Have to agree with you there mate, I've met some really down to earth, free thinking and likeminded folk since discovering Bluelight. If it wasn't for having the privilege of posting (and quite often venting my frustrations out) during the rather dark PAWS I went through for most of seven months the whole process would have seriously taken its toll on what was already quite a fragile state of mental health.
Too right its fucking mental. To think that in about five months it'll be a year since both of us joined - a year since the scene basically went to fucking hell just seems insane. Its been quite journey I'll say that. Also, although it didn't seem like it for quite a long, dark and trying time, on a positive note if it wasn't for this drought then its anyones guess how out of control my habit could have been at this stage.
So, in trying to recognise that ever existing positive side to every seemingly essentially negative occurrence, much of me is thankful this drought came about (and the remainder even more thankful that I have access to pre-drought) as my "habit" is is the most controlled it has been in the last two years which is to say ithat withdrawals are now very much a rarity and, at least for now, I have managed to maintain what I consider a (at least certainly relatively) recreational frequency of indulgence in our common savior.
Anyway, I hope you folks are well this evening. Anyone on the nod? Cant keep my eyes open :D
Also, I'll get back to PMs tomorrow - sorry for the delay but I'd better hit the hay as I didnt sleep a second last night and now that I've downed a sleeping tablet and sprinkled a bag of brown into the mix (figuratively of course) I'm finding it increasingly more difficult to keep conscious. A foolish idea (the sleeping tablet and heroin cocktail) in hindsight which I do not advise to anyone, though thankfully it was only a 5mg Stilnoct, however I'll never be doing that again.
Take care folks...and happy hunting.