cowboycurtis
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 14, 2011
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- 187
Made it through last night. Thanks for all the responses @chinup @yubacity @Rio Fantastic. I think I need rehab though. I just don’t know that I can trust myself and continuing to torture myself week-in and week-out like this is absolute insanity. I have court next week and I cannot risk the possibility of being locked up while sick. I’m losing my shit just thinking about it. 8 days of pure hell in a cell like 5-6 years ago is what got me clean the last time. The only thing that concerns me is that the rehab the courts would likely send me too is only blocks away from my scoring spot. I mean I resisted last time and I was there for 4 months, but again, I was facing some time. I am just so done with this shit. I’m tired and I feel fucking ancient at 27, not to mention all the dead friends. I am ready to leave this shit behind while circumstances are not irreparable.
@yubacity I hope you feel better man, if not for you then for your daughter until you want it for yourself. We can do this! One craving at a time. At the very least stay away from the street dope. Too much of a gamble these days. I know I’m preaching to the choir, but it’s true. I know I’m playing with fire every time I do it. And you’re in the U.S. too right now and you know what we got goin on in the game over here right now. Fucking OD’s over here like they’re going out of style. Be safe!
@yubacity I hope you feel better man, if not for you then for your daughter until you want it for yourself. We can do this! One craving at a time. At the very least stay away from the street dope. Too much of a gamble these days. I know I’m preaching to the choir, but it’s true. I know I’m playing with fire every time I do it. And you’re in the U.S. too right now and you know what we got goin on in the game over here right now. Fucking OD’s over here like they’re going out of style. Be safe!