Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated.
I had my first acid trip last night and it was not at all what I was expecting and I'm thoroughly confused.
I took 1 very small pharoah blotter on my own (yeah I know you're not supposed to your first time but open minded friends were tied up).
A brief summary of my trip -
Held it under my tounge for 5 mins then swallowed. 1 hour later, feel a bit jittery and get some mild bruxism. A massive grin is stuck on my face for no identifiable reason. 1.5 hours later start watching an episode of Curb and can't stop laughing. Hysterical laughing. I don't know whether the episode was particularly good (the one where he buys viagra) but I couldn't stop. 2 hours in - staring at the light of my lamp causes it to shift and move. If I stare at the wall for long enough I see the famed "breathing walls" although I have to almost will it to happen. Bruxism has got stronger.
Then the rushes start. I feel euphoric, I put some music on, which makes it even better, and dance around my room. Feel very happy like I'm on decent MDMA. A weird energy. Spend ages listening to an album from start to finish and watching itunes visualizer. Bruxism continues. Watch some more Curb and again, can't stop laughing. Chilled out and stared at lamp for a bit and then took 4 ezitolam and went to sleep.
So, all of that pilled up euphoria, rushing, happiness, laughing was all well and good and very nice but is this really LSD? I have been looking forward to this for so long and this is not what I was expecting at all. The main thing that concerned me was the lack of any cerebral stuff going on. Yeah, there was a gentle spaced out feeling now and then but I thought acid was all about racing thoughts, hyper analysis and "opening doors"? Where were all these new pathways that were supposed to be opening up? I had very little going on upstairs while I was enjoying the euphoria and just felt remarkably clear headed throughout. In fact, the only analysis was the analysis about the lack of analysis if that makes sense. At the very least I thought I'd have the cannabis style headspace where you deconstruct concepts and realise the way certain things work and notice things that you hadn't before.
I know I also missed out on the fractals and more visual stuff but I expect that comes with higher doses (or not at all for some) but I was more interested in the revelations?
Also, the bruxism didn't make sense to me - I've never heard of this on LSD. It was more clenching than grinding but still, has anyone else had this?
So, what's going on?
Perhaps I didn't take LSD? But what else can work in such tiny amounts (ie 1 blotter)? Bromo-dragonfly? Wouldn't I have been awake for 4958339534 days if it had been?
Also, I've read that if you're superficial and are concerned with shallow things - you are less likely to have a spiritual trip? Is this it? I have never ever considered myself this type of person but perhaps deep down I am? If so, it's upsetting. I was apprehensive about taking it alone and having a bad trip and it seems that I had too much fun instead! But if I want those kinds of effects, what's wrong with MDMA? I wanted LSD.
Did I take too little? Or am I expecting too much? Please help because the outcome of this will probably define my relationship with acid for the forseeable future.
I had my first acid trip last night and it was not at all what I was expecting and I'm thoroughly confused.
I took 1 very small pharoah blotter on my own (yeah I know you're not supposed to your first time but open minded friends were tied up).
A brief summary of my trip -
Held it under my tounge for 5 mins then swallowed. 1 hour later, feel a bit jittery and get some mild bruxism. A massive grin is stuck on my face for no identifiable reason. 1.5 hours later start watching an episode of Curb and can't stop laughing. Hysterical laughing. I don't know whether the episode was particularly good (the one where he buys viagra) but I couldn't stop. 2 hours in - staring at the light of my lamp causes it to shift and move. If I stare at the wall for long enough I see the famed "breathing walls" although I have to almost will it to happen. Bruxism has got stronger.
Then the rushes start. I feel euphoric, I put some music on, which makes it even better, and dance around my room. Feel very happy like I'm on decent MDMA. A weird energy. Spend ages listening to an album from start to finish and watching itunes visualizer. Bruxism continues. Watch some more Curb and again, can't stop laughing. Chilled out and stared at lamp for a bit and then took 4 ezitolam and went to sleep.
So, all of that pilled up euphoria, rushing, happiness, laughing was all well and good and very nice but is this really LSD? I have been looking forward to this for so long and this is not what I was expecting at all. The main thing that concerned me was the lack of any cerebral stuff going on. Yeah, there was a gentle spaced out feeling now and then but I thought acid was all about racing thoughts, hyper analysis and "opening doors"? Where were all these new pathways that were supposed to be opening up? I had very little going on upstairs while I was enjoying the euphoria and just felt remarkably clear headed throughout. In fact, the only analysis was the analysis about the lack of analysis if that makes sense. At the very least I thought I'd have the cannabis style headspace where you deconstruct concepts and realise the way certain things work and notice things that you hadn't before.
I know I also missed out on the fractals and more visual stuff but I expect that comes with higher doses (or not at all for some) but I was more interested in the revelations?
Also, the bruxism didn't make sense to me - I've never heard of this on LSD. It was more clenching than grinding but still, has anyone else had this?
So, what's going on?
Perhaps I didn't take LSD? But what else can work in such tiny amounts (ie 1 blotter)? Bromo-dragonfly? Wouldn't I have been awake for 4958339534 days if it had been?
Also, I've read that if you're superficial and are concerned with shallow things - you are less likely to have a spiritual trip? Is this it? I have never ever considered myself this type of person but perhaps deep down I am? If so, it's upsetting. I was apprehensive about taking it alone and having a bad trip and it seems that I had too much fun instead! But if I want those kinds of effects, what's wrong with MDMA? I wanted LSD.
Did I take too little? Or am I expecting too much? Please help because the outcome of this will probably define my relationship with acid for the forseeable future.

