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To roll or not to roll, that is the question

peacefuldreamer09

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This would be 1 month after starting a new job, on the first night of my weekend. I find it odd I've barely thought of rolling in a few months and yesterday my boyfriend says he wants to roll. I honestly could use the empathy from him and would bend over backwards to set it up.

Only issues- new job. (Already drug tested for) Have been dealing with depression like always in the winter.

I know what will happen if I do it often, I know how much 5htp helps me after...is it going to be unwise when we've been having a difficult time? I'm thinking when serotonin drop hits and I'm bummed for a while.
 
obviously rolling is amazing, but if theres even a doubt in your mind that you might have trouble after taking it ... way it out ... whats your priorities right now? your new job? or rolling for a night?
 
It sounds like you know what your doing..
If it were me in your situation i would definitely roll.. the situation with your boyfriend will most likely come out smoother and you will enjoy each others company either way...
If you have had depression in the past due to e exclusively then you might want to consider changing the approach that you feel about the drug after rolling instead of waiting for the come up and peak just dont think about it and focus more on anything else and on the days after try to exercise or run.. not to get carried away but sex is a good way to get rid of that
 
Thanks you guys. No, the depression wasn't from E, and is almost non existent when it's not cold and unpleasant out. I appreciate anyone that took the time to read :) . I've been thinking about it some more...I'll see how demanding my job is, I do suppose that not being able to be quite as happy as I'd normally get not on substances is worth being able to have that time with my boyfriend. I envy how easily he recovers, lol.
 
Thanks you guys. No, the depression wasn't from E, and is almost non existent when it's not cold and unpleasant out. I appreciate anyone that took the time to read :) . I've been thinking about it some more...I'll see how demanding my job is, I do suppose that not being able to be quite as happy as I'd normally get not on substances is worth being able to have that time with my boyfriend. I envy how easily he recovers, lol.

maybe give lsd a try?
 
Could you not maybe roll a day earlier - If your off work for the weekend, roll the Friday night into the Saturday. Then you have almost two days to recover before going back to work - if you take your 5htp on the Saturday when you comedown/wake up and again on the Sunday you should feel back to normal on the Monday. Obviously keep you dose low though :)

Good luck
 
Only you know how long it takes you to usually recover and how your mental health is after rolling. Like Bearlove said Friday night would give you even more time to recover, if you have decided that you will do it. I like to have a bare minimum of one day to do absolutely nothing productive.
 
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