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Rolling alone (solo), Thoughts?

I've only rolled alone once, off the amazing purple telephone pokeballs! Only about 10 or 15 mins of consuming one I felt amazing, the hardstyle kicks out of my headphone, the waves reverberating my ear drums, made me just "move" with the music, I was the music! I called up one of my friends who was rolling alone too, and talked for a good hour, and the funniest hour in my life. :D after talking to a homie, and a good 3 or 4 hours of hardstyle and some drum and bass and some metal. I got bored of music(I love music, but sometimes you need a good break from it) I decided to read a book instead(I don't read often but there are some good john grisham books that ill pick up. About an hour of reading I started getting on a good plateau and it made me want another one. Grabbed the second pill and consumed with a good glass of water. When I got back into the book, again, only 10 or 15 minutes i was rolling hard and the book came alive! Finished the book about (?) hours later. And to my surprise the music was very faintly on the whole time!(I literally didn't know where the music was coming from, I heard it, but i just strarted feeling it and didn't care and continued reading) the whole time rolling there was only a slight jaw clinch but didn't affect me the next morning. The afterglow, was the most amazing afterglow I've ever had. Bar-none...if you haven't rolled alone, highly recommended. Only if you find good pills and something to occupy yourself and you'll love it. Just try not to stay up for too long, I took mine about noon and passed out around 11. Woke up at 730. Ready for the day. :D
 
squarerootof23 said:
Well..... I did it.

God help me, what an experience.

I have many, many things to relate, but right now I'm too exhausted.

I just wanted to jump on here and thank you Bluelighters. First, for the education in wise harm reduction that I benefitted from greatly. But also, for advising and guiding me into this incredible and amazing and wondrous place I found myself in for several hours this afternoon.

I never could have guessed such good feelings were even possible for a human being to live through....

I have much to think about. I saw myself differently - better - today.
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Hey man,

I responded to your thread a few months back about trying to find like minded people to roll with. Well I`m glad that you got to try methylone and enjoyed it. I personally I have never had methy,but I`m sure your one step closer to knowing what rolling is like.Now you will be better prepared for the day you find some real mdma. Best of luck!
 
I absolutely love rolling (and tweaking) at home on my own!! For me its all about singing - Some of the best nights of my drug life have been where i've stayed up all night singing and talking shit on the net to friends. As i've gotten older a lot of my mates have stopped using drugs so a lot of the time i've got nobody to roll with, and i have to either go to a venue on my own or just chill at home and get nicely fucked up.... I think amphetamines in general including MDMA are wicked no matter where you are. I'm speeding now and have had a kickass night singing, looking at bluelight, writing emails, chatting to friends on facebook etc... wouldn't want to do it every time but if you really like music, try it - you can immerse youself in the music which is harder when you are out or distracted by friends....
 
WarChild said:
I absolutely love rolling (and tweaking) at home on my own!! For me its all about singing - Some of the best nights of my drug life have been where i've stayed up all night singing and talking shit on the net to friends. As i've gotten older a lot of my mates have stopped using drugs so a lot of the time i've got nobody to roll with, and i have to either go to a venue on my own or just chill at home and get nicely fucked up.... I think amphetamines in general including MDMA are wicked no matter where you are. I'm speeding now and have had a kickass night singing, looking at bluelight, writing emails, chatting to friends on facebook etc... wouldn't want to do it every time but if you really like music, try it - you can immerse youself in the music which is harder when you are out or distracted by friends....
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The problem with speeding at home alone is it's very easy to keep going longer than you would if you were with company (unless there all also speeding :D). If you do long sessions (and I'm not lecturing) then try and remember to look after yourself. Try and brush your teeth on a regular basis (say every six hours), remember to take a shower and remember to have a drink of water and maybe a vitamin pill / meal replacement drinks / sports drinks etc. If you love doing your housework then remember to wear gloves when your scrubbing the walls / floor / bath etcfor the 5th time and make sure that the place is well ventilated to avoid damage to the lungs from fumes that may build up (and your too high to notice / care).
 
Yeah i'm pretty careful with all that. I'm good at switching off when my brain and body have had enough, and i'm aware of pretty much every harm reduction technique there is for stimulants. I normally start at 9pm and am asleep by 10am the next morning. THe majority of my stim use in the last few years has been solo and its different, but just as fun in different ways.
 
Woah woah woah, how are people saying rolling alone is "boring?" Ya aren't rolling very hard if you can even be capable of feeling bored.

So many things become immensely fun rolling, that you don't need other people for. Listening to some music (that is honestly enough right there), showering (with lots of music playing, also cools me down), and honestly just rubbing against soft shit and maybe some vapor rub. I could name so many things (pretty much everything I would do sober alone, for pleasure, are the same things I'd do if I'm rolling alone)

Usually I can't stay alone though if i start rolling alone, even if i planned to before i started rolling. I always either end up calling like 20 people in my phone, and most of the people I call i literally say "I was just calling to make sure your happy", and I think its because i just want them to be feeling as good as i am right now. A lot of times I want to hang out too. Also, my neighborhood is really friendly, so if I'm rolling alone, i almost always walk down a few blocks to the park, and literally start talking to every random person i see as if we've been best friends for years.

How great is a drug that can make you feel like your best friends with everyone right when you meet them? very great.

I'd say the best thing to do while rolling, is whatever the fuck makes you really happy. That's the only thing, if your the kind of person who can't have a good time and be happy by yourself, you should probably roll with other people. If you find some of your happiest memories involve just you being alone, then you can be alone. I find that the most important thing to me about MDMA, is how it makes me feel, not what I'm doing, as much. Although I'd obviously rather be at a rave then sitting alone in my room, I should still feel just as amazing, I'd just rather feel that amazing at a rave.

I could tell you so many amazing stories and adventures I have had, that all started with making the decision to start rolling alone.

Also i feel like i should add, I'm not an advocate for rolling alone, its obviously fun with other people because of that close feeling MDMA gives you with other people. But that's kind of just normal for any situation even if your not rolling, usually people are happier when they are with other people. especially friends.
 
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I Care Because You Do said:
...Typically, I get really quiet, even when I'm with super close friends. When I do MDMA, I have to do enough to get to a certain level (REALLY HIGH) to be content. And then, when I get content, I just melt. It's not that I don't want to talk... I just... don't wanna talk. It's to the point that my friends are convinced that I'm having a bad time, or I'm bored. But I'm having the time of my life, just sitting, smoking, doing nitrous, and listening to music.

That's how I get high, and I'm not sure how the GF would react to it... which makes me nervous, cause when people talk too much on E, I tend to get really irritated. I know that's sorta contradictory to what the drug does to a lot of people... but that's just what it does to me.
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I can really relate to this as that is how I am as a person. I am very introverted and my girlfriend and other people tend to think I'm not having fun or I'm in a bad mood because I'm quiet, but just because I am quiet does not mean I am not having fun. When we trip together (usually on LSD) we are usually with her friends, so I am always the one who is more quiet and she always thinks I am having a bad time because of this, when it reality I am having just as much fun as she is in my own separate way.

Anyways, I don't have much to offer when it comes to rolling alone, but when it comes to tripping alone it is something I enjoy since I am naturally a quiet person. I think you will have a great time rolling alone since you seem to be similar to me in that way.
 
skinnylegz said:
Anyways, I don't have much to offer when it comes to rolling alone, but when it comes to tripping alone it is something I enjoy since I am naturally a quiet person. I think you will have a great time rolling alone since you seem to be similar to me in that way.
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It is very different. MDMA makes you want to do pretty much anything pleasurable. LSD is just a profound deep experience.

I'm also introverted, but on MDMA, I become completely extroverted. Even if I'm alone rolling, I can still feel how open and willing I am to talk to anyone. I don't even drunk dial people if I'm wasted, but inevitably I call a large number of my contacts, just to hear their voice, honestly, it reminds me of how much I love them.

It's hard to be introverted when you are madly in love with everyone and everything. Just the view of an introverted MDMA abuser.
 
Personally i love rolling alone :) i just produce some dnb or hardcore and itl be getting light before i know it :P always heart breaking when it only felt like minutes ago i dropped and the sun starts leaking in!
 
Yeah it can be fun to do solo. I listened to anjunabeats volume 8 from start to finish when I did it solo and it was pretty fucking awesome :)
 
I think once your used to using MDMA then you really don't need to plan / over think the experience of using alone. I have always found that if I make a list of things 'to do' when I drop that it gets ignored and I end up doing what I feel like when high.
 
Bearlove said:
I think once your used to using MDMA then you really don't need to plan / over think the experience of using alone. I have always found that if I make a list of things 'to do' when I drop that it gets ignored and I end up doing what I feel like when high.
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Haha this so much, I get moments of clarity, and I know everything I do I'm doing it because that's whats going to make me happiest. Like I'll get my sound system all set up and stuff, start rolling, and walk to the park right away.
 
Took some MDMA alone not so long back on a beautiful sunny afternoon, walking through fields, so peaceful, with no noise except the insects hissing in the grass, birds singing and the sound of the water in the river nearby. The colours too: clear blue sky, vivid green of the grass, the flowers etc, was wonderful to experience.
 
personali i dont think doin it on you own is fun cause you will feel the temptation to go out and talk to someone.
 
I LOVE rolling alone! :) I mean, I usually do have my chihuahua with me tho. Which is fun. I've rolled for 10 yrs and in ALL situations, either COMING DOWN ALONE is great or rolling alone. But you just have to know exactly what you'll want, like have all your music ready to go, the candles, lights, visuals on the computer, whatever! :) I've only rolled alone a few times but I thought each time was outstanding and i totally worked through some personal shit that I wouldn't have without rolling alone. (Tho it does also help to have some friends you can text or call when you are rolling balls cuz that's fun, I think.) Good luck. Wish I could do it sometime soon, but it'll be awhile for me!
 
I use to roll alone quite abit. I would end up gaming or just stomping to Trance with my Laser Projector and strobe light going. If only the neighbours knew wtf was going on lol
 
Out of the 20 some times I've rolled, one of the best times was when I ended up alone.

I was out at a show that didn't come together as advertised, no friends there, etc. Had already popped my dose and felt anxious for some reason. Hitched a cab home, and the roll took off!

I remember walking through the front door and thinking what a relief it was to be home!

I spent the next few hours rolling my face off, listening to John Digweed, Sharam, and some other progressive/tech artists. I took a shower, played with my cats, chatted on the net, video games, meditated, etc etc. At that particular time, it was excellent for me to reconnect with myself. I had some amazing revelations and realizations that night.

I never felt the urge to call anyone, or even a tinge of loneliness until the come down the next day. I would repeat the experience
 
my hardest roll was the other night when i decided to roll solo for the first time. i felt free of anything and everything. completely content and full of love and happiness. i fell in love with myself and came to many realizations. i blasted music on my headphones, played with glowsticks, browsed the web. i found some vicks in the kitchen, had plenty of water and orange juice, and a full pack of cigarettes. time went at half speed, literally. i rolled for a good 6 hours and pretty much laid in my bed the whole time because it was so comfortable. oh, and i had a whole gram of weed, so the night was pretty much perfect! only problem was i desperately wanted to talk to somebody but it was so late at night that everyone i knew was asleep. i got on chatroulette to find someone to talk to but everyone was lame. i probably wouldn't do it again because of that reason. i need to interact with people when i roll.
 
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