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Have drugs fucked you up?

Yes, they fucked me up. This pretty much sums up most of it:

Owl Eyed said:
I'm not as sharp anymore as far as mental dexterity goes. There are pauses in my thoughts and I stop in mid-sentence frequently. My friends used to notice this more than I do (seeing as I was always on something). I'd be talking and suddenly forget where I was going w/ that train of thought or idea. And the longer I've stayed sober, the more I become aware of how bad it is.

My memory has been affected too, it sucks goat tits. As well as my hearing. But it's more perception of hearing that's been affected.

Someone will say something like: "What time do you have class?" and I'll hear "What dime did you ass?" or something equally absurd. Or I'll just say "What?" but immediately follow that up with the appropriate response because my brain 'catches up' to what I just had heard.

Lots more but I can't be assed to write all down. It's depressing :( I feel like this thread warranted a response over the "did drugs make you dumb" or whatever thread.
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I was also left with quite a bit of nerve damage in some areas and general shakiness. No more fine motor skills for me.

The flip side is that I would not be who I am now without having gone through it. I have been mostly clean for about 8 years and still have many positive effects in addition to the negatives. I have a great wife that I never would have met if I hadn't been partying and we have a great kid.

Before drugs i didn't like myself very much, now I do but i have to live with the damage I have done.
 
YES... If you keep abusing drugs over a lifetime [like me] you will lose at least some of your memory, concentration, energy, social motivation and you won't have much natural dopamine [if any] left in your brain. Wish I never went on MMT and SMT... pot, benzos, and alcohol in moderation was fine before I ran back into old using pals... after divorce.
 
In combination with my lifestyle and childhood, yes! YES!

One of the most stupid things I've heard on bluelight and other places is 'drugs don't fuck you up (/make you stupid), you were that way before.'
Man, what idiots!!
 
^ Drugs making you stupid - I think is debatable - however I would say 90% of people have done some STUPID fucking things while on drugs that is FOR SURE. Or those of us who have had full blown addictions... well the lows we stooped to get a fix .. not good.
 
I think I have PTSD from using drugs.

I was up for 3 days (not sure actually), on MDPV (bath salts). I did a lot of really terrible things over the months' time (I used for about 15 days total). I keep having flashbacks about those things I did.

Out of nowhere I will see something that reminds me of something stupid I did while high, and I gasp or shake my head or have other nervous symptoms.

Does this sound real? I want to talk to someone about it. The drugs/events happened in April and I'm still feeling like it has just occurred.

I go to therapy but it is basically a waste-- whatever I say will be reviewed by DCFS. My daughter was taken by dcfs when I couldn't be awoken very easily, leaving my daughter was unattended. I was in a women's home when they were called. I was sleeping from Adderall and Klonopin abuse.

That was bad enough --- I tried and went too far with bath salts after she was in my brother's custody. It was the most terrible experience, the things I "did" because of/while using drugs.

I'm cleaner now. I smoke spice. I started taking Wellbutrin again. I'm trying to stay active. Reading a lot.
 
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I haven't touched ice in almost 2years and I still get auditory hallucinations from time to time...
Like if someone is talking in the next room it always sounds like theyre talking about me
 
I've got that without stim abuse. Just plain 'ol social paranoia here. The worst is when I can't hear a conversation, but can hear people talking, and then they start laughing. I just know they're laughing about me, even though that I know for a fact that they aren't. It comes and goes in waves, but there are some days where I need to pretty well constantly remind myself that people aren't talking about me.

The only thing that I can really attribute to drugs is a reduced word recall rate, but even that's questionable. I've always been absent-minded, and that could have just been exacerbated a bit.
 
Interesting topic. I started smoking weed when I was around 15, very occasionally. Then from 17-24 I did nothing except smoke cigarettes, and not even that between 21-24. During that time my depression and social anxieties got gradually worse, compounded by the pressures of working dead end and frustrating jobs, the responsibility of having a mortgage to pay (I bought a house when I was 19) and also dealing with a partner who had quite severe mental problems, including a pretty life-destroying phobia.

When that relationship came apart, selling my house suddenly released a bunch of cash. Within the year I was taking MDMA 4-5 days a week, and was stoned every hour I was awake. I kicked the MDMA fairly soon after that, as I was becoming increasingly unable to deal with the comedowns, and it reached the stage for me where the high was simply not worth the pain of the low. Money also ran out so I was back at work. Dead end jobs require little of my attention though, I worked in an isolated underground store so being stoned from the moment I got out of bed to the moment I climbed back in it was not a problem. I managed to get a place in university after a year of this though, and realised I'd have to cut down the weed to stand a chance of doing well there.

I've always been academically able and competitive, so I was concerned that the previous couple of years would have done some lasting damage, but I found that after a period I returned to the same levels of focus and aptitude than I had before. Maybe a little dulled by a bunch of years out of the education system but overall I'd say I managed fine, and made progress with the depression and inter-personal skills too, so overall I got away with it.

Since dropping out of university for financial reasons, things have been harder, but that's a story for a different time. On the 'have drugs fucked you up' thing though, I'm gonna vote for 'fucked before the drugs' in regards to weed and MDMA at least.
 
K really fucked with my thought processes and memory, and made me a spaced out person.. more so than before, what with having ADD. And cocaine makes me go crazy and act like a tweaked out psycho. The way these drugs have changed my personality have caused a lot of stress with my relationships with people, and with every day life and the way I handle things
 
Maybe.

I've been using drugs since I was pretty young, I really can't say what I would have been like had I never used.

They have made everything I have wanted to achieve in life, extremely difficult to obtain. It's made life a battle between wanting to escape the shit, and pushing through. I don't know how my life will pan out, but I like to think that with each year that passes, I am becoming a lot wiser to my drug abuse/use, and much more aware than I ever was of how they directly affect my life negatively.

I think drugs have definitely exacerbated the depression, anxiety and stress I have in my life. I have noticed, the older I get, the more emotionally immature and underdeveloped I feel compared to others my age who don't use drugs. Drugs, personally, hindered my ability to develop coping skills in a huge way, and I will need years more therapy and outpatient to be emotionally stable and confident to handle my life, without turning to drugs for affirmation.

It's positive, but so.many.years. made harder than necessary because of drugs. :\
 
I think psychedelics helped me accept my own neurosis; dissolving any distinction between sanity and insanity.. so i really have no idea, i probably am fucked up to everyone else, that said im probably more anxious then i use to be.. i don't manage well with responsibility and i can't seem to ignore it anymore.
 
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I believed drugs helped me better understand myself and accept myself in a way because before I started becoming a more heavy weed smoker and done harder drugs, I was a very apathetic person due to several events happening in my life, so i suppose it was a sort of a defense mechanism so I became numb. I even forgot how to actually feel so in time the dull state felt torturous. Weed helped on occasion after a bit.

When I tried harder drugs I could feel emotions I haven't felt in years! As long as people don't abuse... Drugs can be very beneficial.
Although, due to smoking so much weed I think my memory has been affected.... or it is simply because I managed to tweak my brain naturally to discard pointless thoughts and memories , such as being told some pointless story that will be mentioned again. Pfft.


HeWhoHowls said:
I haven't touched ice in almost 2years and I still get auditory hallucinations from time to time...
Like if someone is talking in the next room it always sounds like theyre talking about me
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Sometimes when I smoke pot though..I occasionally hear as if whoever is nearby is talking about me or judging me...i should slow down on that...
 
MAde the bihgest mistake I could took a asprin before DXMM so the high lastet like 4 weeks long until it was gone. I had a snowy vison. very intence depreshions the strongest I ever had, muscle tiks in my legs bad memory,
 
Had a manic psychotic break from reality, had to be institutionalized, I may have awakened a genetic predisposition to bipolar disorder, I'm now on antipsychotic medication which makes me very restless and I can't control it, I keep getting up from my computer just doing senseless motions, I'm also on cogentin to manage the side effects of the antipsychotic and this makes me loopy, I'm fortunate enough to have a shrink who is going to get me off these medications before he diagnoses me with anything, as it's very possible drug use alone did all this. I had just graduated from college and now have to live with my parents because the manic break was that bad. When I first got home I would have panic attacks about sleeping, this is getting better with time.

So yeah I'd say I have objectively fucked myself up with drugs (mostly psychedelics and cannabinoids), but I am also objectively getting a tiny bit better every day.
 
After kicking 8mg of bupe, yeah the physical withdrawals weren't too fun, but the PAWS really fucked me over for about two years afterward. I developed severe somatic anxiety, like a constant extreme caffeine overdose where I could never feel close to comfortable. So then I went crazy on the benzos.

When I was 19 I did different psychedelics almost everyday for a couple months. Afterwards, I couldn't get out my own head. I became much more socially insecure and unsure of myself. I felt like a sad fragile shell of a person. This was probably a factor in my abusing opiates in the first place.
 
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Mentally, I'm pretty sure pot and mushrooms did a number on me. A bad trip on mushrooms really put me in a dark place for a few months. I have a very VERY low tolerance to pot, and if I take too much at once (for me is like three straight hits), I can have the worst panic attacks I ever thought possible. They feel like legit bad trips.

Physically, alcohol has ravaged my body. To sum it up, I'm lucky to still be alive.

Amphetamines fucked me up real bad for a while, but nothing long lasting. I had a pretty consistent opiates and cocaine habit for a couple years, too, but that really didn't get too bad because I was too broke to get as much as I wanted.
 
I'm 25 now, first smoked weed when I was 23 with my now ex-bf. before that I was incredibly straight laced, never drank (still don't) or had a desire to alter my mind. Always dealt with social phobia, slight OCD, anxiety and paranoia.

I feel like it expanded my mind, like not judging people so much, being open to new things and ideas. It increased my focus, creativity and helped me enjoy things in new ways. Then, after daily use for 2 months it exacerbated my pre existing problems with anxiety, paranoia and social phobia. This was abt a month ago, now, I have good days and bad days. I am still pretty disassociative which I like and don't mind.

I learned that I need to be more moderate in my weed consumption and am looking forward to sparking up for the first time in a month this evening. If I trip out balls you guys will be the first to know. =D

No, for now.
 
Nothing irreparable, but I have had my fair share of downsides from drug use:

weed/psychedelics ---> anxiety, depersonalization

uppers ---> exacerbated blood pressure issues

alcohol/benzos ---> recklessness, making an ass out of myself

opiates ---> addiction
 
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