Ugh, MDPV brings back some bad memories, I used to be addicted to the stuff, swore I was having a great time on it and adored it. When it was made illegal here I was stricken by grief...
But looking back, it was the darkest time of my life, living without sleep, without food. Wasting days tweaking insignificant things, not leaving my house for ages and being unsocial... occasionally experiencing delusions and the beginning of psychosis, but that's not the worst of it.
The health anxiety MDPV gave me was the worst of it, every single day I'd find new "symptoms", spend hours reading up on them and foolishly thinking that I had all these life threatening diseases or problems, leading to the occasional panic attack where I felt like I might die within the day, once even thinking my gallbladder had suddenly stopped working.
When the MDPV ban was announced, my vendor was getting rid of their stock at a bargain price, I bought several grams which caused me to use far more of the stuff than I was accustomed to, which eventually led me to rush to the doctors during a panic attack where I thought I had some sort of pneumonia which would lead my lungs to collapse...rationality gone after 4 days of no sleep. I later realized what I thought was something life threatening was merely some bad heart burn due to me not eating for so long...
The amount of things MDPV caused me to diagnose myself with is absolutely shameful.
It brought me within inches of a nervous break down.
There were even times when I'd stick my finger into the baggie and insufflate what was on my finger when I was in too much of a hurry to weigh doses.
With all of that, you'd think I'd have learnt a lesson quickly and flushed the stuff, but no, a small break and I was back to wasting my life away fiending on the stuff...
I even deluded myself into thinking I could use MDPV to help me learn and study... haha, small chance, instead I'd spend 4 days tweaking my Windows install in every way imaginable.
When it was banned and I knew of no vendors to get it from, it was, looking back, the greatest thing to happen to me. (Though of course it was my fault for letting it get to that stage, so I'm not glad because MDPV was banned, but because I couldn't get hold of it, selfish as that sounds).
While this stuff can be as enjoyable as all hell, it can also be vile and life destroying. I hate being vulgar, but I've got to emphasize this as much as possible:
Treat MDPV with fucking repest, don't underestimate it, don't sneak in doses thinking it'll be harmless, MDPV deserves to be treated as a hardcore drug, likely with as much abuse potential as methamphestime. Many will disagree, I've never had meth, but MDPV seems as likely as meth to cause heavy sleep deprivation and everything which goes along with it, don't be fooled by MDPV's clean and somewhat moderate effects. (By moderate effects, I mean plain stimulation without the body buzz/euphoria often associated with drugs)
What feels fine and harmless while on MDPV may appear a lot more overpowering and regrettable post-use.
MDPV's main problem is that it can become a drug of habit, like smoking, something which you can use daily and seemingly still be productive... any drug which can end up replacing sobriety has to be used with caution.
I often wonder how much I damaged my body during that phase...drugs themselves may not be damaging to the body, but only a fool would say things such as sleep deprivation, starvation, constant stimulation, sitting in the same position for days on end and occasional mild psychosis is harmless.
I realize there have been countless similar warning sin the past, and that most people won't be interested in this, or foolishly believe they have enough self-control and will to control MDPV, as I thought once too, but it's a warning I feel compelled to echo.
I've been avoiding all stimulants since then, even caffeine, but I got hold of some MPA in a bundle from a vendor recently and using it has brought back all sorts of dark MDPV memories... I'm on MPA and MDAI right now (Hence the wall of text, sorry!), so you can't call me a drug hater from this post.
!
