Mr. Squiggle!
Bluelighter
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- Aug 31, 2010
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Okay dudes, I've been on the junk for about 6-8 months (ever since June, maybe a bit beforehand) everyday dosing of 4 mg Clonazepam, Xanax 4 mg, Valium by the bottle-loads (50 x 5 mg)...and so forth. So recently I went through about 200 x 2 mg Clonazepam tablets in less than 2 weeks + 50 x 2 mg Xanax tablets...Okay, so let's rewind it back to New year's Day, when I had taken 25 x 2 mg Clonazepam tablets + 3 x 2 mg Xanax tablets + 50 x Lorazepam 2.5 mg tablets + 6 beers + 20 Dolased tablets, all throughout the day...I took my last dose at about 11 p.m. that night. Now, it's Sunday night, at around the same time, and all I want to do is get fucked up cuz I'm so fucking bored, due to the lack of withdrawal symptoms! I know that this might sound crazy to you all, but it's really starting to fucking give me the shits! I want to experience Hypnagogia again, I want to have vivid imagery while I'm laying in my bed, of neon lights that look like eels that control you or sometimes let them be controlled by you...So what's the story? Have I developed a case of benzodiazepine withdrawal immunity? Because the last times that I've kicked benzos before, the withdrawal symptoms were almost immediate. I member 2 years after 2-3 mg day of clonazepam habit, that this terrible wave of anxiety, likened to a tornado was manifesting itself within myself and this was during the 07' elections back when I was 17, and I was scared shitless at the image of kevin rudd's face, lit with neon lights screaming at me and his little green ants were introducing a maze of light green neon lighted nests to come attack me in bed, lol, but none of that shit is happening now...So what's the fucking deal? Alright, I want to kick, but there's no symptoms to kick from? And don't refer me to that bullshit page on Wikipedia...That's just a bunch of weak shit written by weak nerds who sit all day long and complain (Nicolas Cage in Matchstick Men rings a bell), cuz I mean come the fuck on:
The following symptoms may emerge during gradual dosage reduction but can usually be reduced in intensity or eliminated altogether by reducing the rate of reduction:
* Anxiety, possible terror and panic attacks[17][36]
* Agitation and restlessness[17]
* Hypochondriasis[17]
* Dilated pupils[4]
* Impaired concentration[36]
* Nightmares[37]
* Insomnia[37]
* Muscular spasms, cramps or fasciculations[38]
* Electric shock sensations[3][39]
* Blurred vision[17]
* Dizziness[17]
* Dry mouth[17]
* Aches and pains[17]
* Hearing impairment[17]
* Taste and smell disturbances[17]
* Chest pain[17]
* Flu like symptoms[17]
* Impaired memory and concentration[17]
* Increased sensitivity to touch[40]
* Increased sensitivity to sound[17]
* Sounds louder than usual[40]
* Objects moving[40]
* Increased urinary frequency[17]
* Numbness and tingling[17]
* Hot and cold flushes[17]
* Headache[36]
* Rebound REM sleep[41]
* Stiffness[17]
* Fatigue and weakness[17]
* Hyperosmia[42]
* Restless legs syndrome[11]
* Metallic taste[42]
* Photophobia[42]
* Paranoia[42]
* Hypnagogia-hallucinations[6]
* Nausea and vomiting[37]
* Elevation in blood pressure[43]
* Tachycardia[44]
* Hypertension[45]
* Postural hypotension[37]
* Depression (can be severe),[46] possible suicidal ideation
* Tremor[47][48]
* Perspiration[36]
* Loss of appetite and weight loss[49]
* Dysphoria[50][51]
* Depersonalization[52][53]
* Derealisation (Feelings of unreality)[40]
* Obsessive compulsive disorder[54][55]
* Tinnitus[56]
* Paraesthesia[42][53][40]
* Visual disturbances[53]
* Mood swings[17]
* Indecision[17]
* Gastrointestinal problems (Irritable bowel syndrome)[57][58][59]
An abrupt or over-rapid discontinuation of benzodiazepines may result in a more serious and very unpleasant withdrawal syndrome that may additionally result in:
* Convulsions, which may result in death[60][61]
* Catatonia, which may result in death[62][63][64]
* Coma[65] (rare)
* Suicide[5][66][67]
* Attempted suicide[53]
* Suicidal ideation[68]
* Self harm[53]
* Hyperthermia[37]
* Delusions[69]
* Homicide ideations[70]
* Urges to shout, throw, break things or to harm someone[17]
* Violence[71]
* Post Traumatic Stress Disorder[11]
* Organic brain syndrome[72]
* Psychosis[73][74]
* Confusion[35]
* Mania[75][76]
* Neuroleptic malignant syndrome like event[77][78] (rare)
* Delirium tremens[79][80][81]
As withdrawal progresses patients often find that their physical and mental health improves with improved mood and improved cognition.
OMG! This list is bullshit and is intentionally written by the wowsers who think that benzodiazepines should be outlawed...A bunch of hypondriac pussies...Anywho, I really want to experience these:
* Hypnagogia-hallucinations[6]
again, just for kicks.
And don't worry folks, I've got 100 x 5 mg Diazepam tablets stashed away nice and tightly just in case the sickness of this 'kick' comes on a little too roughly. Does anybody here have an MBBS degree? If so, could ya let me in on what the fuck me bodies doing to myself.
Cheers guys and gals.8(
The following symptoms may emerge during gradual dosage reduction but can usually be reduced in intensity or eliminated altogether by reducing the rate of reduction:
* Anxiety, possible terror and panic attacks[17][36]
* Agitation and restlessness[17]
* Hypochondriasis[17]
* Dilated pupils[4]
* Impaired concentration[36]
* Nightmares[37]
* Insomnia[37]
* Muscular spasms, cramps or fasciculations[38]
* Electric shock sensations[3][39]
* Blurred vision[17]
* Dizziness[17]
* Dry mouth[17]
* Aches and pains[17]
* Hearing impairment[17]
* Taste and smell disturbances[17]
* Chest pain[17]
* Flu like symptoms[17]
* Impaired memory and concentration[17]
* Increased sensitivity to touch[40]
* Increased sensitivity to sound[17]
* Sounds louder than usual[40]
* Objects moving[40]
* Increased urinary frequency[17]
* Numbness and tingling[17]
* Hot and cold flushes[17]
* Headache[36]
* Rebound REM sleep[41]
* Stiffness[17]
* Fatigue and weakness[17]
* Hyperosmia[42]
* Restless legs syndrome[11]
* Metallic taste[42]
* Photophobia[42]
* Paranoia[42]
* Hypnagogia-hallucinations[6]
* Nausea and vomiting[37]
* Elevation in blood pressure[43]
* Tachycardia[44]
* Hypertension[45]
* Postural hypotension[37]
* Depression (can be severe),[46] possible suicidal ideation
* Tremor[47][48]
* Perspiration[36]
* Loss of appetite and weight loss[49]
* Dysphoria[50][51]
* Depersonalization[52][53]
* Derealisation (Feelings of unreality)[40]
* Obsessive compulsive disorder[54][55]
* Tinnitus[56]
* Paraesthesia[42][53][40]
* Visual disturbances[53]
* Mood swings[17]
* Indecision[17]
* Gastrointestinal problems (Irritable bowel syndrome)[57][58][59]
An abrupt or over-rapid discontinuation of benzodiazepines may result in a more serious and very unpleasant withdrawal syndrome that may additionally result in:
* Convulsions, which may result in death[60][61]
* Catatonia, which may result in death[62][63][64]
* Coma[65] (rare)
* Suicide[5][66][67]
* Attempted suicide[53]
* Suicidal ideation[68]
* Self harm[53]
* Hyperthermia[37]
* Delusions[69]
* Homicide ideations[70]
* Urges to shout, throw, break things or to harm someone[17]
* Violence[71]
* Post Traumatic Stress Disorder[11]
* Organic brain syndrome[72]
* Psychosis[73][74]
* Confusion[35]
* Mania[75][76]
* Neuroleptic malignant syndrome like event[77][78] (rare)
* Delirium tremens[79][80][81]
As withdrawal progresses patients often find that their physical and mental health improves with improved mood and improved cognition.
OMG! This list is bullshit and is intentionally written by the wowsers who think that benzodiazepines should be outlawed...A bunch of hypondriac pussies...Anywho, I really want to experience these:
* Hypnagogia-hallucinations[6]
again, just for kicks.
And don't worry folks, I've got 100 x 5 mg Diazepam tablets stashed away nice and tightly just in case the sickness of this 'kick' comes on a little too roughly. Does anybody here have an MBBS degree? If so, could ya let me in on what the fuck me bodies doing to myself.
Cheers guys and gals.8(
