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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Does this anhedonia ever go away? Does anybody have aversions like I do, simple stuff like showering & shaving & grooming, even changing my clothes, it's ridiculous, all of these things are so troubling & unappealing. I used to be so fastidious with my appearance. Now, I'm a disheveled mess. What the hell happened to my brain?! I don't cook or clean, read or write, do Crosswords, go for walks, even movies & TV shows I loved, I can't connect to anymore. I'm mostly emotionless, here & there I weep for the loss of the old me & old life. Basically, I do nothing, I'm just mired in misery all day, every day. I can't really explain what it is... I'm in a fog in the deepest bowels of hell. I'm going on 18 months of this Invega withdrawal. How could this last so long? Is there any reason to hope?
 
KubiKook said:
Does this anhedonia ever go away? Does anybody have aversions like I do, simple stuff like showering & shaving & grooming, even changing my clothes, it's ridiculous, all of these things are so troubling & unappealing. I used to be so fastidious with my appearance. Now, I'm a disheveled mess. What the hell happened to my brain?! I don't cook or clean, read or write, do Crosswords, go for walks, even movies & TV shows I loved, I can't connect to anymore. I'm mostly emotionless, here & there I weep for the loss of the old me & old life. Basically, I do nothing, I'm just mired in misery all day, every day. I can't really explain what it is... I'm in a fog in the deepest bowels of hell. I'm going on 18 months of this Invega withdrawal. How could this last so long? Is there any reason to hope?
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I had that on invega and abilify. I think it was partly anhedonia and partly being fat and just not caring how i looked. I stopped shaving and getting my hair cut and all that. Once i got off the injections and waited awile i was fine though. Dont worry everything goes back to normal. Im actually doing alot better now then i was pre invega. Im in way better shape then i was pre invega
 
paranoid android said:
I had that on invega and abilify. I think it was partly anhedonia and partly being fat and just not caring how i looked. I stopped shaving and getting my hair cut and all that. Once i got off the injections and waited awile i was fine though. Dont worry everything goes back to normal. Im actually doing alot better now then i was pre invega. Im in way better shape then i was pre invega
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You're extremely fortunate you recovered & even improved. I care how awful I look, just can't muster the ability to fix it. I'm more than worried. My brain has been horribly changed. I'm me but not me anymore. And there's absolutely no evidence to support a return to normal. Positivity ain't gonna make it so. Thank you for the feedback & encouragement though. Ciao for now, Dan
 
InnerReturn said:
The depression caused by Invega turned me into a dried-out tree bark, covered on all sides with cheap paint mixed with fungicide
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I like the metaphors. Surely not a rosy picture. I think you're moister now, right? And the paint & fungicide faded? Happy Wednesday, Lara ; ) -
 
KubiKook said:
You're extremely fortunate you recovered & even improved. I care how awful I look, just can't muster the ability to fix it. I'm more than worried. My brain has been horribly changed. I'm me but not me anymore. And there's absolutely no evidence to support a return to normal. Positivity ain't gonna make it so. Thank you for the feedback & encouragement though. Ciao for now, Dan
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If your a guy i would suggest getting your testosterone levels checked. Invega and abilify injections absolutely tanked mine. But now im on TRT and i feel awesome. Honestly i have the energy of a 18 year old again. For reference im a oldy 44. Test really improves your mood as well. I cant recommend TRT enough really

If your suffering from the shitty i dont give a fuck about anything type of anhedonia that i had you could do worse then to look into taking methylphenidate for it. Dont be a complete dumbass like i did and start banging up quarter grams of blow. I just didnt give a fuck when i was on the injections and for awile when i came off them. But ritalin is a great med for motivation imo with very few side effects. I wish i had a actual prescription for it but i can only get it a few times a month

From my experience with this shit when you start feeling better you will just naturally start looking better. If your a guy i would suggest hitting the weights. You wont feel anhedonia usually if your looking great. I looked so awful on invega and abilify to and for about 3 or 4 months after i got off the injections and on latuda instead. On the injections i went up to 225lbs i was so fat. My estrogen and prolactin levels must have been fucked. I honestly felt at rock bottom when i was like that.

I thought i would never get in shape again. But now i can curl 215lbs which is only 10lbs less then what i used to weight at my fattes. Im not a miracle or anything really anyone can do ir
 
KubiKook said:
I like the metaphors. Surely not a rosy picture. I think you're moister now, right? And the paint & fungicide faded? Happy Wednesday, Lara ; ) -
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Honestly, I'm still very much in the dried-out bark phase. The metaphor wasn't just about the past — it's where I am right now. But your message made me feel a little less alone in it... Happy Wednesday to you too. By the way, it's already Thursday for me. There's a time difference of about 9 hours between our cities
 
InnerReturn said:
Honestly, I'm still very much in the dried-out bark phase. The metaphor wasn't just about the past — it's where I am right now. But your message made me feel a little less alone in it... Happy Wednesday to you too. By the way, it's already Thursday for me. There's a time difference of about 9 hours between our cities
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I can relate to this abit. When i was coming off the injections i just felt like a useless body. I wasent doing anything at all to really help myself either. One of the first things i did when i got out of the psych ward was to call my coke dealer. I was basically treating the anhedonia with IV coke. Also there was definitely some sublimation going on there as well as i had no sex drive or ability to get it up so i had to get off somehow i guess. Freud would no doubt have a thing or 2 to say about me
 
InnerReturn said:
Honestly, I'm still very much in the dried-out bark phase. The metaphor wasn't just about the past — it's where I am right now. But your message made me feel a little less alone in it... Happy Wednesday to you too. By the way, it's already Thursday for me. There's a time difference of about 9 hours between our cities
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Oops, didn't even consider that. Sorry. Happy Thursday. The "happy" is obviously not reality. I guess we could both use that spark. By the way, how does dried-out bark present in a person.
I don't know how I'm going to keep on going, Lara. Truly, every second of every day is the worst kind of misery & suffering. Not one thing brings a sense of peace or purpose or pleasure. Nothing. Does anything do that for you? Well, I'm glad that I at least made you feel less alone : ) - Ah, see, there's a smile. Hee-Hee. Ciao & Shalom, Daniel-san (ala Karate Kid).
 
silenthill said:
alot of the suicides and people planning suicides don't realize the day after they die could be the day they start feeling positive changes. it's sad
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Might have been anecdotal but I remember reading an article or two where it said most of the people who survived jumping suicide attempts immediately regretted it right after jumping.
 
fuckabout89 said:
I get were your coming from im also sick of chronic illness and being stuck on social security it truly doesnt get better in my case only down hill from here. I wouldnt do it over a couple of shots of invega though wait a few years to heal
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I'm glad to hear you get social security. The government can be totally bitchy when it comes to helping citizens out.
 
The way i look at it is if your still alive you have a chance. I was thrown in solitary in the psych ward with a room that didnt even have a toilet. Honestly it was worse then the drunk tank. This was in a so called hospital and was somehow a "treatment" i guess. I hate the hypocrisy of it all. But that was pretty much rock bottom for me. But i went from that to now lifting weights like crazy to bbqing on my deck while high on morphine. Not saying morphine is a good thing by the way.

But if i can go from that shithole to having a pretty good day so can anyone
 
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