I might lose my arm. TONIGHT. Help is desperately needed. I beg you for any help...

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First things first. this camera is fail. If you want to see any specific angle, please just request it and i'll take it immediately. Fuck there goes those cross eye words again... (ull know what that means a little later down...

Well... This just happened to me in the bathroom, hence why im butt naked...Please help, i do not know where else to turn............

My name is C for all intents and purposes... And tonight i did a speed ball, <snip>.
My legs almost collapsed onto me, and i started to hallucinate, and slide in and out of conciousness... I grabbed onto the nearest pole i could and held on for dear life cause i knew that if i sat down i would definately fall asleep... After what felt like an eternity but i assume was no more than 5 minutes, i could stand up. But i could not walk or see... And then my body temp skyrocketed <snip>... Then i noticed that my right bicep ( the one i injected into ) Was beginning to become harder then my left one... Nothing significant because i was at the gym today so i just assumed that it was residual muscle pump from lifting. Then i noticed a red rash starting to spread throughout my body. face, ass, peen, the whole 9 yards... I'll add pictures now... Alll that i have done is research cocaine od's cause i know i didnt od on one bag of huron... thats my DOC (drug of choice). <snip> I'm posting pictures now... Please dont flame. I'm not a complete retard when it comes to this. But i made a horrible mistake and i sincerely hope that i dont have to pay with my life.... Or limb...
Back to the main point...
My vision comes and goes... My heart rate increases and decreases quite often and i can feel it cause i get all twitchy. The rash has subsided slightly. and i'm outside in a tshirt i soaked in water, because its only like in the mid 30;s and surprisingly enough i'm still warm. My arm has hardened slightly, and that is causing an odd sort of pressure on my right arm. Theright bicep doesnt seem much bigger but i used a piece of string and measured, its approximately 1 inch bigger in over 90% of all areas. Yes i am a righty, but that has nothing to do with this, i've always had fairly equal body parts. I'm scared, and asking my parents for help is totally out of the question, unless it is my dead last resort, i'll walk the 25 miles before i ask for help. cuz they'll kick me out of school, take my car, and possibly throw me on the street...
And finally i appologize for the horiffic grammer, i'm in a hell of a rush because i need to talk to someone about this, my girlfriend is working and refuses to "waste a damn ciggarette break to talk to me in possibly the last time i hold my right hand with her right hand.
So please ANY AND ALL FEEDBACK IS EXTREMELY APPRECIATED! I'm alone, scared, and confused. PLease, i beseech you to help, or comment, or anything. (I did not post this to be horassed, i'll simply delete your post =P) IF i can do that lol... <snip>

The heat pack is seeming to work, but its making me feel my arm more, and it doesnt feel right, i feel like theres something in there that doesnt belong. Maybe its just gout... IDK but i gotta control my damn "white girl" hands and stop typing or else ill never be able to get any help at all!!!! i hope you can decipher the pictures, mabook pro cameras are pitiful.

My vision is slowly getting worse, i use one eye at a time or else ethe words slowly split across the page, kinda like if you were to cross your eyes.

So final paragrapy lol.

I have seen how well read you all are on this topic, that is why i trust you all (okay well not all, but a good majority.) and i trust you all because you are all in here for the best interest of otheres, and harm reduction dun dun dun!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

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Is there someone other than your parents you can call to come and be with you? Someone who won't hesitate to call an ambulance if it all goes south?
 
Bump, more picutres i found...
 

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I might be able ot get myself a car, but i do not have a health insurane card, seeing as some jerkhole stole my wallet last week =/ Will they treat me anyways? if i like leave personal information with them??
 
I might be able ot get myself a car, but i do not have a health insurane card, seeing as some jerkhole stole my wallet last week =/ Will they treat me anyways? if i like leave personal information with them??

Not sure where you're located, but my understanding is that in the US a hospital must stabilise you in an emergency regardless of your insurance status.

And you definitely don't sound fit to drive.
 
^^^^ seconded. It's better to go to the hospital now and get checked out then end up losing your arm or your life.
 
Agreed... I am going to wait it out for 5 more minutes, if i see no positive progress i am going to the hospital. I MIGHT have had a horrible panic attack, because that rush was indescribable, and that ringing noise almost drove me nutso... And idk why i started to hallucinate, everything i saw was super scary, like faces in the ceiling etc.... My vision has returned fully, and i have not had any of that "cross eyed" sensation. My arm is softer, i dont know if that is from the heat pack or not... But it has not gone down in size much... Probably got smaller by about half of the tip of a pinky dipped in ink and pressed onto a page. but MAYBE my right arm was always considerably bigger and i never noticed until i had a freak out... <snip> i like downers. because i have pretty bad anxiety.... <snip> I'm not aware if we are allowed to post links to t3h yoo tubez, so i'll wait until i hear from someone who does know to gimme the AOK to post it.
 
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hospital, now, don't be surprised if you have a fasciotomy to relieve compartment syndrome. NOW GO!
 
New jersey. Cherry hill to be more specific. And they only want me to quit drugs... I used to be so bad. then i cleaned up. and now this. it makes me want to blow my goddamn brains out
but honestly. You guys are amazing. This support means more than anyone could understand. I feel so fucking cast aside in every day life, and you guys don't even scald me for being a jackass, you simply answer with compassion and genuine concern. I will be leaving for the hospital in less then 3 minutes, i need to think of a good excuse to leave the house. i'm a grown ass mayne!!!!!! and fuck... I'm shaking again, my heart rate is incerasing a little bit, and i'm not quite getting the cross eyed look, but i'm definately not seeing as well as i should for haveing 20,20
Mad props to all who care enough about me, not even knowing me to post.
Is it possible that in my epic panic that i began to believe so very much that i had an issue with my arm that i began to manifest
130 beats in 60 seconds. I assume that is a little lower than it should be because i think i missed a few here and there. So lets say 140 in 60 seconds. Is that bad.... If it is, is there anything i can take to help me to get to the hospital? i'm in no condition to drive, and literally i have 0 friends. As soon as my whore of an X told everyone all my most intimate secrets including my love affair with C17H17NO(C2H3O2)2... Please keep the replies coming. I'm searching for the keys to the truck. And i think its a possibility that i'm manifesting this on my own, because i recently read a post about a bluelighter that lost his hand. I don't even know what i would do if i loose my arm. ALl the props in the world to that man. He is resilliant in ways that i will never even be able to begin to comprehend. Dear lord, please spare my arm.
 
but real quick, i need an excuse to get out of the house...
anyone got one?!
i'm treated like a child and i'm 20 years old. maybe its cuz i do dumb ass shit like this... My arm seems to be getting better but i'm no doctor myself, and like all o fyou have said i don't want to take any risks. BB hopefully soon. I hope i make this drive =/ I need to think before i act. and im flushing this shit downt he toilet. im done. I've said it before, but i NEED to quit. I don't abuse those drugs the drugs abuse me.
 
Fuck it im done acting like a pussy. time to man up. im just gunna tell them i fucked up and if i dont get somewhere soon bad things will happen. if i get kicked out i get kicked out. i need to be responsible for me and take responsibility for my actions....
 
hospital, now, don't be surprised if you have a fasciotomy to relieve compartment syndrome. NOW GO!

A friend of mine's son has been in hospital for almost three months after suffering compartment syndrome and he may still lose his limb. It's no joke and it definitely needs to be excluded.
 
Fuck it im done acting like a pussy. time to man up. im just gunna tell them i fucked up and if i dont get somewhere soon bad things will happen. if i get kicked out i get kicked out. i need to be responsible for me and take responsibility for my actions....

Wise choice.
 
but real quick, i need an excuse to get out of the house...
anyone got one?!
i'm treated like a child and i'm 20 years old. maybe its cuz i do dumb ass shit like this... My arm seems to be getting better but i'm no doctor myself, and like all o fyou have said i don't want to take any risks. BB hopefully soon. I hope i make this drive =/ I need to think before i act. and im flushing this shit downt he toilet. im done. I've said it before, but i NEED to quit. I don't abuse those drugs the drugs abuse me.
Fuck it im done acting like a pussy. time to man up. im just gunna tell them i fucked up and if i dont get somewhere soon bad things will happen. if i get kicked out i get kicked out. i need to be responsible for me and take responsibility for my actions....
Perhaps more good will come from all of this than you can even imagine? For starters though take care of yourself :D
Good Luck!
 
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Thoughts will be with you tonight. May the universe conspire to help you in every way possible, C.
 
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