Yup
My experiences? Shrooms about 9 times, LSD once, Salvia once, DXM low dose once, LSA once, Weed constantly for about a year and a half. Also, last May, I accidentally was sold weed heavily laced with PCP. I tripped balls, felt the effects and dissociation for months (its been 9 months, and the world still looks a bit PCP ish, hard to describe) But apart from the PCP, never a bad trip.
It's weird too, i think HPPD has some sort of potentiation time, because the PCP intoxication was so bad and stressful that I had stress hives growing all over my body, it was horrible, but it wasnt until the 5th month that it just randomly came, figure that one out.
I got HPPD, 5 months after my last shroom trip, while still heavily feeling the effects of the PCP. It just happened randomly one night. I couldnt sleep. I got a panic attack, next thing i know, everythings goin dark from the periphery in, I turn on the lights and im basically tripping, seeing static everywhere. So, after 5 months of nothing, MOST of the symptoms came at me at once.
I finally pass out, and when i wake up its still there. Trip to the ER, get treated like a junkie, she gives me a benzo to appease me and get me out i suppose, and thats as far as ive gone trying to get professional help.
Ever since that day, i see phosphenes, trails (mostly from waving my arms though) static, halos and streaks around and through every light, my ears pop, i get headpressure, I feel a bit foggy, but thankfully no DP/DR. Oh, and I was also pretty anxious...evn though ive never had anxiety in my life.
Lately ive been gettin body aches, but i think thats just from my posture.
Anyway, while it bothers me, i guess the fact that id been in PCP hell for so long, kinda made this easier to deal with.
it's worth noting that I started smoking weed again, and at first it was sketchy, id feel like a PCP flashback was comin, and would have to work hard to control it. Weed would also worsen my hppd considerably, my computer would bend and morph, I would see flashes of color, and hieroglyphic-like shapes on walls and on my skin when it was dark (those were actually cool, it always amazed me that my brain could conjure up images so perfect and symmetrical like that.)
Anyway, ive pretty much been high since december, smoking constantly day in and day out, and my visuals have actually died down. My ears dont pop as often. I dont get jolts of electricity in my head. My eyes arent dry all the time. My anxiety is practically gone. The afterimages have died down considerably. Snow isnt as prominent. Shit doesnt really bend and morph anymore.
The nagging fear that it could one day randomly get worse is always there, but im hopeful, Im happy, im doin pretty well in school, and I actually got laid for the first time in 10 months about a week ago! She was a stunner too!
I do have HPPD, dont fuckin tell me I dont, but my symptoms arent bad, especially compared to what some people have to go through, so I pretty much consider myself the luckiest man alive. I smoked the PCP laced weecd with a friend who is psychotic to this day, and had to drop out of school.
I count my blessings on a regular basis. If you think you have HPPD, quit doin drugs man, it isnt worth it. Some people think that a free trip is cool, but it isnt just that.
Its DPDR, its depression, crippling anxiety, light sensitivity, body aches and pains, cognitive issues, etc. Noones HPPD is the same. And while I can smoke and get back to baseline after a day or two, there are people out there who cant go to bed after 10pm or drink a single beer because their symptoms will get PERMANENTLY worse.
If youre on this thread bein cynical, then just hope that you never get it. And if you do have it, I know it's hard, but it's all about attitude! Fuck the haters, surround yourself with people who love you, and try to keep positive, Ive known people whove had HPPD completely disappear after a year or so of being abstinent from drugs n shiet.
Peace
