>oh.. my browser first showed only the first page, and I guessed the thread is dead.. which led my to write this: <
So? Everyone get off the stuff? Waiting inside a crappy nuthouse for the voices to shut the f*** up finally? Or at home in dark room, the windows nailed shut, watching the barricade infront the main door? Or got lost, while sneaking around with a of weapon looking what has caused the noise?
I am not sure... will this be the third year... being in love with my addiction... experienced psychotic adventures... irreal horrors, paranoid thoughts of being watched... once every three month fleeing into a mental institution or getting forced into it... well prepared with peevee in every bag, mobile phone, inside every pocket of my jackets, only the stains of freebase are more numerous than my places to hide it... the first day talking weird shit and the second day spending my time to look sane, while I secretly snorting unmeasured lines on the toilet, ignoring everything I hear no matter which source it came from... filled with greedy thought about smoking the next pipe... one of my twelve ... one pipe for every substance I use to base mdpv.. most peope broke off every contact with me... some said, to protect themselves others just got annoyed...
...at least this year I got some alternatives... so my last excuse not to quit is the fine taste of freebase.... I don't care about any damage which will occur ... or what stupid things I might going to do during the next psychotic episode... writing the next order in an almnost incomprehensible english, while the smokeclouds only stops every few days, a pipe or some dish lies shattered by my feet, when I got overwhelmed with tiredness and fell into a short sleep in my chair, awaking any hour "full of joy" for the next hit..... while my heart is jumping and the beat is bumping.. and I am starting again to answer nonexistent personas
( well.... think its not that dark anymore... I am able to sleep, eat, drink, care about my appearence.... and still enjoying this compound... can't even say it ruined me.... but what do I know
[should delete it... sry for my bad english and this senseless post 8) ]