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Bomboclat
Bluelight Crew
Nice re-work on it dude, definitely a progression! (bah-dum-tiss)
Sega420
Bluelighter
thizz, when you say the hills, do you mean like overlooking LA? that would be a BOSS place for a nap 
Bomboclat
Bluelight Crew
Yessir! I was thinking about going to a spot I found on top of the hills overlooking West Hollywood and there's this little grassy plateau where I could see all from downtown to the beach and still feel as far away from civilization as possible. Its such a beautiful place to relax
Sega420
Bluelighter
must be great to have getaway spots in such a hussle n bussle city like los scandalous.
i just watched my first ever bruce lee movie. Fists Of Fury.
IM HOOKED!
im considering popping an x pill, popped one the other nyt and the one before than. 70-80mg,
no speedy bullshit, just warm lovely get-nekked-and-rub-yerself goodness.
spent a good half hour the other nyt doing just that-
laying on my bed writhing around rubbing myself all over, breathing heavy.
not in a sexual way, just felt really really amazing. ended up getting naked and the awesomeness factor went up by 10.
i dont know what it is about mdma that makes me want to get naked.
i dont get that on ANY other drug.
im off for a poop, wish me luck fellas.
oh and thizzfoshizz, im guessin you like furl?
best rapper ever to live in my opinion.
"we dont like broke bitches, we dont like brown weed,
we dont like no snitches, take the police on high speed"
anyone got any other awesome kung fu movies for me to watch?
i just watched my first ever bruce lee movie. Fists Of Fury.
IM HOOKED!
im considering popping an x pill, popped one the other nyt and the one before than. 70-80mg,
no speedy bullshit, just warm lovely get-nekked-and-rub-yerself goodness.
spent a good half hour the other nyt doing just that-
laying on my bed writhing around rubbing myself all over, breathing heavy.
not in a sexual way, just felt really really amazing. ended up getting naked and the awesomeness factor went up by 10.
i dont know what it is about mdma that makes me want to get naked.
i dont get that on ANY other drug.
im off for a poop, wish me luck fellas.
oh and thizzfoshizz, im guessin you like furl?
best rapper ever to live in my opinion.
"we dont like broke bitches, we dont like brown weed,
we dont like no snitches, take the police on high speed"
anyone got any other awesome kung fu movies for me to watch?
Thorns Have Roses
Bluelight Crew
Drunken Master is a good one, made back in Jackie Chan's younger years. I'd highly recommend it.
Also, that plan for tomorrow sounds pretty excellent thizz, I may try to emulate you and go on my inaugural hike tomorrow. I have no tobacco prodcuts until those cigars I ordered arrive though...I may just have to spend some money I shouldn't be spending and get one to sit down and smoke during the middle of it.
Upon inspection, that cactus hanging over the wall into my backyard looks awfully San Pedro-y...must investigate further.
Also, that plan for tomorrow sounds pretty excellent thizz, I may try to emulate you and go on my inaugural hike tomorrow. I have no tobacco prodcuts until those cigars I ordered arrive though...I may just have to spend some money I shouldn't be spending and get one to sit down and smoke during the middle of it.
Upon inspection, that cactus hanging over the wall into my backyard looks awfully San Pedro-y...must investigate further.
nearjat
Bluelighter
Alright you guys might not think much of this..
So my gf lives like an hour south of me, I don't have my liscense still so I can only see her like once every two weeks. I'm on the way to get her for her to spend the night with me and she says she's having a couple drinks with her friends. I said I didn't mind but to just take it easy because we were gonna be seeing my parents later. I was nervous,she's one of those people who don't drink ALL the time but when they do they have trouble stopping. So when I get there she's completely smashed, like totally annihilated.
I tried to make the best of it, said fuck it and just had some drinks with her so it wasn't so awkward.
After she satisfied her drunk sexual desires she asks me how I'd feel about her kissing another girl (she's bisexual, not the attention kind lol) and I said no different than her kissing another dude. Well she was asking because she already fucking did , but really didn't seem to feel too bad about it even though I was clearly hurt. "It was just for fun", ok? As opposed to what other motive? The other chick was naked, and they were making out not "smoochin'"...
I'm pissed and hurt. Fuck this dude. I hate who she becomes when she drinks..
Thorns Have Roses
Bluelight Crew
Hmm, you'll just have to talk it over with her when sober I guess. Hope it goes well. Sending positive vibes your way 
Sega420
Bluelighter
well, bro, i dont know if you remember my situation a while back-
but i was with a girl for about 4-5 months, fell completely in love (still am in love with her),
went through so much bullshit and emotional and psychological bullshit just trying to show her i loved her
and to take away her hurt and problems and replace it with happiness.
what im about to type is extremely difficult for me to relive, so appreciate the advice im giving from it-
only to find out that near the end she had cheated on me and slept with her "ex" a number of times.
now, when i got with her she was technically sill in a relationship.
one i thought was basically disintergrated and dead. she had been hanging out with him a bit throughout our relationship,
which i really didnt like, but i gave her the benefit of the doubt as i loved her and wanted to trust her,-
she and him were in the same scene, very close knit groups, rave scene. she worked alongside him setting up outdoor raves etc,
so i understood that they would need to be around each other at some points.
in all honesty its my own fault, i should have told her "give me a call when you have all this shit sorted out and know what you want",
when she first told me she was going to hang out with him alone.
but i was madly in love and foolishly wanted to believe everything was going to be ok if i just behaved and was nice and showed her i loved her.
i was NOTHING but nice to her, i treated her like a princess. i have never loved anyone so much in my entire life, not even my own family.
she was mean to me a fair bit sometimes and still is sometimes, but i know that she truly doesnt mean it.
she often ends up feeling shit after we hang out and she does or says something to upset me.
i think its because she knows that i love her and that i wont ever be nasty back to her.
i would never want to cause her any hurt or pain, and i would seriously end someones life if they were to harm her in any way.
but after numerous emotional and mental breakdowns, tons of psychological stress and some psychotic moments on lsd
(deliberately self inflicted to release pent up energy and pain. yes im strange, i embrace the darkness and face my shit head on. it has helped me immensely.),
one thing i have come to learn and realize-
and this is a big one amigo-
at the end of the day- it really doesnt give a fuck.
now dont take that wrong, i dont mean you shouldnt care about people or treat them right,
what im saying is, no matter how much you overanalyze (i KNOW you do, we ALL do. we are men, men are logic creatures, women are emotional),
no matter how much you stress upon the whys and whats of why she did it or whatever, at the end of the day, all this worrying wont make a difference.
seriously brah, dont stress. as hard as it sounds, put it out of your mind for now. focus on other shit.
hang out with friends, go for a walk, do something. when you have calmed down reasonably,
and you're ready to talk about this with her, contact her.
untill then, it is imperative YOU DO NOT CONTACT THAT GIRL.
that means no IM or msn or facebook or texts or calls.
you need to go cold and let her contact YOU.
if she texts you, just answer a few hours later with like "hey, im out with my buddies, ill speak to you later x" or whatever. if she calls, dont answer.
the next few texts n shit, ignore them. eventually she will be blowing up your phone trying to figure out why you arent calling her.
she will be worrying like crazy, trust me. shell be thinking she really messed up and she should realize that she seriously upset you and should not have been so irresponsible.
no doubt by this time she will be sorry and this is when you arrange to meet up at a cafe or something to talk about it.
(do not go to her place as in my experience this ends in sex which makes the situation worse. do not play into her hand. be the man be in control)
when you are on the phone beforehand, try not to sound upset or anything.
just be calm and cool and like "hey, whats up, howve you been? "
listen to her reaction :D
it helps if you are eating something when you answer, this will make it seem like she called you in the middle of something. keep the convo short and sweet, if she starts to talk about what happened, just say like "lets not get into that kinda stuff now" and arrange to meet up and talk about it".
when you meet, remember to stay calm and cool.
i wouldnt recommend anything more than a good hug when you meet up.
the lack of a big french kiss will let her know you are not happy.
keep the ball in your court boy, keep your cool.
hope this helps you out.
but i was with a girl for about 4-5 months, fell completely in love (still am in love with her),
went through so much bullshit and emotional and psychological bullshit just trying to show her i loved her
and to take away her hurt and problems and replace it with happiness.
what im about to type is extremely difficult for me to relive, so appreciate the advice im giving from it-
only to find out that near the end she had cheated on me and slept with her "ex" a number of times.
now, when i got with her she was technically sill in a relationship.
one i thought was basically disintergrated and dead. she had been hanging out with him a bit throughout our relationship,
which i really didnt like, but i gave her the benefit of the doubt as i loved her and wanted to trust her,-
she and him were in the same scene, very close knit groups, rave scene. she worked alongside him setting up outdoor raves etc,
so i understood that they would need to be around each other at some points.
in all honesty its my own fault, i should have told her "give me a call when you have all this shit sorted out and know what you want",
when she first told me she was going to hang out with him alone.
but i was madly in love and foolishly wanted to believe everything was going to be ok if i just behaved and was nice and showed her i loved her.
i was NOTHING but nice to her, i treated her like a princess. i have never loved anyone so much in my entire life, not even my own family.
she was mean to me a fair bit sometimes and still is sometimes, but i know that she truly doesnt mean it.
she often ends up feeling shit after we hang out and she does or says something to upset me.
i think its because she knows that i love her and that i wont ever be nasty back to her.
i would never want to cause her any hurt or pain, and i would seriously end someones life if they were to harm her in any way.
but after numerous emotional and mental breakdowns, tons of psychological stress and some psychotic moments on lsd
(deliberately self inflicted to release pent up energy and pain. yes im strange, i embrace the darkness and face my shit head on. it has helped me immensely.),
one thing i have come to learn and realize-
and this is a big one amigo-
at the end of the day- it really doesnt give a fuck.
now dont take that wrong, i dont mean you shouldnt care about people or treat them right,
what im saying is, no matter how much you overanalyze (i KNOW you do, we ALL do. we are men, men are logic creatures, women are emotional),
no matter how much you stress upon the whys and whats of why she did it or whatever, at the end of the day, all this worrying wont make a difference.
seriously brah, dont stress. as hard as it sounds, put it out of your mind for now. focus on other shit.
hang out with friends, go for a walk, do something. when you have calmed down reasonably,
and you're ready to talk about this with her, contact her.
untill then, it is imperative YOU DO NOT CONTACT THAT GIRL.
that means no IM or msn or facebook or texts or calls.
you need to go cold and let her contact YOU.
if she texts you, just answer a few hours later with like "hey, im out with my buddies, ill speak to you later x" or whatever. if she calls, dont answer.
the next few texts n shit, ignore them. eventually she will be blowing up your phone trying to figure out why you arent calling her.
she will be worrying like crazy, trust me. shell be thinking she really messed up and she should realize that she seriously upset you and should not have been so irresponsible.
no doubt by this time she will be sorry and this is when you arrange to meet up at a cafe or something to talk about it.
(do not go to her place as in my experience this ends in sex which makes the situation worse. do not play into her hand. be the man be in control)
when you are on the phone beforehand, try not to sound upset or anything.
just be calm and cool and like "hey, whats up, howve you been?
" listen to her reaction :D
it helps if you are eating something when you answer, this will make it seem like she called you in the middle of something. keep the convo short and sweet, if she starts to talk about what happened, just say like "lets not get into that kinda stuff now" and arrange to meet up and talk about it".
when you meet, remember to stay calm and cool.
i wouldnt recommend anything more than a good hug when you meet up.
the lack of a big french kiss will let her know you are not happy.
keep the ball in your court boy, keep your cool.
hope this helps you out.
Bomboclat
Bluelight Crew
I say do it, man!
This weather is too out of this world not to make the best of it!
Ive been loving the weather as of late, it's so spring like! It reminds me of my trip to Arizona last year. It was during the beginnng of April and it was one of the most emotionally freeing times of my life. There was just something in the combination of the weather, the energy, and the beauty of it all that had me in a total state of nirvana for the entire trip.
Maybe its why ive been in such a great mood lately, other than a few bring me downs.
If only things could stay like this year round.
alantis360
Bluelighter
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Nearjat think threesomes...... so many people dream of the special treasure you have.
hoopyfrood
Bluelighter
Fucking alcohol man. At least she doesn't drink often; it could be so much worse. If I ever caught a significant other cheating on me (smooching, sex, it's the same to me), I'd dump her. Easier said than done.
Best of luck dude. Do what you feel is best. Good vibes your way!
Roger&Me
Bluelighter
LOL alcohol gets a bad rap because people can't hold they licka.
Bought a flying dog variety pack around 2 and there's only 1 beer left. An amber lager of course :D Always the last to go down. Also had a couple scotches at the bar.
The perplexing part is that I'm sober as a judge. Sort of. :D
Much love to all! :D 
I hope you're all doing well.
School starts on tuesday, bunch of hard-ass classes-- I'm nervous but excited.
Peace, guise!
Bought a flying dog variety pack around 2 and there's only 1 beer left. An amber lager of course :D Always the last to go down. Also had a couple scotches at the bar.
The perplexing part is that I'm sober as a judge. Sort of. :D
Much love to all!
:D I hope you're all doing well. School starts on tuesday, bunch of hard-ass classes-- I'm nervous but excited.
Peace, guise!
nearjat
Bluelighter
Ha yeah I'm totally down with that, I really don't get jealous when I'm present. It's totally different when I'm not.
And yeah Sega thanks a lot for the advice and I did read all of it, but that's just not how I handle things. I'm going to be direct and straight with her saying I'm completely not cool with this, because honestly I didn't really get the message across enough when she actually told me. Just the fact that I'm telling her that I'm pissed will likely get the message across because I tend to keep my cool through some thick shit typically.
I honestly trust this girl, even still. I don't trust her when she's drunk though, I don't really trust anyone when they're drunk.
This is why I wanted to keep chemicals OUT of this relationship for a change. They tend to only hurt. With people like me and her it's practically like having a third person in the relationship.
Roger: Yeah it's not alcohols fault, some people just don't have much self control when that first drink warms up their belly.
Thorns Have Roses
Bluelight Crew
I say do it, man!
This weather is too out of this world not to make the best of it!
Ive been loving the weather as of late, it's so spring like! It reminds me of my trip to Arizona last year. It was during the beginnng of April and it was one of the most emotionally freeing times of my life. There was just something in the combination of the weather, the energy, and the beauty of it all that had me in a total state of nirvana for the entire trip.
Maybe its why ive been in such a great mood lately, other than a few bring me downs.
If only things could stay like this year round.
I think the weather is contributing to my rather positive mood of late as well. Just when I need it most too, quite lucky for me (I hope things continue on like this and it doesn't get cold again soon).
Definitely gonna do that hike tomorrow, don't know when I'll get started though, I'm renting my car to another member of the household so they can drive to work and back whilst their automobile is under maintenance. I'm pretty sure they're off in the early afternoon though (so I'll have plenty of time to read and then go for a hike).
And nearjat, I completely support the direct and honest approach. In life in general it's best to keep things out in the open, and make sure everyone's on the same page, or so I like to think. Just be mindful of what you can and cannot do, and what she will or will not do.
Delta-9-THC
Bluelighter
I just got into the first really serious relationship of my life (dating about 3 months, I see her practically everyday as she goes to the same school as me) and I'm quickly learning how difficult it can be. I'm in the weird situation now where I really like this girl and have fun hanging out out with her but I'm not in love with her and I can tell she is becoming more and more attached to me everyday.
The truth is that I really care for this girl but there are also a lot of other girls I am interested in and have the opportunity to get involved with. I am so young and am just not coming into my social prime where I can actually talk to girls and thoroughly enjoy the experience and exploring others personalities and world views and the chemistry between my own. I want to give myself the chance to find a potentially more lasting and meaningful relationship. I'm just not sure how to proceed from here as I know what I want but I don't want to hurt anyone.
It's especially difficult since she's going through a tough time and I've become a big source of emotional comfort for her. Breaking up with her is gonna tear me up inside but cheating on her is even worse and I'm having a difficult time resisting flirting with other girls.
I also worry that I'm going to break up with her and mess around with other girls and then realize I made a mistake and that she really is the girl for me. The truth is I just don't really know what I want in a woman yet so it's all very confusing. The only way I'm gonna find out is to get more experience forming relationships and emotional bonds with different types of people.
As far as your situation goes I think you have the right idea. Just be honest and tell her how you feel. If you can't do that then that is a sign that you have a lot of growing to do relationship wise.
Sorry for the rambling post i just needed to vent a little.
The truth is that I really care for this girl but there are also a lot of other girls I am interested in and have the opportunity to get involved with. I am so young and am just not coming into my social prime where I can actually talk to girls and thoroughly enjoy the experience and exploring others personalities and world views and the chemistry between my own. I want to give myself the chance to find a potentially more lasting and meaningful relationship. I'm just not sure how to proceed from here as I know what I want but I don't want to hurt anyone.
It's especially difficult since she's going through a tough time and I've become a big source of emotional comfort for her. Breaking up with her is gonna tear me up inside but cheating on her is even worse and I'm having a difficult time resisting flirting with other girls.
I also worry that I'm going to break up with her and mess around with other girls and then realize I made a mistake and that she really is the girl for me. The truth is I just don't really know what I want in a woman yet so it's all very confusing. The only way I'm gonna find out is to get more experience forming relationships and emotional bonds with different types of people.
As far as your situation goes I think you have the right idea. Just be honest and tell her how you feel. If you can't do that then that is a sign that you have a lot of growing to do relationship wise.
Sorry for the rambling post i just needed to vent a little.
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hoopyfrood
Bluelighter
^ having been on the unrequited love side once or twice myself... just make sure she's not confused about the relationship you guys have. I think that's potentially the most stressful part
on a side note... lets see how 3 norcos and a bowl o' dank feels :D
on a side note... lets see how 3 norcos and a bowl o' dank feels :D
alantis360
Bluelighter
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I can see how it upsets you she did when you are not around. I had a friend though who had a bisexual girlfriend and she was really cool. At parties she would let him pick out a girl and she would go flirt with them and make him sound really good to come back home with them and have threesomes.
We were always like damn dude you are so lucky.
nearjat
Bluelighter
I feel like most dudes are like "so what she kissed a girl?" but although it's arousing to watch, I don't see it any different than if she kissed some dude on a logical level. Admittedly it'd hurt much more if it were a dude for whatever reason.
I like this girl to much, love her too, but liking too much because on one level I'm upset with her but when we talk I can't help but get a little more cheery and feel like bringing up negativity is pointless haha just gotta grit my teeth and do it
I like this girl to much, love her too, but liking too much because on one level I'm upset with her but when we talk I can't help but get a little more cheery and feel like bringing up negativity is pointless
haha just gotta grit my teeth and do it- Status