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fiarworks

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This is my first major post and it comes with a positive purpose. I will start by saying drugs are illegal in most parts of the world and are potentially dangerous and should be avoided ! That said, I am taking notes and putting together a personal neurology database. I want specific data from anyone diagnosed with mental illness who has ingested illegal drugs for recreation use. My goal for this community is to cater to anyone with mental illness who is still curious enough to risk more than most have to for the cause. Most emphasis on instilling safety that wasn't there before and to educate of proper dosing and possible avoidance if you insist on ingesting a substance with mental illness.

I have been an all round drug enthusiast since mary jane at age 12. I have also lived with mild schizophrenia my entire life. Several years ago i tried 2c-b for the first time. 1 dose (.1) very precise very pure. This and every other time since with nearly all substances my required doses have been very different compared to my normal companions. I have been lucky and guessed a lot and have much knowledge to share from it that can reduce discomfort, and general displeasure.

Now it's your turn! Previous experiences only no limit if you have relevant data i can use it! I am looking for specifically the illness you have, the drug you havepreviously taken, and the dose. any information you might have such as side effects, feelings, sensations, avoidances etc. good bad it's all welcome and will help me greatly.

Thank you,
 
Alright ! I will start since i opened it ! No formal format i just want data.

Illness: Paranoid Schizophrenia (Mild)
Drug: 2c-e
Dose: 3 .1 capsules doses mixed with 4 parts powdered sugar 1 part dose as per weight
mood: summer time teenagers parents leave for the weekend couldnt be a better mood, setting or enviroment.
diet: square meal 4 hours prior

This was my third and favorite hallucinogenic experience ever. my first two were very disapointing. Every1 but me was in it hard at .1 then the second time even harder with .2. My pupils proved it was active but I found it wasn't affecting me at all until 3 doses were taken. 3 was perfect. nice body hum with emphasis on visuals. personally i cant get harder visuals with anything else. speech was impossible but i was coherent enough to listen well. motor skills took a beating though. i was a little clumsy.

notes:
Future experimentation showed more is too intense. My ex was the same way same disorder and dose. for users with schizophrenia or any diagnosed emotional disorders spend extra time on things too improve mood. it will be a battle especially if you are medicated. notably I have whitnessed individuals with bipolar disorder needing 3 or more as well to even feel a little ! 1g for spinning !
 
well I have anxiety and some minor bipolar tendencies. I started with near daily pot use at around age 14. Countless LDS trips between ages 14 and 23. I gravitated to benzos and opiates at 19, always at much higher doses than recommended. with the benzos I weaned off when I was 19--at my worst I took about 10 yellow diazepam at night or 2-8 vials of versed IM (5 mg/ml), which caused blackouts. obviously.

with opiates my tolerance grew very fast. beginning with a dose of 100mg of morphine per day it went up to about 500 mg of liquid morphine. then I switched to methadone, 120 mg per day but would alternate with oxycontin, about 1000 mg per day. then I switched to suboxone [not recommended for those at a high dose] and am down to 1 mg.

goddammit, I'm beginning to suspect that weightlifting might be the answer.
 
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Mr. Fiarworks.

Perhaps the reason why this thread doesn't have many responses, is because the intention is unclear. It may just be my neaderthal-esque synapse-misfiring lack of cognitive finesse, though I don't really see what your getting at. Could you clarify for my drool-drenched innately ignorant self?

Are you aiming to collect data upon the connection between the initial use of substances, and subsequently emerging neurological issues as a result?

Are you looking for responses from individuals that have been diagnosed with mental illness previous to their mind expanding exploits, and their subsequent experiences and methods of coping?

Or are you looking for a correlation between mental illness and the subsequent use of illicit substances as self-medication or escapism?

Is it chicken and egg stuff?

Or is it somewhere in between?

Or maybe i'm over analysing??
Then again perhaps im not analysing enough!!! teehee

clarification please sir.
What is the nature of your study, required information, and general intention?
 
DJ 303 said:
clarification please sir.
What is the nature of your study, required information, and general intention?
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well I don't have any one specific goal but a few equally important ones. educating, gathering data for a personal neurological study. reducing risks for folks would be the main theme if i had to choose one
 
hope this helps

When i was 16 i used to smoke weed every weekend with my mates until it came around to about September/October and my mate told me about magic mushrooms how they were free and you could pick them and the effects

So for the next 2 weeks i was out in the fields every single night picking shrooms, mainly i just ate them as they were (yummy maggots lol) , i was taking about 500 a night and i think one night we tried making a brew and mixed the brew with alcohol .. man that was a fun night lol

Anyway after the season was over i went back to doing my weed but with a very bad effect, i ended up having a huge panic attack , my vision was all over the place not hallucination but its weird , it was like my feild of vision was in frame shots and dropping ... anyway i rushed to hospital and had my heart checked and was told i was fine so i went home and the following week done the same and i had yet another panic attack after that weekend things only got worse for me mentaly but the worst part was that i became a massive hypochondriac

For a year and a half i couldnt sleep just because of the sound of my heart beating in my ear when i lay down, i thought i was going to die, then when i got maybe a small pain in my arm i would think that i was going to have a heart attack , this lead to major sleep deprivation for that year and a half i would sleep maybe for 3 hours per night then would have to get up for work , the only thing that seemed to help at the time was drinking every night

I also was scared to leave my house by my self because i had a paranoia that people were after me which there wasnt

To go through that at the age of 16/17 for all that time was the worst thing ive ever experienced in my whole life , im 30 now and i do still sometimes get a patch of the hypochondria if i mix certain drugs like i am on methadone just now and if i use nytol for a prolonged amount of time i seem to be effected by that in the way of i think my heart has something wrong , i cant sleep again etc etc so i have learned to stay away from certain mixes of drugs

Oh one thing that helped me very much was valium when i was 17 i was prescribed it when i was on holiday and i felt my self again , it was great but when i got back home the doctors would rather i was freaking out and wouldnt prescribe me it

In the end this may shock you but one night one of my friends i had lost due to my excessive drinking thought he would pay a visit to see how i was and had been taking XTC which he offered me but being a hypochondriac i was bloody terrified that my heart would explode lol but in the end i gave in and took half of an E and i felt amazing and began taking it every weekend and within no time at all all my paranoia had vanished including my fear of dying every night and i felt my self again so ultimately the xtc was what cured me

I hope this helps with your studies if you want to ask me more about the things i went through at that time i would be happy to help
 
I don't know if this counts as a mental disorder, but for a year during my sophmomore year of high school (age:16) I was extremely depressed. A buddy of mine offered me shrooms, and having little faith in life, I accepted. I had never even smoked weed yet.

I have to say I have never made such a good decision in my life. It opened my eyes to a whole new light and I understood the world around me. I finally knew what true happiness felt like. I was in ecstasy.

The trip eventually wore off but my positive insight stuck with me forever. I truly believe the psilocybin mushrooms would be great in the use of severe depression. It sure as hell helped me. 5 years later I still recognize that as the greatest night of my life.
 
Hi fiarworks

This thread doesn't actually belong here at Drug Studies. We aim to host threads about drug-related research projects conducted by universities/institutions, with the occasional exception for community members who have constructed a research project and given thought to ethical data collection.

Your aim sounds great, but as it stands, this thread is more of a conversation about drugs/mental illness (as opposed to a research study) and the data collected are not anonymous.

I'm going to move this to Drug Culture... but DC mods, please move elsewhere in your greater wisdom.
 
I use to have O.C.D. pretty bad years ago but it has gotten better. I never went to get help for it, I just worked on it myself. Sometimes I find myself folding a napkin & looking at the crease & wondering if its precise , then unfolding & folding it again, haha!

Drugs make the OCD go away most times. I remember LSD made my OCD worse after I came down from the trip. OCD is of course all in your head & anyone can beat it themselves if they work at it.
 
I have pretty bad bipolar and stress issues an i smoke cannabis both recreationally and medicinally for years and the occasional focalin here and there with no problems what soever.
 
I've been diagnosed with anxiety and bipolar tendencies, as well as anti-social personality disorder for years now. And recently I had a month long bout of complete psychosis, diagnosed as Psychotic NOS. At the time of the psychosis i was using pot, benzos, and opiates daily. Nowadays i'm using pot daily, alcohol weekly, and benzos/opiates whenever i can get my hands on them (which has been rare due to my current financial / living situation).
 
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