Hello everyone, I just wanted to express myself here because this is my favorite website for these issues, I feel comfortable here with you all.
This thread
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=527048&page=5
has really helped me in my mission to stop Suboxone.
I have been on 1-2mg a day for almost a year, I have been DREADING withdrawal for months, the internet scared the hell outta me in thinking that Sub was difficult to get off, even worse than oxy etc....So I have been delaying the inevitable for months. I tried once last summer but I was at 2mg and I had a full blown anxiety attack 3 times and felt like absolute hell, so I went back on.
(((I don't feel like I need the maintenance anymore, I got hooked on subs last year after a brief stint with Opana (holy hell) and before that I was clean for a year.)))) I support those who use it for maintenance though, and dont condone its use at all. I can see how it saves many.
The Suboxone feeling has been really hurting my body, personally. It messes with my thyroid and energy levels and weight and mood. I have been soooo ready to get off of it, even at 1 mg the side effects have been really bothering me. Every time Ive tried to drop to .5 mg though, I would start to feel withdrawal and get tired etc....I always thought, gee if this is yucky imagine what jumping off would feel like! Terrible! So I delayed it.....and kept on. On party weekends I would go up to 2mg and feel worse overall. The Sub cloud was really starting to wear on me.
Recently I decided it was time. I tapered to .5mg from 1mg. I felt crappy for a couple of days but nothing unbearable! Buzzy creepy crawly anxiety at night, some insomnia and super lethargic, but nothing like detoxing from 40 mg a day of hydro. The tireds came in spurts, whereas hydro they were never ending. A little depresed but not bad. I adjusted to .5mg and felt SOOOOO MUCH BETTER!!!! WOW WHAT A DIFFERENCE. Stayed there at .5 for a week.
The difference between 1mg and .5mg, I cannot stress this enough, is HUGE.
Now I am on .25 mg and I am going to stay here for a couple of weeks. I FEEL AMAZING.
Yeah I have a little tummy upset, I have been waking up at 5am, but that actually feels great because being even on 1mg of Sub I would sleep like a ROCK and it was impossible to wake up before 9am, so I am really enjoying the morning now. Things are starting to feel "normal" like I dont have an opiate blanket over my face!
And I got SOOO tired of the hot/colds while on Sub......My adjustment to .5 I did go thru some chills, and I only took 1 clondine that week and it did the job, but I only needed one so far. Now I am on day 3 of .25. and I only get a little bit tired in the afternoons! I have been drinking the energy shots, LOVING those things......I havent needed a xanax yet, I have had small little tiny panic attacks but thats because I smoke lots of pot in the eves and sometimes that'll provoke em. The pot kills back pain though.
Like "JamesBrown" said in that thread I linked up, I am going to stay at .25 for a couple of weeks to hopefully avoid PAWS and significant withdrawal. I am not gloating, I just see so many negative stories on line about this process and I am shocked to feel so good right now. SHOCKED. I am so excited but I don't wanna rush it!! Long Slow Wean is the way to go......
I also have been jogging 1.5 miles a day and taking tons of suppliments like Kelp Iodine, B complex and L Tyrosine, E and C. Good quality vits. And a little Immodium even tho I dont have the runs at all, it helps fill that weird empty pit feeling in my tummy that I get when I lack opiates.
Another thing: A side effect of Subs for me has been, for months, numbing of the hands when I sleep. This has lifted SIGNIFICANTLY since I went to .5mg!! I just realized I havent had that issue in a week.
Hope this gives a little hope out there. I am still not off completely, but will let you know how that goes in a couple of weeks. For some reason, I am just not scared anymore. I just feel so much better without a lot of that drug in my body. I think I had a sensitivity to it because at larger doses like 2mg, I would itch like crazy.
Good luck and blessings!