So i have realised that i actually have a dependency on alcohol. I guess 2 solid years of drinking nightly after work will do that to ya .. my love is wine, preferably white but ill take red if that's all that's left.
But yeah .. a few things have happened lately that have made me realise i need to snap out of it and get healthier. I had a miscarriage after Easter. Didn't even know i was pregnant, but i would only have been about 3 weeks along the doc said. So yeah, i didn't get attached to the baby because i was unaware; but with going through that i have realised that maybe this is a sign to start looking after myself, and stop getting plastered every night.
Since trying to stop the drinking, i have found it actually kinda hard! I have realised how much i have turned to it on a daily/nightly basis for comfort. It helps me relax, helps me feel positive and it helps me sleep. Without it i am left feeling a bit anxious now, and im not sleeping well. I keep waking up all through the night.
Hi lovely, I think it's a good thing that you're posting in this thread because you're acknowledging that this has become a problem for you. I remember you and I discussing this a few months ago and I'm glad you've come to the point where you want to do something about it
Would you consider mentioning it to your doctor? They could perhaps refer you on to a drug and alcohol counsellor, or maybe a psychologist. After all, they say that drinking isn't a disorder in itself, but rather it is a SYMPTOM of underlying issues (that you might not even be aware of!). If you decide to see a psychologist make sure you get a referral from your GP because you might be able to claim it back on Medicare. Otherwise it's expensive.
Otherwise, what else do you have planned to try and cut down, or even quit drinking? Have you thought that far ahead?
Personally, I have been neglecting this thread for far too long because I am so ashamed at the complete and utter lack of progress or anything resembling follow-through on stuff I've said in this thread before about my own drinking problem. Every few months I come in here and say I'm ready to quit and this and that and yada yada bullshit bullshit. I am stuck so firmly in a massive rut in life, depression is the main culprit and it is so debilitating that I cannot even motivate myself to do anything to get help. It is so frustrating. Every morning I wake up and I think to myself "Right,
today is the day I make some positive changes in my life".....then that day passes by way too quickly, and the next morning I wake up hungover again and still have done absolutely
nothing to change my situation. I am bored, I am alone, I am depressed, I have so much self-loathing and shame at the state I've allowed myself to get in. And not only
that, but the fact that I've been this way for about 5 years, and STILL haven't done a goddam thing about it. I'm all talk 8)
My GP suggested in-patient rehab to me 12 months ago and at the time I felt desperate but when she said "rehab" that little addiction switch clicked back on in my head and I thought "I'm not
that bad...yet".
But I AM that bad, I need to admit it to myself, and I need a swift kick up the arse to actually fucking do something about it.
I just think the best way to interpret that is to realize that we all need our private space, time, etc. - and that when we have these things we are less likely to battle with cravings, etc.
