Random MSN Gibberings LX: Cabbage it is...

[smackcraft]

nah im on the suburbs of the city just next to where our city airport is so i wasnt sure if it was a training exorcise but if so they can fuck right off with doing them at times like that when people are sleeping, there was a big thing about residents allowing the airport to run flights through the middle of the night but having a helecopter hover over ur house for all that time is bang out of order, u hear a plane take off or land within a few seconds, a helcopter hovering over ur house for over an hour is a much different matter all togther

i dont think it was a police one though as it was a sikorsky 66 by the looks of it and yellow which is usually the rescue choppers from the hospitals

 

[smackcraft]

just got an update from my dad , they were looking for a runaway patient from a mental institute and they found him in a shed lol

oh well thats cool cos i was ready to complain thinking it was a training operation lol

bloody nutters running around our streets i tell ya lol

 

[Myshkin]

p.s Sam, it's Wednesday But back hehe.

It is, isn't it? Damn this booze sabbatical - the days just flow into one another.

guess i should say good morning.

Indeed you should! Although I know pleasantries aren't your strong point.
Hope you're faring well today, btw.

That goes for everybody else too. Nice to see you back, Smacky. Your absence (and that of your prolific posting rate ) was noted.

Oh, and Hedonistic Angel - I believe you introduced yourself to me yesterday before the regrettable thread in question got closed. I hadn't had time to respond, but I can now, so hi. Good to see an old-skool BLer returning and thanks for being courteous enough to introduce yourself.

As for background, my profile is absolutely 100% true and irony-free...

 

[Jabberwocky]

nah im on the suburbs of the city just next to where our city airport is so i wasnt sure if it was a training exorcise but if so they can fuck right off with doing them at times like that when people are sleeping....
yellow which is usually the rescue choppers from the hospitals

i think there's a legitimate need for night training, but they could have chosen a better location!

Indeed you should! Although I know pleasantries aren't your strong point.
Hope you're faring well today, btw.

yep i get straight down to the pissing. am ok thanks. pissing about instead of working as usual. so close yet so far from proving something genuinely interesting, am hoping my supervisor will judge it to be at least somewhat interesting.

 

[smackcraft]

it wasnt training , i posted what had been going on ..

just got an update from my dad , they were looking for a runaway patient from a mental institute and they found him in a shed lol

oh well thats cool cos i was ready to complain thinking it was a training operation lol

bloody nutters running around our streets i tell ya lol

But yes i agree if they ever do decide to do training i hope they pick somewhere non residential like my area to do it ... but at least we know that was not teh case last night

 

[Jabberwocky]

sorry me being dozy.

i've also realised that maybe some of mine are search and rescue from the moors going to inner city hospitals. makes more sense than the police all the time, because according to wikipedia they sorted this place out in 2003.

 

[breakcorefiend]

morning all, feeling rough as a pigeons hemorrhoid today,
so lots of bed rest and maybe a spliff or 2 now i finally got my inhalers..been without since xmas and am asthmatic..clever i knw...anyways hope all is well in EADD land

 

[SpecialK_]

Morning all, gotta get up and hike to get a bag of smoke, feel quite groggy but I'm sure this tea will wake me up.

 

[monstanoodle]

Ok, woken up and back from the docs So I can finally say Good Morrow with a bit more gusto
Hope everyone's well or atleast feeling better, even if it's just a little

My doc's so quality. We've decided to stop the tapering of Diazepam for the time being and start on the Codeine, which we both thought was a really good idea
She's away next week so she gave me a script for next week and left it the same, so I said I'd give tapering the Codeine a try anyway

Jeeeez I'm feelin better for having some meds.

NSFW:

Was about to shit my intestines out!

Cherry - Jeebus hun you need a break from rubbishness But I'm dead glad you have your friends n mister for help

Sam - Again, good on you for keeping the abstainence going man

Chinny - Hope yer feeling a bit better. We should meet up at some point as I'm not too far away from Leeds at all

Smack - So it was not you running about man?

IJ - Hope it's not Chlamydia

Oh, I may as well use every other smilie I didn't use:
8)%):D8?

T'tah fi now!

 

[smackcraft]

Smack - So it was not you running about man?

yeah must of been even better benzos than what i thought xD

 

[Myshkin]

My doc's so quality. We've decided to stop the tapering of Diazepam for the time being and start on the Codeine, which we both thought was a really good idea

Sounds like the kind of doctor you need right now.

I was going to say I'm made up for you, but obviously that codeine taper won't be painless. Less so with the benzo script intact though. Glad you're (ultra) smiley again, Mr. Monsta.

Chinny - Hope yer feeling a bit better. We should meet up at some point as I'm not too far away from Leeds at all

Wouldn't recommend that in the slightest. Not unless you fancy hard drinkin', tangential conversation and getting run over.

And cheers for the encouragement - believe me I nearly cracked, especially yesterday. As I value (what's left of) my good looks, health and friendships though, I remained strong. Which sounds like something that would get said on Oprah, or at an AA meeting, so I'll STFU riiiiiiiggggght now.

 

[brimz]

Ace little Film with Clint Boon
http://youtu.be/YhrKDh6e2oA

 

[monstanoodle]

Sounds like the kind of doctor you need right now.

I was going to say I'm made up for you, but obviously that codeine taper won't be painless. Less so with the benzo script intact though. Glad you're (ultra) smiley again, Mr. Monsta..

Yea, I've said this so many times, but she's been wuvlee from day 1
And true, it's not going to be fun hehe, but it needs to be done Is a good idea to have a stab at it too.
And thankyou! ^_^~♥

Wouldn't recommend that in the slightest. Not unless you fancy hard drinkin', tangential conversation and getting run over.

And cheers for the encouragement - believe me I nearly cracked, especially yesterday. As I value (what's left of) my good looks, health and friendships though, I remained strong. Which sounds like something that would get said on Oprah, or at an AA meeting, so I'll STFU riiiiiiiggggght now.

To be honest, hard drinking, tangential convo and getting run over might be quite fun.. You'd get some Morphine in the ambulance at the end of the night

You're quite welcome for the encouragement mate And ofcourse yer gunna have episodes of wanting to relapse - That's all part of the whole rubbish situation (now that sounds Oprah / AA - Do it properly or not at all Sam ). But yea you've got the reasons and the motivation so I reckon you'll do just fine man

 

[Infinite Jest]

Didn't get anything nice from d. Didn't actually get to see doc, but got appointment at good time next week.

I'm there to get a referral to an audiologist. Years of loud music have fucked my hearing. HR tip: use earplugs.

 

[Hedonistic Angel]

Didn't get anything nice from d. Didn't actually get to see doc, but got appointment at good time next week.

I'm there to get a referral to an audiologist. Years of loud music have fucked my hearing. HR tip: use earplugs.

Amen to that. A decade of raving and listening to loud repetitive dance music in head phones has fucked my hearing too.

I have 70% loss in my right ear, and 20% loss in my left... So I barely have one ears worth of hearing.

Its ridiculous, I am always say 'what?' to people... They must think I am so rude!!

And Sam, no worries, I thought it was rude not to introduce myself as you seem to be a member who I have no history with (ooo er!) My mother raised me to have manners. She also raised me to have a warped sense of sexuality and an addictive personality. But thats another story.

I'm so glad this has all blown over now! I feel like that happy and warm place I loved is till here! Bluelighters rule.

 

[Jabberwocky]

You'd get some Morphine in the ambulance at the end of the night

ime morphine for valid medical reasons, the only time i've had it, is a shit drug. it didn't make me feel nice it just sent me to sleep thinking very dark thoughts. the very sort of thoughts i take drugs to escape in fact.

ugh i need to get dressed, crack the whip at my slaves (read give gentle encouragement to my paid project students), and go to the gym. the boyfs finally admitted after loads of insomnia that weed might actually help him sleep so tonight we're gonna be a bit less stirct about it.

and sam i don't mind you turning the place into oprah if it means you're doing well. we've done jerry springer already so its possibly the next logical step.

 

[Mugz]

Had a dream last night that me and angelsmoke got back together and all was great. Then when I woke up I realised it didn't really happen and I was really upset Now all I can think about it how much I miss her and want to see her, but we are not contacting each other at the moment and I want to respect the decision that we made to do that.

I know she will eventually read this so I really shouldn't be posting it, but I need to get it out somehow. I don't think there is a way that we can work things out and get back together but I can't stop thinking about it, maybe there is a way, it has got me in such a state this morning, have been unable to do anything, just been crying and wanting to talk to angelsmoke. Have had to call off the London mini meet up with 1024 because I couldn't get there in time. I need to pack my stuff to leave for portsmouth, but not done anything yet, have 2.5 hours till I have to be at the train station if I am going to make it in time for my friends birthday meal.

I thought it would be easier after 9 weeks but it is just getting harder and harder

 

[Myshkin]

Feel for you, Mugz. Really do. We're in similar places right now, except my ex is still very much in contact.

I can't say anything that will make it feel better; only time will do that. But if you want to vent here then you know for a fact that you've got a number of sympathetic ears at your disposal.

 

[Hedonistic Angel]

I know it seems like an age old and unhelpful cliche, but time really is a healer. And 9 weeks isnt really that long to mend a broken heart. Break ups are horrid, they are never easy. Even if you both know its the right thing.

(hug)

It WILL get better. I promise. And in time, you will think about her less and less and it will hurt less. But other then time, I dont think there's much else that helps. Try to keep yourself busy and surrounded by positive people and tasks.

The move will be good for you maybe, so get some distance. Both geographically and mentally.

Good luck with everything though. Both move and moving on.

 

[Mugz]

Thanks Sam, sorry you are going through something very similar too. I can't really vent too much here as I know for a fact that angelsmoke will read these posts today or tomorrow, I dunno, maybe that is what I want, as we are not contacting each other at the moment.

I just wish I could go and see her and talk to her and try and work out some way that we could work things out. It can't be beyond the realms of possibility that we can sort things out. I know we both love each other, but it didn't seem like that was enough, but maybe that was just because we didn't try hard enough once it started to go down the drain.

I need to get myself packed and off to Portsmouth now.



edit- Thanks HA, I know time is meant to be a healer, and the no contact thing we are doing is meant to speed up the healing process but it is just really bringing a lot more pain. I don't want to admit that it is over, even though I know deep down it is. I can't let it go. I didn't fight for it enough, and I regret that and think it may have been the biggest mistake I have made.