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Sudden urge to kill myself.

tommy34

tommy34

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About half an hour ago I started having thoughts of killing myself, out of nowhere. I am at work and I wanted to bring a little sharp knife to the toilet. I cut my fingers a bit to ease the urge but people keep walking in. I was fine for the first bit of the day, running around helping people. I even told my mum on my lunch that i was taking antidepressants. I started taking citalopram 20mg 2 weeks ago. I took 10mg today because my doctor told me to half my dose to try combat sexual dysfunction. This is fucked, i want to die but I can't do it to my family.
 
bro, ive contemplated suiced MANY a times, im bipolar.
from what it sounds like, these anti depressants are the cause for your suicidal thoughts. this isnt you. nYour stronger then this. suicide is the easy way out, for cowards. your strong, you can tough it out, and you know there is a reward waiting at the end for you. all you have to do is be strong. im still in the process as well, and havent reached my reward yet.
 
Maybe it's just cause I only had 10mg. I want to take another 10. We have these real sharp knifes at work. What the fuck do I do. I'm sick of living like this.
 
keep doing what you are, keep trying and asking for help, continue observing and rationalizing these thoughts,, they do not own you.

2 weeks would be rather fast for the medication to begin working properly also, time is only on your side...
 
Do I take more. I'm telling my girlfriend to go out tonight. I'm scared im going to do something stupid. Why would I feel like this if I was meant to live
 
tommy, please call your doctor, tell him exactly how you are feeling, about the knives, the whole story. if you get an answering service, insist they contact your doc cuz this is most def an emergency situation.

my son's best friend's dad suddenly stopped taking an ssri cuz of unbearable side effects. 48 hours later he took his life. he was one of the last people i would have ever guessed would do that to his family.

best of luck to you. please call your doc because your are experiencing a major adverse reaction which needs to be medically monitored very closely so you are safe.
-izzy
 
I can't its Saturday and he is probably home with his family. I don't want to bother him because I'm a weak bitch that can't handle shit. I think I should take all my valium an sleep. I just want to bleed a bit.
 
She isn't here. She is coming over later then she is going out to see her friends.
 
No. I want her to go out. What would happen if I took all my citalapram? I have heaps of it.
 
Phone 911 or a suicide help line right now (1-800-273-8255 in USA). Don't take all your pills. Don't cut yourself. Go talk to someone who can get you help. Don't take anything but deep breaths. You don't have to go through this alone.

If you take all of your SSRI's you'll just get deleriously sick and will definitely regret it later.
 
I'm in aus. I feel sick and i cant breath. What the fuck is going on. I took a shower and imagined mum at my funeral an started crying. I need help but I can't tell anyone. Fuck I'm scared.
 
Fuck fuck my doctor isn't in today. I have heaps of marks up my arm now cause this fucking knife is blunt.
 
ring lifeline perhaps?

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you need to put space between your thoughts and actions, these feelings will pass, get your gf over asap, and just enjoy her company
 
Go to the nearest hospital Emergency ward, they will have people that can help you. Be honest to them please, its the only way they can help you. Please go, you dont want to do this, neither do your parents or girlfriend, they all care about you thats why they are there. The people at the hospital have seen what your going through a million times im sure, they know how to help you.

We care about you too, thats why were all posting trying to help you. Your alive and ment to be. Please go to the hospital. Where abouts are you in Australia PM me.
 
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