Hello. I may as well contribute my experiences. I have not visited here since a few months ago when I was anxiously awaiting my first sample of this stuff. Then I got it, and disappeared down a hole - my life became a broken record of- use it all up, order more, wait....... get it, use it all up, and so on.
I believe I'm risking becoming even more a self-absorbed narcissist hellbent on "just one more". In the mean time I managed to very much upset my parents for using in their house. But using or not, moving out is much overdue yet hard to obtain. Being 28 and in this situation certainly doesn't help self-esteem. But I digress, this thread is about a vice of mine.
About tolerance: I used to only need 115mg k IM for a fun time. I only acquired 3g's at a time and could only get it as soon as 3 weeks. Methoxetamine arrives in 1.
Easy availability coupled with low cost has led me to an intense physical addiction. Since the rents tossed my scale, I put a heaping pile in a spoon, and dissolve into 1mL. I find my tolerance is so high, and the solubility of methoxetamine not as fair as say, k, that if I only allow the heaping pile + 1mL to dissolve for a half-minute, the resulting dose is enough and usually not too much.
But given time dilation and my inclination to go at it ASAP as a good drug addict would, perhaps what seems like a half-minute turns into too much, and before I know it I'm communing with aliens or drowning in primordial goop, only to later come to with a mess on my hands. Just like k, when I take too much I begin talking nonsense, spitting, and other generally embarrassing things.
Since I've got to have my cake and eat it too, I've found the only way to moderate is to take a dose or two out first, then place the rest in an inaccessible location, where I will physically be unable to retrieve it for at least 12 hours. My intuition tells me I've got a raging problem, but I am too stubborn to just stop it.
As for mood: This material, as with k, is quite the antidepressant. I find that even after I run out or the rents flush my stash (which they've flushed about 10g's so far), I am quite happy, content, motivated, almost overjoyed with life, for a week. Sometimes this afterglow lasts two weeks. Then, my cynicism takes over
As for withdrawal: My last dabble consisted of roughly 7g over 5 days. One morning after heavy binging I had awoken extremely freezing and couldn't warm up 'till I did more. Otherwise, when I use in "moderation" I am quite fine afterwards. For this reason I disagree with the notion that this substance is an opiate.
AS for gateway drugs: I quit dope in december and was clean for months. I stayed away from all "hard" drugs, except dissociatives. My disgust for opiates did not leave me for awhile, and the thought of using had not entered my mind. But then I binged on quite a lot of methoxetamine, pissed off the rents, they flushed my stash, and I decided I couldn't do the stuff anymore if I wished to stay here. And, it was killing me to be killing them with my childish behavior. I couldn't do methoxetamine but still needed something. So I told myself I could just do dope once in awhile (lol!). Two weeks later I decided I couldn't, so I got off the shit.
In my methoxetamine-afterglow-fueled mania I started a business and found enough work to get my own place so, finally I may move forward and shed this childish shell.
I hope this helps someone, whether you are looking to be deterred from using or looking for a reason to use. And since I would hate to be the person who invented this substance reading this, I must disclaim, blame the person, not the drug. I really am fucking crazy. I have friends who can truly use this stuff in moderation, the real sense of the word.
I thought I might add, no bladder issues, no memory/cognition issues. The worst I've noted is a few bumps and scrapes, flesh wounds acquired by being a klutz under the influence. Fortunately, whilst on this and/or k, I have gotten up and fallen, but never made it as far as a flight of stairs, nor have gotten behind the wheel impaired. </long ramble>
