Flickering
Bluelighter
As a budding traveller of the mind, I have a few rules in place to make sure I get the most out of each introspective experience. They serve a twofold purpose: avoiding health problems and addiction, and keeping my mind focused on my psychospiritual quest (the bredth of which has expanded since I posted that thread), which I take quite seriously. In fact it's about the only thing in my life I do take seriously anymore.
So here are my current seven rules. I'd like to ping them off Bluelight for feedback from more experienced journeymen, and to see if anyone else has their own list of principles to abide by.
1. Minimum two-week space between psychadelic trips.
If I have a trip of any kind, I need to wait at least two weeks before the next one. This is mainly to absorb and reflect on each trip adequately. It has the added benefit of ensuring I don't turn into an eraserhead, and it's cheaper that way.
2. Minimum three-week space between dissociative trips.
If I down two bottles of cough syrup, I need to wait three weeks to do it again. Or, I can wait two weeks and take a psychadelic instead. Or I can take a psychadelic and then, two weeks later, down two bottles of cough syrup.
The extra week is mostly to avoid psychological addiction and the health problems that come with using dissociative anaesthetics. My experience with DXM so far is that it's quite a bodily taxing drug with a synthetic-feeling hangover and a pang in the head that lingers for a while. I'd like to give my brain a good rest for a while before punching fresh holes in it. If I end up doing ketamine, the minimum will probably be once every six weeks.
3. Very low doses are the only exception.
If there's nothing much to reflect on and the dose is mild enough, it doesn't factor into the above two rules. I made this one for marijuana, basically, trusting myself not to take much of it anyway (or to only take it in conjunction with other drugs) because its effect are comparatively negligable and it only goes so far towards my goals with psychoactive use anyway.
4. No opiates, stimulants, highly dangerous or irrelevant drugs.
This immediately and categorically cuts heroin, methamphetamine, cocaine and even ecstasy and alcohol from the picture. I have no interest in any of them anyway. Some, I don't trust myself to not get hooked on. But mostly, fun as they would be, they don't factor in to what I'm trying to do. I don't see much self-developmental benefit from shooting heroin.
The list also includes some hallucinogens such as PCP and, obviously, datura. There may be some exceptions for crossovers like DOC, a psychadelic amphetamine.
5. Approach each trip ritualistically, with clear intent. And 6. Never simply get high for fun.
More specifically, I fast for twelve hours beforehand, and meditate briefly on what I've learnt from the last experience, and what I hope to gain from this one (keeping in mind that psychadelics are unpredictable). Basically, I remind myself that, fun as it might be, in the end it's not a game and I have to take it seriously.
My last DXM trip inspired a lot of these rules, but this one in particular. I came down with a sense of wonder and satisfaction, but also a sense that I need to not fuck around with what I'm trying to do. It was a strong impression, as you can probably tell from this list. It's as though the drug was saying, "I can help you, I can show you a lot, but if you get cocky, if you think you're the one in control, I will suck you in and you won't get what you're looking for."
Of course, just because I'm not doing it to have fun doesn't mean I can't have fun. %) I have my first 'shroom trip coming up this weekend. I've heard this can be an amazingly enjoyable experience. (Or a nightmare.) Looking forward to it. Not much point to self-discovery if you finish off some kind of uptight monk.
7. Have at least one referee.
This is where it gets a bit AA, but the idea with this one is, if I break any of these rules, I'm obliged to tell at least one friend who's volunteered, so I'm accountable to more than just myself.
So far, the list of drugs on my catalogue are:
DXM - Have done, will do a few more times and probably stop then.
Psilocybin - Coming up soon.
Mescaline - No idea where to find it.
DMT - Surprisingly accessible. Will only do once I have the gist of psychadelics.
Salvia - Very difficult to find in Australia. By the time I do, I'll probably be somewhat experienced on DXM, mushrooms, cacti and DMT.
Marijuana - Everywhere. One guy tipped me with weed a couple of weeks ago. Like I said before, this will be mostly for combinations, such as with DXM or mushrooms.
Ibogaine - I will probably have to travel overseas to find it. Obviously I'm not addicted to anything, but nonetheless, this is said to give the user profound insights and can change their life. My holy grail.
Ayahuasca / Acacia - Only found out about this one today, but acacia shouldn't be too hard to find around here. Like ibogaine, acacia is a shamanic experience.
LSD - May try very infrequently at low doses.
Ketamine - If all else fails. Probably won't end up needing it.
So there you go. I've just started with drugs and I'm hoping a few years down the track, with these guidelines, I'll have shaped the experiences into something positive, and have found what I'm after. Or I could end up a crack addict train wreck. I get easily addicted to all sorts of things so that's why I'm being pre-emptive and methodical. Any thoughts, or equivalent models of your own, please share!
So here are my current seven rules. I'd like to ping them off Bluelight for feedback from more experienced journeymen, and to see if anyone else has their own list of principles to abide by.
1. Minimum two-week space between psychadelic trips.
If I have a trip of any kind, I need to wait at least two weeks before the next one. This is mainly to absorb and reflect on each trip adequately. It has the added benefit of ensuring I don't turn into an eraserhead, and it's cheaper that way.
2. Minimum three-week space between dissociative trips.
If I down two bottles of cough syrup, I need to wait three weeks to do it again. Or, I can wait two weeks and take a psychadelic instead. Or I can take a psychadelic and then, two weeks later, down two bottles of cough syrup.
The extra week is mostly to avoid psychological addiction and the health problems that come with using dissociative anaesthetics. My experience with DXM so far is that it's quite a bodily taxing drug with a synthetic-feeling hangover and a pang in the head that lingers for a while. I'd like to give my brain a good rest for a while before punching fresh holes in it. If I end up doing ketamine, the minimum will probably be once every six weeks.
3. Very low doses are the only exception.
If there's nothing much to reflect on and the dose is mild enough, it doesn't factor into the above two rules. I made this one for marijuana, basically, trusting myself not to take much of it anyway (or to only take it in conjunction with other drugs) because its effect are comparatively negligable and it only goes so far towards my goals with psychoactive use anyway.
4. No opiates, stimulants, highly dangerous or irrelevant drugs.
This immediately and categorically cuts heroin, methamphetamine, cocaine and even ecstasy and alcohol from the picture. I have no interest in any of them anyway. Some, I don't trust myself to not get hooked on. But mostly, fun as they would be, they don't factor in to what I'm trying to do. I don't see much self-developmental benefit from shooting heroin.
The list also includes some hallucinogens such as PCP and, obviously, datura. There may be some exceptions for crossovers like DOC, a psychadelic amphetamine.
5. Approach each trip ritualistically, with clear intent. And 6. Never simply get high for fun.
More specifically, I fast for twelve hours beforehand, and meditate briefly on what I've learnt from the last experience, and what I hope to gain from this one (keeping in mind that psychadelics are unpredictable). Basically, I remind myself that, fun as it might be, in the end it's not a game and I have to take it seriously.
My last DXM trip inspired a lot of these rules, but this one in particular. I came down with a sense of wonder and satisfaction, but also a sense that I need to not fuck around with what I'm trying to do. It was a strong impression, as you can probably tell from this list. It's as though the drug was saying, "I can help you, I can show you a lot, but if you get cocky, if you think you're the one in control, I will suck you in and you won't get what you're looking for."
Of course, just because I'm not doing it to have fun doesn't mean I can't have fun. %) I have my first 'shroom trip coming up this weekend. I've heard this can be an amazingly enjoyable experience. (Or a nightmare.) Looking forward to it. Not much point to self-discovery if you finish off some kind of uptight monk.
7. Have at least one referee.
This is where it gets a bit AA, but the idea with this one is, if I break any of these rules, I'm obliged to tell at least one friend who's volunteered, so I'm accountable to more than just myself.
So far, the list of drugs on my catalogue are:
DXM - Have done, will do a few more times and probably stop then.
Psilocybin - Coming up soon.
Mescaline - No idea where to find it.
DMT - Surprisingly accessible. Will only do once I have the gist of psychadelics.
Salvia - Very difficult to find in Australia. By the time I do, I'll probably be somewhat experienced on DXM, mushrooms, cacti and DMT.
Marijuana - Everywhere. One guy tipped me with weed a couple of weeks ago. Like I said before, this will be mostly for combinations, such as with DXM or mushrooms.
Ibogaine - I will probably have to travel overseas to find it. Obviously I'm not addicted to anything, but nonetheless, this is said to give the user profound insights and can change their life. My holy grail.
Ayahuasca / Acacia - Only found out about this one today, but acacia shouldn't be too hard to find around here. Like ibogaine, acacia is a shamanic experience.
LSD - May try very infrequently at low doses.
Ketamine - If all else fails. Probably won't end up needing it.
So there you go. I've just started with drugs and I'm hoping a few years down the track, with these guidelines, I'll have shaped the experiences into something positive, and have found what I'm after. Or I could end up a crack addict train wreck. I get easily addicted to all sorts of things so that's why I'm being pre-emptive and methodical. Any thoughts, or equivalent models of your own, please share!
