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Rolling alone (solo), Thoughts?

I've gotten so accustomed to rolling alone now, I actually prefer it (I think I've said this in another forum on this same topic), to going out and rolling in a group at a rave etc. It's just alot better, you can let the music take you, thing about things in a whole new perspective, turn my phone off, chill naked, (and i have someone at my place, even better) it's really great, I can't wait til my next solo drop.
 
OK... so, y'all don't know me, so I'm gunna tell on myself. I've rolled probably 15 times and only ONE time was I in a public place, and it wasn't even a club or rave or anything. I always roll alone. Here's the deal:

I am taking the experience slowly, since I'm new to MDMA. I'm 'wearing out' rolling alone, and leaving the NEW experience of rolling with others, and also rolling at a club/rave for a "new high".

When I roll, I get extremely horny, so when I roll, I have a complete setup in my bedroom and I watch porn, have ALL KINDS of toys and fun things to play with, including stuff with textures and that offer different sensations. I have my headphones on playing amazing electronic music. I dance, I jack off and enjoy every sensation available.

Ok... there... I said it. That's what I do... I LOVE it EVERY TIME. And.... I can not wait to enter the next level of rolling with others. (Hopefully I'll be able to keep my pants on when I do! LOL)
 
One thing your really need for solo rolling at home are pair of really good speakers. Listening to EDM on crappy speakers is just no fun.

I would imagine going for a walk in the park on a nice summer day would be a lot of fun. Preferably a park where younger people tend to hang out.
 
i probably role alone about 50% of the time. you just have the i can do what ever the hell i want to do feeling and not care about other shit. i like to go for walks at night and smoke like crazy
 
Cool, all these responses are making me more confident in the decision I've already made.

Over the years, I've rolled enough to really become picky about the people I get high with. Since I've never gotten high with my girlfriend (I mean on MDMA), I don't know how she'll react, even though she's done it enough times to be used to it. I just get nervous that she will be looking for a different experience than I do...

...Typically, I get really quiet, even when I'm with super close friends. When I do MDMA, I have to do enough to get to a certain level (REALLY HIGH) to be content. And then, when I get content, I just melt. It's not that I don't want to talk... I just... don't wanna talk. It's to the point that my friends are convinced that I'm having a bad time, or I'm bored. But I'm having the time of my life, just sitting, smoking, doing nitrous, and listening to music.

That's how I get high, and I'm not sure how the GF would react to it... which makes me nervous, cause when people talk too much on E, I tend to get really irritated. I know that's sorta contradictory to what the drug does to a lot of people... but that's just what it does to me.

That being said, I love doing it with friends that get in a similar zone. It's not that I always wish I was alone, or anything...
 
My experience:

Rolling is great in nearly any situation just because of the feelings. After popping by myself, I almost always wish I'd waited and feel I somehow "wasted" the experience. (YMMV if you have unlimited access to MDMA, but I did not). It was almost a bittersweet feeling, especially as the effects wore off.

That said, it's really no worse than rolling with people who are a.) sober or b.) in a bad mood.
 
Im not sure if this counts as rolling 'alone' but ..

(I would not advise this now at any commercial rave or to anyone who is unsure of the scene/crowd etc in the area)

I have often gone to huge raves alone and got into some serious states - just being alone on a dancefloor surrounded by a few hundred / thousand like minded people feels so good. Your simply dancing to the music, your not thinking about tomorrow, what x mate thinks about you, your not worried about y friend feeling poorly, your just dancing and enjoying the drugs.

You go to chill out - you know nobody, your alone in a sea of wide eyed and smiling people - you make eye contact with some random stranger, they smile, you smile, you sit down and tell them your life story / they tell you theirs. 20 mins later you back in the lazers - rocking!
 
^ this

in a crowd of people at a rave you all become one, there, equal, in the moment, connected, its fucking beautiful. amazing moments, felt like ive reached the pinnacle of my life
 
ColtDan said:
^ this

in a crowd of people at a rave you all become one, there, equal, in the moment, connected, its fucking beautiful. amazing moments, felt like ive reached the pinnacle of my life
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Its funny being in the middle of a few thousand ravers, all by yourself but feeling like you have a few thousand mates with you - when theres 'that' connection in the crowd nothing else matters.

I love it when everyone is heads down dancing (everyone is too fucked for the whole 'put your hands up' routine) - the half pill, half gram of speed people have left, and the strobes come on - all you can see is the wide eyed, smiling, sweaty people - you have no idea who they are but you love them anyway :D
 
haha yep spot on =D such a feeling. fall in love with anything, people, objects, everything.
 
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First off I love rolling by myself but if your going to roll with your GF anyways. Don't you think you should do that first then do the by yourself thing that way your roll with her will on par with what she is feeling. If you roll by yourself then with her when you get into your routine of not talking a lot and just enjoying the roll. She might think your not enjoying yourself even more then if you just tell her that's how you are when you roll. What I'm saying is if you eat it by yourself first your not going to get off as good when you do roll with her and you both will know that.

Rolling at a rave would be hollow and the lies of the drug would be to strong to learn anything other then I love everyone in this room. Rolling with your GF or by yourself you know you love her and yourself no lies overcome.
 
Personally, I don't enjoy dropping by myself.. I've done it before and I just feel like it was a waste. Even if I know the majority of the people around me were just as off their faces as I am I'd still enjoy, even just having one friend, who is on the same level as I am.

I feel that being with my friends who are also rolling is a part of rolling in the first place. If that makes sense.. When we've all rolling it almost feels like we're in our own bubble and nothing can bring us down.

I'd also have to agree with Lady Codone - Rolling is fun anywhere, anytime. As long as I wasn't going at it alone. ;)
 
I Care Because You Do said:
...Typically, I get really quiet, even when I'm with super close friends. When I do MDMA, I have to do enough to get to a certain level (REALLY HIGH) to be content. And then, when I get content, I just melt. It's not that I don't want to talk... I just... don't wanna talk. It's to the point that my friends are convinced that I'm having a bad time, or I'm bored. But I'm having the time of my life, just sitting, smoking, doing nitrous, and listening to music.

That's how I get high, and I'm not sure how the GF would react to it... which makes me nervous, cause when people talk too much on E, I tend to get really irritated. I know that's sorta contradictory to what the drug does to a lot of people... but that's just what it does to me.
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I can agree with a lot of this. I get really agitated with people who talk like its their first time popping (Oh my god I love you, You're my best friend even though we barely know eachother, etc). I mean its cool that is what it can do to people, but some people just don't realize what they are going to look like afterwards when they are done looking like a total weirdo. It's cool to love everybody, but some people just take it too far.

I get a bit quiet when I roll and stay in my own head more than others, I'm not sure why but I do. And I enjoy it. I love being at a festival or EDM event just one with the music and one with the crowd. Sitting around a bunch of people saying weird things to eachother doesn't appeal to me anymore. :)
 
Rolled alone a month ago. I was in my hotel room and was bound for the airport in 5 hours, so I figured I should take it as I wasn't too familiar with the airport security. Yes, yes, I know, kind of a lame excuse coz I just really wanted to do something and I had a cap with me (quite the potent version too, and no, I didn't test it coz testing kits aren't readily available locally). Anyway, my rolls usually just last for about 4 hours, so I figured I had an ample amount of time.

Took half with an energy drink, put on some music, killed the lights, wore my wayfarers, ate mints and sniffed some Vicks inhalers. After an hour I took the other half. My, my. After a while I was dancing to my favorite tunes, feeling the familiar effects I was longing for months: cold, clammy hands; itchy brain; loose, jelly-like joints; music overwhelming your entire body. All and all, it was amazing.

Now, I checked out after four hours, having a bit of manic energy. I feel it coming down. Was at the airport after an hour. While sitting, I close my eyes from time to time and get visuals (a usual effect during comedown when I take this blue pill). So depression kinda slowly crept in. And I was feeling like I really needed someone to hug. I wanted to just hug someone near me at the airport, but of course, I'll probably get slapped or punched or something if I did that. Lol. Then Tiesto's "In The Dark" randomly played on my iPod and I felt connected with the lyrics, which is weird considering it's a really sad vocal trance song and I don't usually like such sad songs.

Anyway, my point is, if you can handle the possible depression after (or if you'll be taking something to ease the comedown), go for it. I usually roll only at raves, so I'm kind of used to having lots of people and friends around. For me, most of my vices are social ones. Social-drinker. Social-smoker. Social...E-tard? :P So I guess it'll depend on how you enjoy yours.
 
I roll alone sometimes.
It pays off to prepare in advance.
I put the telephone somewhere I can't reach it.
I listen to music, and have dildo sex with myself.
The last time I rolled alone I made a mistake weighing out the molly and took too much.
I kept falling asleep.
I remember waking up and seeing double.
I struggled to light the joint I had prepared, and being stoned clumsy pulled the cardboard fillter out.
It took me an age to get it back in and then the joint wouldn't draw anymore.
I smoked what I could and then fell back asleep.
Hopeless.
 
I did post before on rolling solo and I went to a rave and it was fun times. Raves are interactive and I like dancing and
the music. I would never do it and stay home as that would be a waste for me, but to each his/ her own. The one thing I learned from the one time I did it is this: How are you getting home? I took something and it was stronger / lasted longer than I expected and then it was time to drive home, and I was ok, but it would be better not to be in that situation.

Consider bringing a sleeping bag as a back up cab fare and don't cocktail anything.
 
The only thing I'm slightly worried about is getting super high, then immediately wishing there was someone high with me.

Well let me jump. Each time I rolled alone, which was two times, I planned on just staying home and chilling alone. Well immediately upon peaking I would call up people and have them come over. The first time I called my friend and made him come roll with me.

Why wouldn't I invite them over in the first place? Well I wanted to test a pill to see how good it was, and both times I guess you could say the pills were legit.

Man, those were the days whenever I would roll and had excess pills in my possession, the whole bag would be gone by the end of the night. I would plan on eating 2-3, but would eat 7-10. Ecstasy used to be very addicting to me on the COME DOWN, when coming down I would have such great temptation to take another if available.

Well back on topic. I recommend not doing it alone either, save it for a better time. If I were to roll alone again it would be at a DJ event or some kind of place outside my home. Don't get me wrong though because I LOVE rolling at home with people too, just not by myself :0)

Everybody is different though, with all the different opinions on here you have to give it a go and see. If you do roll alone at home, just start with one pill.
 
If I was going to roll alone again though and surely chill at home, I think I'd combine a little weed with it.
 
Iz all about the person. If you're the type that can easily entertain yourself then it should be fine. Ive rolled alone twice but neither situation was planned. E is prolly the best social drug with respect to the empathy, but it's easy to get lost in a roll when noones interrupting so it could be better at times.
 
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