Loooots to reply to.
Again, for the fun thing, I'm sure most people approach this simply wanting to enjoy themselves, and that's great, but it's not why I'm doing it. I do however expect to have lots of fun along the way. Also with spontaneity, I'm going to let myself be spontaneous - if something's calling to me and it doesn't break any of the guidelines, I'll go for it. This was the case with my initial second plateau trip, and I don't regret it.
But you guys have a lot more experience than me and I'm sure things will change when I really get into it. Perhaps I'll end up modifying #6. For now though, I'll take it as a disciplined psychonautical endeavour above all else. Worth adding too that while no longer depressed, I'm still very unsatisfied with my life, and the reason I'm taking drugs is to try and figure out how to remedy that. I'm all for enjoying life, but if I'm relying on psychoactives for that, it will just be another addictive escapism and they'll inevitably make things worse, not better. As happens with many, many people.
I also will be careful with my expectations. The first two or three experiences on any new drug are finding my feet at different dosages, basically. I took DXM expecting nothing. I didn't find what I was looking for and don't expect I will with dextromethorphan, but that's fine, I wasn't disappointed with what I did get instead. With the shrooms, I'll be sampling it at 2g with a bunch of other guys who know what they're doing, then I'll take a few more home and play around with the effects once I'm more familiar with it. Having no expectations with all this definitely sounds like a good idea, because from the hundreds of trip reports I've read, it's very unpredictable and rarely goes the way you think it will. Especially with heavier stuff like salvia and ibogaine.
I'll see about ecstasy, it's not something I need to think about just yet, but I'll leave the possibility open. For example I very much like this idea:
any major dude said:
At the moment the MDMA for PTSD clinical trials are flagship of the renaissance in psychedelic research.
Not that I have PTSD, but researching how others have gone about using ecstasy productively sounds like a great place to start. I'm also reading up on those books you recommended, thanks for that.
Never Knows Best said:
Well my life these days is rather pathetic, and my only real friend remaining is Jim Beam, so I like to go back to a more optmistic time in my life, regain a frame of mind when I still had good things going for me, revisit some locations in a place I used to live, go back to a few days fun with some old friends...I find that as time goes on, my sober recollections have been distilled down to a few symbolic moments, and the realities of the situation have been lost in rose colored nostalgia and my subconscious manipulating them to be in line with my current personal narrative. So I chemically enhance memory to see things more accurately, and engage in simple escapism. When you're pessimistic about the future, and don't have anything in the present, living in the past can become quite tempting, unhealthy though it may be.
I totally understand that. It's a big temptation for me to do the same thing. Been an escapist all my life. :D Good luck... I hope you find peace with it.
Once again, thanks everyone for your input, this has changed the way I see things already.