Gotta write about this plant...! :D
I had one evening over an hour 15 seeds of this plant, the best quality I could get online (organically grown in Hawaii) and the experience blew away 3 g of Psylocibe Cubensis, heavy dosages of DXM and 1 oz of Amanita Muscaria.
I don't get visual often, usually only on lots of shrooms and it was't the case with HBWR. Everything around me was expanding and breathing, looked beautiful. Lights created tracers that would travel in my visions for a long time... But most important part of the trip is mental. Feels so intense, it is hard to believe that you can even feel like THAT. Words can't describe.
I felt very relaxed.
I felt so stimulated, I did more movements in 15 minutes that I ever could do even on speed, cleaning an entire apartment.
Time at one point almost stopped.
I was laughing uncontrollably and smiling like a cheshire cat (looked super intoxicated I bet) while walking at night around the lake. It was magical.
It sets everything in life apart and made me feel I live in the moment and every single moment is beautiful.
I felt like my g/f is more beautiful and delicate than ever. I could easily read all her emotions, like an open book.
I couldn't feel cold.
Cigarette smoke felt like traveling through my entire body.
Glass bottle Coca Cola tastes like ambrosia. SO delicious, it took me 30 minutes to finish a glass while I felt ecstatic, haha
I wrote the most crazy stuff in life on evolution, computer systems and fractal patterns of Universe.
I felt being under control by a spirit at one point of time. It would make me type without thinking commands and explanations to my being.. I still have that writing and everytime I read it I feel amazed how I could come up with something like that without paying any attention to writing and typing whatever would come to my mind (it created logical statements and sentences though)
I could control emotions and cry and laugh next second.
I couldn't stop smiling.
I REALIZE so many things about my life, people, reality like I never did before.
(For example everyone lives in her own/ his own reality, all the things are perceived with unique emotional coloration according to the individuality, the same comes to the way information is processed and expressed. People can connect as far as their some point in common, the people whose reality is different from the very fluid standards accepted by the society end up on the streets and psych clinics for no reason; it could be real sickness, but usually it's the fact that the individual's reality is so different from the "norms" that the person can't live in such place, etc, etc.)
I had the most important conversation with my g/f, and sadly enough I felt in complete control of her emotions and personality, it was so scary. This plant gave me some of the best oratoric skills.
I felt sick to my stomach but it faded away when I reached plato.
I could go to school next day.
When I listend to music I felt like I was living in a song and the sounds have a direct influence on my state of being. Amazing experience with ambient and noise music....
I felt like through my body millions thoughts on various subjects are running at the same time and I could switch in between. I felt like I will loose this ability when I become sober so I trade sporadically to take notes on different ides to come back to them later.
I was afraid that all the important things I discovered will fade away when the drug leaves the body, but actually day after I retained the most of information, so don't worry about such things when you are high.
I never felt anxiety or paranoia as sever as I felt in the past from shrooms, HBWR would make me more restless and lock me on thoughts more than actually causing a case of full-blown paranoia. But it did cause a manic episode for a short period of time
And oh yeah, at one point of time I felt like I could read symbolism in religious texts and find symbols in word and letter pattern.
My mind was stuck on an idea that life and death are the same and I could just kill myself and it would be perfectly fine. Then in 15 minutes a desire to live like never before in my life took over me
This drug is truly magical. There's no way I could be prepared for the experience I had, even though I read dozens of trip reports and experienced with psychedelics quite well.
It threw in my face everything I was avoiding, it helped me to improve my life and be better for others around me. A true battle within but you come out as a winner either way.
In 3 days I tried to take 20 biggest sized seeds left, I ground it into a powder and drunk with water. I fast fasting for 5 hours beforehand but I still threw up very violently without reaching any psychedelic effects. It was almost like my body and the plants decided that I had enough for a while and need a drink.
I don't know when else I will try it. When I need a spiritual guide or when I want to restart my brain perhaps.
My advises:
It takes a long time to kick in. Don't take more than 15 potent seeds at once (I am 6'3", 200 lbs and it was enough for me, way enough, especially taking into account I have to dose 1.5. times more with drugs that most people do to feel effects). It will kick in, slowly but surely, just be patient!
The plant is not
that toxic, toxins are distributed all over, so no need to scrape the outer shell - it won't help. People used to take freakin' 20 seeds at once or 5 seeds every day for a week and there's no instances of hospitalization yet. Still, don't over do. Take aspirin to help with blood circulation and some acid-stabilizers to reduce the bad feeling in your stomach. Pepto or whatever helps a lot.
You can't be ready for the experience if you do it first time. Mediate and try not get too carried away when things start slip away. Have absolutely no obligations or people you don't want to meet around.
Have a sitter. My sitter wasn't perfect though and made things worse. I was with my sober girlfriend and I couldn't stop talking and behaving completely insane but she took all my words very close to her heart and I hurt her not on purpose, plus she had a tough day to begin with. Take care of your sitter! I tried to explain to her all about the plant and my state of my mind but it was useless, she just couldn't imagine something like that. You sitter should understand that you will be INSANE and what you say can't be taken as the words form a sober person or even extremely drunk person... It's important to listen to each other but not challenge each other, state of emotions swings up and down within the trip. The sitter in other words should be familiar theoretically with the substances and expect shit to happen. Should also know you and be your friend, haha, obviously.
Must be a mentally strong person to help you be under control.
No matter what your mind will tell you-
promise yourself following: don't harm yourself or kill yourself, even if it would seem like it's a good thing to do like never before in the past but trust me, if you wake up alive in the morning you will be thanking all Gods and baby Jesus for not doing anythings stupid..
If you start feeling super good and you think that you should pop some more drugs to enhance the trip - don't do it. People reported bad combinations happening. Stick with one substances on HBWR.
Have a completely empty stomach before taking the seeds. Drink down only a glass of water. Don't start drinking a lot right away. If you feel sick like you need to throw up, the less liquid was in your body when you took seeds, the better LSA will remain in your stomach and won't leave with puking. Too much liquid can also prolong absorption.
Chewing seeds and spitting them out or taking whole powder on the stomach produces nausea just the same. So do whatever you find easier, there's no ultimate way to escape the sickness. Besides crystallization of LSA.
The feeling of sickness, muscle cramps, high heart beat, problems with using restroom, drunk restless feeling and thoughts along the lines: "oh shit, why did I take it, it's gonna suck, I feel like shit already, man!" will visit you as well. It's important to remember that negative effect will FADE and you will feel MUCH better once you come up. In my opinion a couple of hours of discomfort are truly worth it.
Clean your environment. HBWR might make you feel super OC and every single piece of paper on the floor or a crumble on the table will drive you crazy. In Eastern religious thoughts it is related to the flow of Chi energy than needs come through the living environment and not accumulate in corners. Junk and unorganized space traps more negative energy. It made sense to me when I was tripping and when everything was perfect I could relax again.
Smoking weed for me (with a very low tolerance, no smoking until that night for over 2 weeks), some indica, helped to put the trip to an end, relax me and get me drowsy. Usually indica after a long pause acts like a tranquilizer, while a joint of some hybrid could make me feel very restless and energetic - no the best weed to take with HBWR. I wouldn't recommend smoking weed while tripping, unless you don't want to have the intense experience HBWR can give you alone...
P.S. Also I noticed that the rush from HBWR is very subtle and rises slowly, unlike after taking shrooms when I feel like tons of something and energy come through every single chakra of my body, and the body load is super intense so that I must catch a breath and lay down. Probably the best things about the shrooms for me.
Hopefully it was helpful!
Trip safely!
Oh HBWR, what a plant you are!!!
ALSO PEOPLE, I think extracting LSA in a liquid and then plugging it anally would produce great effects and reduce feeling of stomach discomfort. What are your thoughts on it? Does someone wants to try it?
I would make a very fine powder and soak it a little bit of water, mixing it well, than waiting for the residue to think. Then using a coffee filter to filter out the liquid.. And then take the potent staff, use syringe without a needle and maybe some lubricant, haha, and then prepare to trip the ass of! I will try in the future, but would like to hear what you have to say. Like maybe the toxins need to be filtered through kidneys and liver and plugging maybe more comfortable as all chems will go straight into the blood streams.
