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Having no one to roll with...

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Dr.Gonzo666

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Everyone goes on about how wonderful it is to roll with your best friends, snuggle in bed with your girlfriend and stuff...

Well, is anyone else in a situation where you can't do that because:

- you don't have a girlfriend
- you're a loner/introvert and actually don't have that many friends
- the friends you do have aren't at all into drugs

I was plagued with social anxiety in my teens and didn't make a lot of good friends in high school. Also, my current best friend refuses to take recreational drugs (though for some reason has no problem taking crap like benzos or antidepressants).

Therefore I had to roll by myself until now. I try to refrain from rolling to avoid the loss of magic before I actually had a "true" roll in a social setting.
Now, let me say that my solitary rolls have been positive experiences, very euphoric, music is great. But I feel I'm missing something important...

Is anyone else like me? What would you do in this situation? (go to a rave, club...)
 
I've had this problem before and I'm a girl so I didn't feel that comfortable going to raves and clubs alone for safety reasons. Basically my first experiences were always social ones either at house parties or clubs/raves but then those dropped off as I got older and still wanted to roll a couple times a year. I ended up chosing to do it alone or drop in situations where people wouldn't suspect I was on it for sure like a big house party. For you if you're young enough I'd go to a rave and try to make friends. Shouldn't be too hard if you find other rollers. Everyone is usually more friendly then usual :)
 
Go to a rave - you won't have any social anxiety while on E and you'll be able to easily make friends in the rave community.
 
A lot of people actually prefer "solo rolls", so keep in mind your experiences of being in your own mind, enjoying yourself, and not having to cater to anyone else while you're on MDMA are something many people love to do.

I find it keeps MDMA more exciting if you change the scenery regardless, so I'd say it's a good idea to satisfy your curiosity and go to a small rave by yourself and give it a try. Make arrangements to get home safely (don't try driving), and don't stress out about it. You'll likely have an easier time making friends than you thought. The scenario you typically choose to roll tends to feel like the "perfect" way to enjoy MDMA, until you try it in another scenario, and realize how comforting and fun it can be anywhere if you're surroundings are positive and safe.
 
Go to a party/rave, you'll let loose, and the people there will certainly be rolling/wanting to roll.
 
Bsiren said:
A lot of people actually prefer "solo rolls", so keep in mind your experiences of being in your own mind, enjoying yourself, and not having to cater to anyone else while you're on MDMA are something many people love to do.
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Great observation. MDMA is a funny drug that way. I learned that rolling at home or rolling at a rave/club are completely different - almost like being on totally different drugs. The rave scene with the loud music and all the lights and activity totally ramp up the high to make for a mind blowing time. On the flip side, especially the more you roll - a home setting where you select the people, control the music and create the environment can lead to these incredibly blissful and amazing parties where the high is just as fun but completely and totally different - almost like the rave high is this out of control insanity and the home roll is this blissful chilled fuzzy comfortable space - both perfect in their own way.
 
Definitely go to a rave! =) You'll have a blast and meet LOADS of new people! =)

Where do you live?
 
This was a very timely topic. I'm going to do a solo roll tonight and going to my favorite club here in the city. (in my vocab a "rave" is an underground party)

I saw some good responses/ thoughts in this thread. I'm a professional so I cant tell people at work, and at 40 not a lot of my peer group are down with the e or going out and dancing till 3-4 am.

Rolling with friends is always fun, but I love grimy breakbeats/ tech funk played in the early morning hours. Its my personal pleasure and I'm comfortable being in my own thoughts as I dance my highest self. I have been to therapy and the medicine and movement of dancing helps me to be a better person. So even though I go solo, the things that I learn or the issues that I work through are then put into use in my everyday life and it makes it better.

There is a book called "Moving together in time" where the first 1/2 of the book is about how movement or dance helped humans evolve. Its a great primer into unlocking the potential of dance and the medicine.
 
Done it had fun but regrett it now.

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Me rolling alone hahaha.
So out of my face.
 
By the way, the picture i posted before is a byproduct of searching "rapist" on google images. Even though Ill prob be burned for the way i look, this is the actual picture of me on my first roll a few years ago
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While rolling at home...

With out the distraction of the party scene and the yelling and all the drunk people and everything that comes along with.

I think your able to really embrace the Insane mental clarity that come along with MDMA

also when your alone you don't have to adjust to any social norms

you can do what ever the fuck you want

Rolling alone does have it's benefits
 
lol your rolls arent lacking people, theyre lacking lsd.. candy flipping alone in the dark is the answer to life.
 
Can defo relate. I had a fine social life in highschool but I had like two friends who would ever experiment with substances (other than alk and the occasional hoot of a j) Never rolled with more than two people. I have a couple friends who will (we all live in different citys now) but have never had a "crew" to do e with. My rolls have been missing that, and the fact that I havnt been gettin good pills. Canada sux we get pipes like mad.

setting up a good roll is like setting up a highschool prom. Cause its this big hyped thing that is supposed to be the greatest night of your life, either u get extremelly let down or your prom works and it was a hit a night u will remeber for the reast of your life. I dont fell like I have truelly rolled until i pull off the prom.
 
I would just go to a rave on your own. You will have a blast. I have been with mates who were just drinking and been the only one on pills. i usually go off on my own talking to random people. I go back to their houses quite a few times. It just happens naturally with MDMA.
 
sextacy67 said:
Can defo relate. I had a fine social life in highschool but I had like two friends who would ever experiment with substances (other than alk and the occasional hoot of a j) Never rolled with more than two people. I have a couple friends who will (we all live in different citys now) but have never had a "crew" to do e with. My rolls have been missing that, and the fact that I havnt been gettin good pills. Canada sux we get pipes like mad.

setting up a good roll is like setting up a highschool prom. Cause its this big hyped thing that is supposed to be the greatest night of your life, either u get extremelly let down or your prom works and it was a hit a night u will remeber for the reast of your life. I dont fell like I have truelly rolled until i pull off the prom.
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My prom sucked, and everything leading up to prom sucks

but I get the analogy
 
I solo rolled last saturday and it was the first time I ever did that. I just wanted to make one addition to my perspective on that. If you are going to go solo you should be experienced if you are going somewhere. If you are staying at home or on foot your probably ok.

You have to be self-reliant if going out and going solo. When I went out I was testing out a new batch from a new connect and the effects were way stronger and lasted for a long time. I even questioned if it was e cuz I grinded my teeth harder than ever and couldn't sleep even when I got home which was hours afterward. Anyway I decided to drive home and although I feel like I was in the come down phase and could handle it, Never do that!

So consider your transportation issues when going solo- thats the take away here.
 
I went to Hard Weekend LA last Saturday and was the only one rolling in my group. In the rave scene it isn't very bad, you will meet others who are in similar state of minds. With a love drug such as MDMA I can't see it being done alone.
 
OP if you plan on rolling alone you should check out some of the links in our Directory.


I find that a solo roll can be somewhat boring unless you're talking to someone via some medium be it by text, IM, or over the phone. Other than that, like I said, I find it boring.
 
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