Today, in a bit, I will be going to
this farmer's market.
My friend had his kidlets yesterday (he's divorced; mom was going on a date with some dude she met on craigslist I think) and I went over to help entertain them. We went for a really cool walk in a nearby park and the kids jumped around a LOT when they saw the boats. Now they want a boat and to learn how to fish! Thanks to the random dude who we met on the docks that showed the kids how he put his fishing boat on a trailer.
Since I didn't know whether they were able to afford a Father's Day present, I sneakily got a HUGE piece of dark chocolate cake from my favorite market, snuck it to the kids while their dad was outside, told them to hide it and give it to him for Father's Day.
They all loved it. Having been mostly raised by a divorced dad myself, I want these little dudes to thrive and enjoy a few small luxuries that make them feel special. Both have ADHD. I also brought a pizza (without sauce - picky kids

) that actually had GARLIC and sheep's milk cheese in it. These kids ordinarily eat McDonald's and Kraft Dinner. I wanted them to have a tasty, healthier option.
The older one evidently had a craving and wanted some of the cake for himself, so he asked me if it was OK that he gave his Dad the present early.

I couldn't deny him - my time spent as caretaker of my cousins (I'm the oldest on my mom's side by 7 years) and formal study of child development taught me a bit about being authoritative without being authoritarian. I was able to keep them from falling into the river without looking like a dictatorial jackass.
I took off pretty soon after the kidlets went to bed. The younger one (who hugs me spontaneously at his will - he's so cute) said he didn't want his friend [Mariposa's real name

] to go home. I explained that I had to and took off after a hug.
The kidlets really made me feel special. The younger asked me if I had any babies for him to play with. I told him I don't (truth) and he looked a little disappointed. I told him I had two boy cousins nearby that were around his age who like to play hockey and soccer and play Wii. He brightened up after that and asked to play with them someday.
I'm not an especially maternal person. I like children, but I am not sure whether I will ever have my own - better when they belong to others, I think. Being a "grownup" only child kind of screwed with my head a little bit.
Thursday, it's back to Cali for 5 days - driving with my roommate there, crashing at the family's, then back to Portland for my friend's birthday. Part of me thinks I am nuts for all this travel. The better part of me knows it's the right thing at this point in my life. I have never shied away from new experiences and fun. It will be great to show my roomie the awesomeness of the Bay - she's going all over the Western US to national parks for 2 months. I didn't want her to drive the first leg alone (it's over 10 hours). I will be my father's belated Father's Day gift!
Happy Father's Day to all of the BL Dads. I know my life is happier with my Dad in it. It's going to be awesome to see him and my own children - of the feline variety.
