Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
I am probably the odd ball here; I have always had a great appreciation for music while on opiates (other substances can replicate this experience as well).
Reg- I'm pretty sure you haven't fried your brain. I have pretty regular panic attacks, and I can tell you that the attack itself can serve as a kind of seed-crystal around which other attacks happen. Once you have a really major panic attack- you're likely to have others. I'll bet you're not permanently damaged. I read your trip report and could actually relate (to a certain degree) what you went through. I find drug-induced panic attacks the worst of all.
different opioid hit slightly different receptors (if there is such a thing) and penetrate the brains medulla at different rates, depending on how, and what kind of opioid(s) the opioid is metabolized into.
The incident linked above lead directly to opiate abuse as a form of self-medicaiton. I'm not sure what impact the opiate use has had on my head but after over five weeks clean of Suboxone and all opiates, I still can't sleep properly and wake up with a headache everyday. The only thing that really helps is exercise which gives me relief from these symptoms.
I suppose it's just PAWS but I really hope it only lasts a few months max as opposed to a few years which seems to happen to some people. I don't have any cravings but if I have to feel like this everyday I don't know how I'll be able to do 'normal' things like hold down a normal job, keep friends and have relationships.
Just gotta hope for the best!
Its pretty cool that people have mentioned an actual "euphoria" listening to music while in wds. I get the same feeling and actually get a similar euphoria when/if I have sex in wds. Its extremely intense/anxiety driven (likey a shakey 'need to fvck' feeling) and it also kills my ability to restrain myself from ejaculating in wds. Like the second a girl breathes on it I feel I'm having an orgasm lol.
But if I'm calm and content (which opiates do X1000) I don't care about anything, music, sex, work, its all out of my mind. Pretty interesting to see that it actually makes some people creative, would have never thought.
Same here. I just can't see how it could make people more creative. It affects everyone differently I suppose.
Haha cuz your sex drive came back!