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Sudden urge to kill myself.

I just slept for 6 hours and it's now 10 pm. I feel heaps better and this afternoon is kind of a blur. I took the rest of my valium an im going to my girlfriends house. What happened to me?
 
So I started cutting the shit out of my arms and i couldn't stop source is came to er now I can't leave wtf...
 
Hey bro I'm not really sure what you are saying in your last message. But if you are at the ER, GOOD. Let them help you. It's not worth the scars, trust me. You will feel better in time. If you're not at the ER and I misinterpreted your message, please get yourself there or call your doc or a suicide line or something.

Take care.
 
I hope you are well tommy, when I cut myself and get suicidal I rarely realize how bad it is nor do I realize how many people care and how badly they want me to get right. Please get help bro, don't wait till it's too late - mad love brother.
 
I did go to the ER. They made me stay overnight. The most boring time of my life. I still feel pretty shit but I'm at the gym now trying to work out my frustration. Thanks everyone for your support.
 
it's a funny thing.. this brain of ours.. one day, I feel like i'd be better off dead.. the next I feel like i'm flying in the sky. I'm glad you stuck it out man, your not the only one fighting this battle. I've had suicidal thoughts since before the age of 10, i'm 20 now and am proudly still alive. hang in there.
 
Don't do it. Call your girlfriend let her know how u feel. It will all be okay. Trust me I'm a girl and I'd want to know if my boyfriend was going thru this.
 
Antidepressants can cause an increased suicide risk and an increase in suicidal thoughts after you begin taking them. I had this happen too. when on effexor after 3 days these thoughts occurred, which were closer to compulsions. I went off the SSRIs (doctors orders) and took some benzos to help me sleep.

Second time was with zoloft, and I had increased suicidal thoughts for about a month. probably would think about it 60+ times a day. anyway, it went away after a month. I never really previously had these thoughts, nor have I had them since discontinuing SSRIs.

After 2 weeks of use you won't go through any withdrawal symptoms so don't worry about that.

I realised that this thread has been going for a while, but if you haven't already go see a doctor/psychiatrist etc. ASAP. It might be a better idea to go to ER, they will assess you, and probably tell you stop taking the SSRIs plus give you some benzos to calm you down.
 
psytaco said:
Antidepressants can cause an increased suicide risk and an increase in suicidal thoughts after you begin taking them. I had this happen too. when on effexor after 3 days these thoughts occurred, which were closer to compulsions. I went off the SSRIs (doctors orders) and took some benzos to help me sleep.

Second time was with zoloft, and I had increased suicidal thoughts for about a month. probably would think about it 60+ times a day. anyway, it went away after a month. I never really previously had these thoughts, nor have I had them since discontinuing SSRIs.

After 2 weeks of use you won't go through any withdrawal symptoms so don't worry about that.

I realised that this thread has been going for a while, but if you haven't already go see a doctor/psychiatrist etc. ASAP. It might be a better idea to go to ER, they will assess you, and probably tell you stop taking the SSRIs plus give you some benzos to calm you down.
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This is exactly why I object to SSRI's in the first place for myself or for others; it can actually increase suicidal ideation/behavior which I think is just a little disturbing. :\

I have had this effect from different types of drugs but Zoloft is horrible. The short half life means you are likely to have a discontinuation syndrome if you don't taper properly.

tommy34 said:
I did go to the ER. They made me stay overnight. The most boring time of my life. I still feel pretty shit but I'm at the gym now trying to work out my frustration. Thanks everyone for your support.
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Keep it up at the gym! Results take time but can begin quickly. :)

A lot of us experience boredom, isolation, depression, panic, etc. and you aren't alone there.
 
Time to get off these stupid anti-depressants or switch up. I dont believe in taking SSRI's but thats just me. There are other options other than SSRI's.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
This is exactly why I object to SSRI's in the first place for myself or for others; it can actually increase suicidal ideation/behavior which I think is just a little disturbing. :\

I have had this effect from different types of drugs but Zoloft is horrible. The short half life means you are likely to have a discontinuation syndrome if you don't taper properly.
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Cant understand why SSRI's give off effects of suicide in people taking them for depression. Is there a conspiracy here to have people flip out & do the unthinkable? Is there a over all bigger plan to destroy people with these SSRI's, mehh....I dont know but would never recommend them to anyone not caring of they have helped a few people.

I believe they have destroyed many lives.
 
Yeah I can't agree more with the SSRI thing.
Exercise, meditation, and acupuncture have done more for my recurring depression, anxiety, and self harm/ suicidal ideation than any psychiatric drug ever did.
Just be careful if you decide to discontinue your SSRI and have a taper plan that is solid, or if you are going to keep taking it, don't skip doses or change them up at all, just take it.
Good luck. I think I've said before in another thread where you were asking bout SSRI's - feel free to PM me since I've been through the full gamut of treatment for depression, etc and would not at all mind giving specific advice or support, whatever you need man, depression and SSRI's and all that shit just becomes overwhelming sometimes, ya know?
 
when I was 18/19 and went on ADs I had really bad suicidal thoughts. They were very graphic, like with thoughts of my brains being splatter all over the ceiling from taking a gun to my head.

ADs have a tendency to cause suicidal thoughts in younger people. The younger you are the more risk you have.
 
I went to see my doctor today. I told him I don't want to take any more ADs, I am pretty scared of them now and the placebo effect may be dangerous. I am going to stick to the gym and I am going to see a psychologist. The gym has worked wonders for me so far, I couldn't recommend anything better than slugging it out at the gym. With my long term goals, the gym and a psychologist hopefully I don't see a emergency room about this every again.
 
tommy34 said:
I went to see my doctor today. I told him I don't want to take any more ADs, I am pretty scared of them now and the placebo effect may be dangerous. I am going to stick to the gym and I am going to see a psychologist. The gym has worked wonders for me so far, I couldn't recommend anything better than slugging it out at the gym. With my long term goals, the gym and a psychologist hopefully I don't see a emergency room about this every again.
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i'm really glad to see you're doing ok, tommy. docs and pharmacists don't warn people that there are some serious paradoxical effects from these newer ADs.

back in the mid-90s, just *ONE* paxil sent me into manic psychosis so bad that i ended up taking an involuntary ride in a cop car to the bin for a psych eval. i was so freaked out during that 30 minute ride that i got ahold of myself good enough to say the right things and get out so i could go home.
seriously one of the scariest things i've ever experienced.

eating well, going to the gym, and talking w/ a psychologist sounds like a great plan and a whole lot safer.
best of luck to you.
-izzy
 
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Stay in the gym bro! I'm glad to see you're not dead. Get fuckin ripped, your gf will like that lol!
 
tommy34 said:
About half an hour ago I started having thoughts of killing myself, out of nowhere. I am at work and I wanted to bring a little sharp knife to the toilet. I cut my fingers a bit to ease the urge but people keep walking in. I was fine for the first bit of the day, running around helping people. I even told my mum on my lunch that i was taking antidepressants. I started taking citalopram 20mg 2 weeks ago. I took 10mg today because my doctor told me to half my dose to try combat sexual dysfunction. This is fucked, i want to die but I can't do it to my family.
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This is senseless. It sounds like your life was better before when you didnt have these thoughts. Go have lots of sex and dont let anyone tell you that its wrong. Consider yourself lucky to be able too.

Fvcking doctors can't be trusted can't wait to prescribe some med and overdose them almost always.
 
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