I’ve spent some time surfing the Internet and Bluelight looking for an answer or at least someone else who has experienced what I’m feeling, but so far no luck. Finally decided to sign up and make my own post. Please let me know if I fail to satisfy the bluelight decorum in any way.
I’ve done E about 10 times, eight of the times being molly, low doses of about 250 to 500 mg, always with at least a month spacing between each roll….what I always thought to be “safe” usage if there is such a thing when taking ecstasy. I’m having second thoughts now.
The last time I rolled was May 6, so a little over four months ago. The roll itself was pretty standard, but I do remember having an oddly heightened sense of awareness. I was more cognizant of the fact that I was rolling – not the usual total inebriation that one normally experiences. Perhaps this is a symptom of “loss of magic,” perhaps it has nothing to do with what I’m experiencing, but I thought it worth mentioning. Anyways…on to what I’m experiencing:
I didn’t notice it until a few days after the roll and the usual 2 day shitty hangover. It’s hard to describe what it feels like. The only way I can describe it is an uncomfortable tingly sensation under my scalp. You know how when you’re rolling, you brush your fingers through your hair, and you get that amazing experience of all your body and energy and sensations moving to the top of your head? It’s like that, except not amazing. Not painful, either. Just uncomfortable.
The first two weeks were extremely intense. I couldn’t do anything but lie in bed. It was also coupled with an on and off nausea. I went to sleep just praying I’d feel normal the next day. Got extremely scared, went to the doctor, they told me it was probably anxiety and to just give it time.
For lack of an alternative, I did just that, and it’s gotten a lot better for the most part. I’ve been exercising, taking my supplements, straying from stimulants. In fact, it went away almost entirely a few weeks ago. This last week, though, I’ve noticed it’s come back, which scares me again and has me fleeing back to the Internet for an answer. It spreads across my head like a “pins and needles” sensation. Although it spreads, it seems to usually centralize around the very top/back of my head and sometimes even down towards the neck.
Some things I’ve noticed… Drinking coffee and tobacco products tend to aggravate it so I keep away. Alcohol hangovers also seem to have an aggravating effect. 5HTP made it worse so I stopped that. Magnesium Malate seems to have some beneficial effects, but maybe it's just placebo effect. But then other times, it just comes for no apparent reason. Recently, I’ve even been getting these very brief, sharp pains in the tips of my fingers which seem to extend straight back to the top of my head.
Please excuse the lengthy post. I’m not expecting anyone to tell me a magic cure. Just want to know if anyone out there has ever experienced anything like this. I’ve come across a lot of posts about disassociation/spacing feelings after MDMA “abuse.” I’m almost certain this is a very physical issue I’m experiencing, although my girlfriend has tried to convince me to the contrary…that it is some sort of mental thing. But I find that hard to believe. My mental capacity is entirely intact as far as I can tell. I can think straight. I have a great grasp on reality. I don’t dwell on it either unless I feel it – that’s the only time it makes me anxious, but it seems to persist regardless of my mental attentiveness.
Any comments are helpful. Thank you all.
I’ve done E about 10 times, eight of the times being molly, low doses of about 250 to 500 mg, always with at least a month spacing between each roll….what I always thought to be “safe” usage if there is such a thing when taking ecstasy. I’m having second thoughts now.
The last time I rolled was May 6, so a little over four months ago. The roll itself was pretty standard, but I do remember having an oddly heightened sense of awareness. I was more cognizant of the fact that I was rolling – not the usual total inebriation that one normally experiences. Perhaps this is a symptom of “loss of magic,” perhaps it has nothing to do with what I’m experiencing, but I thought it worth mentioning. Anyways…on to what I’m experiencing:
I didn’t notice it until a few days after the roll and the usual 2 day shitty hangover. It’s hard to describe what it feels like. The only way I can describe it is an uncomfortable tingly sensation under my scalp. You know how when you’re rolling, you brush your fingers through your hair, and you get that amazing experience of all your body and energy and sensations moving to the top of your head? It’s like that, except not amazing. Not painful, either. Just uncomfortable.
The first two weeks were extremely intense. I couldn’t do anything but lie in bed. It was also coupled with an on and off nausea. I went to sleep just praying I’d feel normal the next day. Got extremely scared, went to the doctor, they told me it was probably anxiety and to just give it time.
For lack of an alternative, I did just that, and it’s gotten a lot better for the most part. I’ve been exercising, taking my supplements, straying from stimulants. In fact, it went away almost entirely a few weeks ago. This last week, though, I’ve noticed it’s come back, which scares me again and has me fleeing back to the Internet for an answer. It spreads across my head like a “pins and needles” sensation. Although it spreads, it seems to usually centralize around the very top/back of my head and sometimes even down towards the neck.
Some things I’ve noticed… Drinking coffee and tobacco products tend to aggravate it so I keep away. Alcohol hangovers also seem to have an aggravating effect. 5HTP made it worse so I stopped that. Magnesium Malate seems to have some beneficial effects, but maybe it's just placebo effect. But then other times, it just comes for no apparent reason. Recently, I’ve even been getting these very brief, sharp pains in the tips of my fingers which seem to extend straight back to the top of my head.
Please excuse the lengthy post. I’m not expecting anyone to tell me a magic cure. Just want to know if anyone out there has ever experienced anything like this. I’ve come across a lot of posts about disassociation/spacing feelings after MDMA “abuse.” I’m almost certain this is a very physical issue I’m experiencing, although my girlfriend has tried to convince me to the contrary…that it is some sort of mental thing. But I find that hard to believe. My mental capacity is entirely intact as far as I can tell. I can think straight. I have a great grasp on reality. I don’t dwell on it either unless I feel it – that’s the only time it makes me anxious, but it seems to persist regardless of my mental attentiveness.
Any comments are helpful. Thank you all.
