The way you described it ektamine makes it seem like Salvia in a way? More euphoric I'd imagine but are they somewhat similar?
With MXE I railed it with 10mg lines...never came close to a "hole" but it felt euphoric, third eye opening in many ways, and made me enjoy listening to music on an uber level.
No no, its nothing like salvia.
The feeling is pretty much inconceivable until you experience it.
The best way to try and imagine what it feels like is think about how it works in your psyche. What it does, literally, is cut off all sensory input from your brain, in other words completely separating mind from body.
If everything you ever knew is gone, but you're still awake.... you're in the k-hole
Without *any* sensory input, you won't feel like an individual being what-so-ever. Complete ego-death. No more 'you'.
Keep in mind that nothing else really cuts off your sensory input like that. On salvia, you still
feel that you have a body, even if you cant control it. You still see patterns and colors and light, you can hear sounds, etc. When every last bit of that input is removed, theres nothing left but what feels to me, like a universal consciousness.
Like I said it probably sounds like crazy talk, but if you re-read this after you've successfully holed, I think it will probably make a lot of sense.