Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

[Mildred Ratched]

hey everybody, just thought i’d come back and give everybody an update i am going on 15 months since my last injection and am doing incredibly well, i am 110% back to being the person i was before the injections, i might even say better than i was before the injections messed me up. i’ve returned to my studies and rarely think about the injections / the hell i experienced from invega but when it does cross my mind i think about how dark it was and how thankful i am to have come out the other side better than before. please believe me when i say it gets better so just hang in there reflecting back on it all i believe there was a handful of things that helped my recovery such as regular exercise, healthy eating, taking supplements, the several acupuncture sessions i did for anxiety, therapy (CBT), connection and community, the love i have for my child, self care, good sleep hygiene (aiming to get 7-8 hours sleep even if i was waking up through the night), giving myself things to look forward to whether it was big or small but i think the most important thing is to be as positive as possible… i never let any negative thoughts overtake me, i did gratitude journaling and told myself 3 postive things anytime i had a negative thought (highly recommend watching youtube vids on brain plasticity)
as for medication, i believe the bupropion in the combo medication i’ve spoken of here also helped, it’s not a magical fix and won’t take away all your problems but personally for me it did help to elevate my mood.
i know how difficult of a time you’re having but you will absolutely get through this!! just do your best to give yourself the love and care you need and deserve through your recovery journey even if it comes with great difficulty maybe showering feels like too much of a chore but at least brush your teeth and wash your face, going to the gym might be a bit much for you right now but atleast go for a 20-30 minute walk and get some sunlight. just do whatever you can the best that you can you can and will absolutely get through this so don’t give up, life as you knew it before the injections is still there, you just got to soldier through until you get there

Glad to see that you’ve recovered!!

I am mostly recovered from Invega as well and it has been a long hard road but I am happy I got off the Invega injections!!

 

[blanch116]

4.5 months off update
Blocked feeling in my forehead has lessened
Feel less of a zombie and can conversate a bit better.
Adhonia still very present
Motivation for small tasks is there if I push myself (showers / chores) but no actual drive to do things.
Sleep is getting better and I don’t feel mentally switched to permanently on 24/7) and sort of get tired on a night
Personality still greatly deminnished
Social abilities also greatly halted but thats due to having a blank mind. I can think but no spontaneous thoughts come to me and im mostly quiet (opposite of my baseline)

 

[InnerReturn]

Day 270. Recently felt a short adrenaline rush. Today I decided to start an intramuscular course of B vitamins, along with magnesium and vitamin B6 in tablet form. I slept from the afternoon all the way until evening. I feel better than a few months ago

 

[blanch116]

Day 270. Recently felt a short adrenaline rush. Today I decided to start an intramuscular course of B vitamins, along with magnesium and vitamin B6 in tablet form. I slept from the afternoon all the way until evening. I feel better than a few months ago

Big happy for the adrenaline rush! Im glad you’re getting that back! I bet it felt amazing! Weird how even the smallest of normal reactions is a huge win for us!

 

[Ammarishot]

Things that you get on psych meds (some of these aren't there):

Moderate to high tiredness
Anhedonia
Dryness
Weakness
Organ issues
Bad boredom
Problems in physical activity

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐧, 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐛𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐳𝐞 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐞 i.e. ‘𝐈 𝐀𝐦𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬’!

“What is its name? It is Mahātatva, Moolmāyā, Primary Illusion, ‘𝐈 𝐀𝐦𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬’ (So Hum) or ‘I am the manifest Brahman’. Manifested Brahman is the ‘I am’, whatever principle is prior to the utterance of sound, that principle proclaims itself!

What I insist on, is that you must stabilize in that state! The recitation of the mantra ‘So Hum’ must be for very long time, it is prior to words. When that ‘So Hum’ principle, is pleased, that principle, represented by these words, expounds knowledge!

~ Sri Nisargadatta Mahārāj - I Am Unborn - Chapter 38 - Pages 80 ~
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"𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭" 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐨𝐡𝐚𝐦 सोऽहम्!

The joy we get from singing bhajans and by performing worship is temporary. But by experiencing the essence of "soham" mantra, we will get eternal joy. This soham is also known by the name "Hamsa Gāyatrī".

" 𝐒𝐨" means "𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭"; "𝐇𝐮𝐦"; means "𝐈 𝐚𝐦". "I am That" is the meaning of soham! We should be conscious of the chant “soham” which occurs with every breath! When we breathe, we are inhaling "so" and we are exhaling "ham". If we audibly repeat soham mantra with every inhalation and exhalation of breath, it will certainly be very beneficial to us. We should be conscious of "soham" with every breath and watch our breath carefully! We do not have to be initiated and then given this mantra, it’s a gift by nature herself!

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

 

[lostsoulowen]

I'm finally feeling like I'm starting to heal, the brain dead lobotomized feeling in the forehead starting to fade.
5 days before 1 year.
But i also take a lot of vitamins and took a bit of nootropics, so i could easily see this stage would have taken 13-14 months if i didn't take a lot of supplementals.(Nad, Creatine,omega 3 and more)

 

[Trueart2]

I was well into recovery before I took some medication to combat muscle spasms that put me back into psychosis. I’m currently on Haldol Deconate having to rebegin the recovery process all over again but one injection of Haldol deconoate is no where near the levels of POSION Invega is.

 

[blanch116]

I was well into recovery before I took some medication to combat muscle spasms that put me back into psychosis. I’m currently on Haldol Deconate having to rebegin the recovery process all over again but one injection of Haldol deconoate is no where near the levels of POSION Invega is.

Shit man thats crap to hear what happened during your psychosis? Are you alright

 

[Trueart2]

I’m still at my job teaching it begins soon I have crazy amounts of anxiety about going back while so soon off the injection but nevertheless I rather do this and try then be stuck working a dead end retail/fast food job right now. I’m operating at 45% of my usual capacity

 

[fuckabout89]

I was well into recovery before I took some medication to combat muscle spasms that put me back into psychosis. I’m currently on Haldol Deconate having to rebegin the recovery process all over again but one injection of Haldol deconoate is no where near the levels of POSION Invega is.

I dont know I contest that, if I woulda forced myself to stay on that the akathisia woulda 100% drove me to jumping off a cliff. Man was that fucking awful actually almost the level of the abilify shot and the anhedonia is the worst with first generation ones.

 

[Trueart2]

Shit man thats crap to hear what happened during your psychosis? Are you alright

Spiritual psychosis. I was only in it for maybe about a week( I was hearing voices for 8-9 months the first time I went into psychosis). Still that’s long enough time for them to shoot me up with medication, this time I know for a fact they cannot force me to take the medicine unlike how they attempted to steer me last time. I only have to go see the psychiatrist 3 times in 3 months and that’s the extent of my treatment plan. The only thing about this is now my entire circle around me aside from my therapist is convinced I’m a legit schizophrenic now, and I am too becoming more convinced by the day.

 

[fuckabout89]

Id cut all those people out my life who want to make me endure that kinda torture. I wont even see mine again they traumatized me that badly I'll never walk in that place again.

 

[Trueart2]

Id cut all those people out my life who want to make me endure that kinda torture. I wont even see mine again they traumatized me that badly I'll never walk in that place again.

Nobody knows how tortuous these injections actually are unless you’ve been on them. And it doesn’t help that the population they’re giving it to are legitimately people who without them are largely non-functional individuals at least in the context of how society is ran. The entire premise of these shots is to keep a person out of the hospital by any means necessary and the stats show that unfortunately for our fates the shots are effective at doing so.

 

[paranoid android]

Nobody knows how tortuous these injections actually are unless you’ve been on them. And it doesn’t help that the population they’re giving it to are legitimately people who without them are largely non-functional individuals at least in the context of how society is ran. The entire premise of these shots is to Peronist out of the hospital by any means necessary and the stats show that unfortunately for our fates the shots are effective at doing so.

The psych ward was actually way more traumatic for me then invega shots. Fuck that place right off

 

[Brendan Clark]

Nobody knows how tortuous these injections actually are unless you’ve been on them. And it doesn’t help that the population they’re giving it to are legitimately people who without them are largely non-functional individuals at least in the context of how society is ran. The entire premise of these shots is to keep a person out of the hospital by any means necessary and the stats show that unfortunately for our fates the shots are effective at doing so.

I was actually a highly functioning person before the invega shots. The shots totally turned my life upside down and I genuinely don't know if I'll ever return to being that person again

 

[Brendan Clark]

Guys after 9 invega shots it feels like my life is ruined forever. I can't even sleep at night nor do I feel tired it's so weird. When you wake up you know how you normally get that satisfied feeling of having rested, well I don't have that anymore. My last dose was over a month ago on 30th June and that was the one that made things so much worse. I can't even begin to describe the horrors I'm going through. I've lost interest in everything I was passionate in, even my degree subjects. I have zero interest in anything except my faith now. Those who got less shots than me consider yourselves fortunate because there are different levels of invega suffering and I think mine is on the extreme end of the spectrum. I feel so hopeless just now. And there's nothing anyone can do to practically help me so I'm genuinely praying for a miracle. Everything in life was going well (there were problems here and there of course but nothing comparable to this) until I was forced against my will to take these shots. The whole world carries on with their lives not knowing what a blessing it is to have functioning dopamine, serotonin, and adrenaline receptors and here I am watching everyone and wishing I had a fraction of what they've got. Even to genuinely laugh once would mean something to me. Words can't describe my suffering. Nothing can do it justice. I feel like I'm not living anymore, but just breathing. What did I do to deserve this? The future looks so bleak for me, and I'm only 30. I can't even take a month of this, how am I going to survive a potential 60 years? Even one hour like this feels like torture. Nevermind an hour, one minute! Will I continue suffering like this forever? It's mind boggling how such a drug hasn't been banned by now, how the industry is just able to get away with poisoning people like this...I can't find many people to relate to in real life who've gone through this like I have, and this makes my experience even lonelier. If I had my emotions back I'd be crying everyday, but this drug has turned my heart into a heart of stone with no human emotions or feelings. This is what it means to be truly dehumanised.

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

Guys after 9 invega shots it feels like my life is ruined forever. I can't even sleep at night nor do I feel tired it's so weird. When you wake up you know how you normally get that satisfied feeling of having rested, well I don't have that anymore. My last dose was over a month ago on 30th June and that was the one that made things so much worse. I can't even begin to describe the horrors I'm going through. I've lost interest in everything I was passionate in, even my degree subjects. I have zero interest in anything except my faith now. Those who got less shots than me consider yourselves fortunate because there are different levels of invega suffering and I think mine is on the extreme end of the spectrum. I feel so hopeless just now. And there's nothing anyone can do to practically help me so I'm genuinely praying for a miracle. Everything in life was going well (there were problems here and there of course but nothing comparable to this) until I was forced against my will to take these shots. The whole world carries on with their lives not knowing what a blessing it is to have functioning dopamine, serotonin, and adrenaline receptors and here I am watching everyone and wishing I had a fraction of what they've got. Even to genuinely laugh once would mean something to me. Words can't describe my suffering. Nothing can do it justice. I feel like I'm not living anymore, but just breathing. What did I do to deserve this? The future looks so bleak for me, and I'm only 30. I can't even take a month of this, how am I going to survive a potential 60 years? Even one hour like this feels like torture. Nevermind an hour, one minute! Will I continue suffering like this forever? It's mind boggling how such a drug hasn't been banned by now, how the industry is just able to get away with poisoning people like this...I can't find many people to relate to in real life who've gone through this like I have, and this makes my experience even lonelier. If I had my emotions back I'd be crying everyday, but this drug has turned my heart into a heart of stone with no human emotions or feelings. This is what it means to be truly dehumanised.

I dont want to lie so 2 years around you will have to wait to recover to good extent, @Serhat had similar amount as u and that's what he claimed, never give up, suicide is hell, we should aim to expose the abuse these monsters do, i want to but i'm still financialy dependant on abusers who dont want me to speak publicly how abused people are being misdiagnosed with mental ilness and forced max dose of antipsychotics in most of the time if im not mistaken

 

[YogirisingKundalini]

Id cut all those people out my life who want to make me endure that kinda torture. I wont even see mine again they traumatized me that badly I'll never walk in that place again.

I believe in forgiveness but my my family is still abusive and cant admit they have flaws and send me there when i was not danger to myself and others so... "Those who love their parents more then me are not worthy of me" ~ Jesus