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I'm cautious to put pen to paper in this life time knowing the way my mind works as a addict. I mean will I ever really be truly free ? I highly doubt that , it's a matter of finding a method that works to continue on with your life and the important things.
 
theartofwar said:
I'm cautious to put pen to paper in this life time knowing the way my mind works as a addict. I mean will I ever really be truly free ? I highly doubt that , it's a matter of finding a method that works to continue on with your life and the important things.
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i feel you. i'm trying to get a year under my belt before I even begin to think I may be "normal". at 8 months some days are easy but the next day may be very hard.. its a fight worth fighting though <3

i'm also waiting until the year mark before I start dating again..
 
villian said:
i feel you. i'm trying to get a year under my belt before I even begin to think I may be "normal". at 8 months some days are easy but the next day may be very hard.. its a fight worth fighting though <3

i'm also waiting until the year mark before I start dating again..
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Well done on waiting the year to start dating. So many people ignore this advice and it usually ends badly with a lot of hurt all around.
 
Thanks for the contributions everyone!!!! We've moved your posts to the TDS Success Stories sticky

<3 I know there are more folks out there! let's keep 'em coming!!!!! <3
 
Ten years ago this month I had an IV coke overdose in the backseat driving through Lumberton, NC on my way to SC.

I've been in recovery for 5 years now, but everytime I drove through Lumberton, I got the heebie-jeebies.

Driving home this past Thursday, no more heebie-jeebies! For the time being (and one day at a time hereafter) my obsession with cocaine has been lifted.

Oh, and BTW, one year clean tomorrow.

FC
 
Lolie said:
Well done on waiting the year to start dating. So many people ignore this advice and it usually ends badly with a lot of hurt all around.
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I was in a relationship the entire way throughout my heroin addiction, and year plus of recovery. However I think I understand what you mean completely, it is probably good advice for people who were single as an addict. Or, also for others who had family/friends/lovers who left them due to the circumstances.

A year will pass by before you know it. That's the unfortunate thing about time, it's all about how you perceive it. A day can seemingly take a month, but the other 355 days can seemingly fly by when you compare the two.
 
i relapsed on heroin after a year clean. Got up close to a gram a day on my relapse surprised to see the light of day. I had my last friend in town take me back to NA. I kept relapsing after like a week but I finally relapsed one too many times and just cried the next day instead of looking for more. my mind is clearing. Sobriety rocked hopefully it will again.
 
^congrats on 2 years thats awesome.

i completely agree with that last part. i got that exact feeling after i finished writing my 3rd step. i had been trying to control some shit and it just wasnt working out in my favor and it was tearing me up. it got taken out of my hands and basically i had to let it go. at that point i finished writing my 3rd step and i felt this awesome peace. its hard to describe but i was just cool with everything.

the saying that got me was "you can feel the pain of being dragged for awhile or you can just let go."
 
^^AgentSquish how are you feeling two years out? Do you have any lingering physical symptoms?
 
calmAnimal said:
^congrats on 2 years thats awesome.

i completely agree with that last part. i got that exact feeling after i finished writing my 3rd step. i had been trying to control some shit and it just wasnt working out in my favor and it was tearing me up. it got taken out of my hands and basically i had to let it go. at that point i finished writing my 3rd step and i felt this awesome peace. its hard to describe but i was just cool with everything.

the saying that got me was "you can feel the pain of being dragged for awhile or you can just let go."
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Hey... just curious... in your story you said you were going away in January... did something change?
 
yeah i gues i should of told OD to post an update.

my court date has been delayed. twice now. the first time was when i was writing my third step. and then it just happened again. my new court date is may 11th.
 
calmAnimal said:
yeah i gues i should of told OD to post an update.

my court date has been delayed. twice now. the first time was when i was writing my third step. and then it just happened again. my new court date is may 11th.
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fixed.

Dude that's actually kinda nice (depending on how you look at it). You get to enjoy the nice weather. I still think your HP is preparing you for something, somehow.

I have a lot of respect for your perspective %)
 
I wouldn't necessarily call my self a success story but I'm doing better. This time last year I was sticking a needle in my arm 3-4 times a day, I'm not physically dependent on opiates and I have only smoked one bowl of marijuana in 4 days. I'm used to smoking everyday.

I agree with this
theartofwar said:
I'm cautious to put pen to paper in this life time knowing the way my mind works as a addict. I mean will I ever really be truly free ? I highly doubt that , it's a matter of finding a method that works to continue on with your life and the important things.
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Hmmm.

Well I haven't done heroin since August, seem to be on track to graduate college in may. Just got an email from the head of my department letting me know about a job offer. It's an entry level position, starting at 45,000 a year, and I'm pretty glad he thought of me to let me know about it. Hopefully this is the first of many.
 
Regenesis2 said:
^^AgentSquish how are you feeling two years out? Do you have any lingering physical symptoms?
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Sorry I took so long to get back to you. I don't visit this site as often as I used to. :)

There are no real physical symptoms to speak of. I do tend to experience anxiety over certain issues at times (work, relationships, family life etc etc), but that really has little to do with my use of alcohol/drugs. Plus, being sober now, anxiety is so much easier to deal with, because you know that it will pass. Its something that I definitely have been able to come to terms with, and accept it for what it is.

That being said, I do want to say, that for the first 8-9 months of my recovery, I would romance the drugs that I used quite often. There would be a number of triggers that would come up where I would have flashbacks. At times, I would even have the feeling that I wanted to use. However, this feeling was very fleeting, and wouldn't last very long. So basically, I thought about using for a while after I got clean. It was all mental. But, after a while, I remember driving in my car one day and I thought to myself. "Holy shit, I haven't thought about using at all today", and ever since then, it hasn't been on my mind at all. <3
 
~3.5 months ago quit Methylone
~3 months ago quit Adderall
~2 months ago quit Klonopin
~2 months ago quit Paxil
~2 months ago quit Wellbutrin

I now smoke and drink too much. It is keeping me in some depression: but I have a home now, and I'm likely to answer my phone.
 
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