght have the purpose to get a great job and make alot of money. but once that money is acheived, then that money seems like it is not enough. another example is imagine sleeping on a bed, the side you are currently on is hard and uncomfortable, so you turn to the other side. what a relief! however, in a couple of minutes, that comfortability goes away and you start to move to the other side.

good only comes from the oppposition of bad, but life and the world is not based on duality, only are egos tell us that it is. idk im gfucking high and i am rambling.
 
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LaCster:
All I can say for sure is the more times you give in and use, the more insatiable the urge will be. Plus, if you ramp up your usage much more, you'll get sick from NOT using, and then it's REALLY got you by the balls. I'd stop while you still have the ability.
PS in "best of bluelight", someone wrote a post called Monkey On My Back describing the slow insidious process of H addiction. It's long but well worth the read.

EDIT: dude I see I was 10 minutes too late. You are at a critical juncture here my friend. Let this be the last time you use. I predict this is it.. The final use, or the foray into opiate addiction.
 
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LaCster:
All I can say for sure is the more times you give in and use, the more insatiable the urge will be. Plus, if you ramp up your usage much more, you'll get sick from NOT using, and then it's REALLY got you by the balls. I'd stop while you still have the ability.
PS in "best of bluelight", someone wrote a post called Monkey On My Back describing the slow insidious process of H addiction. It's long but well worth the read.

EDIT: dude I see I was 10 minutes too late. You are at a critical juncture here my friend. Let this be the last time you use. I predict this is it.. The final use, or the foray into opiate addiction.

you dont have to be a fortune teller to know that is for damn sure :(

i dont want to go back to being strung out.... maybe this will be the last time. i tell myself that i am moving to a new location and i will delete the numbers and i wont be able to get them back because the person i get the number from is my neighbor and i dont have a car, but who am i fooling?
 
Where there's a will, there's a way. It seems things unravel around the 3 day mark. Could you fess up to your mom or a friend, and maybe they could be a sober companion of sorts until you get over the hump. Or check yourself back in to the sober living facility ?
 
Where there's a will, there's a way. It seems things unravel around the 3 day mark. Could you fess up to your mom or a friend, and maybe they could be a sober companion of sorts until you get over the hump. Or check yourself back in to the sober living facility ?

No offense but that is the worst idea I have heard in a long time . Rehab is fucking stupid. Doesn't fucking work.... and there is no way I will tell my parents. Going to rehab and telling my mom would make my situation ten times worse. Never going back to rehab and if I tell my mom I would be homeless and then I would go even harder
 
No offense but that is the worst idea I have heard in a long time . Rehab is fucking stupid. Doesn't fucking work.... and there is no way I will tell my parents. Going to rehab and telling my mom would make my situation ten times worse. Never going back to rehab and if I tell my mom I would be homeless and then I would go even harder
Ok, I didn't know your relationship with your mom or your feelings on rehab, since I don't know you.
Obviously you have the situation COMPLETELY under control, so I'll stop with the suggestions.
I wish you well.
 
heroin - is it true you get addicted first time?

just curious...does everyone who tried heroin end up addicted?
Also heard not sure if this is a myth or not, but do girls get hooked on it harder than guys?
I've wanted to try it but am scared to! have been IV'g meth for few years so would be total different high.:)
 
thanks...being scared is probably good here..every other drug- well pretty much all the well known ones I've tried but when I got offered this, something made me back off
 
I have been curious to try heroin; however after reading this and the other threads, I am definitely not going down that path. Thankyou for the well informed intro
 
You just have to be careful. I'm trying heroin for the first time this weekend. I think there are factors. I know with cocaine, I was hooked from the first line. Given, we had 5 grams of Puruvian flake, between 3 people, that we finished in 3 days. Not smart for a first time use. But I haven't done blow in months. I know I can use it responsibly now. But that wasn't an immediate addiction. It was "hey, this is awesome, I'm going to keep buying this". I'm sure heroin won't get you on the first go, though. Just be smart.
 
Ok, I didn't know your relationship with your mom or your feelings on rehab, since I don't know you.
Obviously you have the situation COMPLETELY under control, so I'll stop with the suggestions.
I wish you well.


the elephant walks where the man cannot see
 
No, not everyone who tries heroin becomes addicted, but if you are one of those people who are susceptible to opiate addiction, then yes, doing heroin only once can get you addicted in no time flat. I've only done heroin about 5x in my entire life (IV'ing or snorting), and I never got anywhere close to addicted. My DOC are amphetamines, though. I'd much rather spend my time tweaking than throwing up projectile vomit after mainlining boy.
 
Wow, thank you for this post.

I am in the second last year of my college and I have been meaning to try it, only once obviously. But this post, well, it helps a lot! Thank you!
 
I've never really been into opiates my doc is meth IV'ing ....I've heard heaps of different things about heroin though like some ppl reckon its the best high and stuff, it sounds good..I seen a guy have a hit and then sit there dribbling and vomiting all over himself, didn't look like much fun to me, but I guess it affects everyone in a different way.
 
I have only tried herion once. It was Fucking great, besides being sick for next 12 hours. I guess I didnt.become addicted because I was a raging alcoholic
 
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