Anyone who gets a chance to do DMT and turns it down is the devil. I would kill people to find some.
You would have better luck getting out of the house and befriending people instead of killing them
Bu anyways, go for it.... If you have gone as far a a k-hole, don't be worried about how crazy its going to be. DMT is like being wrapped in a warm blanket made of comfort and happiness, or at least that is how it has always treated me.
The space it takes you will be like nothing you have ever experienced and completely foreign, and while you may not be able to put your finger on exactly why this is, most people find that it is a strangely familiar place and utterly comfortable.
And while your visual field and perception of time are completely warped, a clear lucid and very controllable thought process is maintained. It is a place of peace and meditative states, and there is so very much to learn.
If you haven't heard of the elves yet, people get these trips where they find themselves in this space, and realize that it is inhabited by something other than you. When i first saw them, they seemed more curious than anything else, very touchy but in this space, you are the stranger in a strange land. This is their place, and you are the alien.
That being said, for most people they seem to want to share wisdom with those that come into contact with them. Some of the things you will learn if you are accepting of it are life changing. Go into the experience seeking guidance for something, they seem to take well to the idea of the individual trying to learn from the experience. I was skeptical until it happened to me, most of the time its just a lot of pretty colors and happy, but elf trips generally follow that sort of thing and then there is this bright white light and im in this new kind of space that is often far less visually chaotic.
But i have given people with like 2 mushroom experiences under their belt a breakthrough amount, they loved it....