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Drug caused addictive personality?

Depressicaa

Depressicaa

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Today I have had certain addictive activities. I think it was caused by MDPV.

I've taken more Adderall and Dexedrine than I usually do. I have been nonstop eating Welch's fruit snacks. I have been OCDing over the computer. There seems to be an 'unlocked' addiction that MDPV has opened in me. A channel of addictive habits have been the whole of today's activities. Has anyone had this happen to them from any drug at all?
 
Amphetamines make me semi OCD, such as playing angry birds or some shit for hours on end (like today.) But not in a normal way, in a compulsive way. Its comparable to smoking cigarettes on amphetamines - I smoke one after another like a fiend chasing some sick form of comfort. It's hard to explain. This damned adderall turns me into a head case.
 
Oh shit man, I have no idea how to kill it. I would have never taken it if I thought this would happen. I hope I get addicted to exercise or something next.
 
Ah yes psychedelics (they seem to cure everything for me, at least for a little while). I think there is a heavy cross tolerance between amphetamines and phenethylamine, 2CE is the only psychedelic I have at hand. What would be a good psychedelic to fix it?
 
I have tried it, its very hard to find around here. I felt underwhelmed from what I heard before, and what I actually experienced.

I've shot like 1g of caffeine up my ass in the last few hours. I think that MDPV caused me to get addicted, but since I didn't like MDPV I have not redosed, but I keep redosing on stuff I like.
 
Underwhelmed by DMT?? You must not have had a proper hit. DMT is super intense, and by far my favorite psychedelic. It takes a little practice in order to smoke it well. Buying it is not needed, all you need is a little mimosa hostilis root bark to make it.

Perhaps of you stop taking stimulants for a while you will feel better?

Benzos, opiates or alcohol might help mellow you out.
 
Yes I should. They aren't very helpful at this time but I am not sure how to stop.
I hit it several times, and I'm sure it was DMT, but it might have been impure or very weak stuff.
 
What did you smoke it out of? A bowl with weed? Tin foil and a straw?

Getting a good hit is a lot harder than it would seem. Especially getting enough to really trip hard and "break through."

Have you ever tried salvia? DMT is just as intense, but far more colorful, more magical and less scary.
 
Depressicaa said:
Ah yes psychedelics (they seem to cure everything for me, at least for a little while). I think there is a heavy cross tolerance between amphetamines and phenethylamine, 2CE is the only psychedelic I have at hand. What would be a good psychedelic to fix it?
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Since you have a cross tolerance to amphetamines I wouldn't recommend MDA like I would to most people.

DMT is another good suggestion.

Mushrooms, and LSD are also good choices.

Ketamine is also addictive in itself, but a single dose of ketamine during the onset/peak of a mushroom or LSD experience is also great IMO.

Have you considered other dissociatives, like the PCP analogues?
 
I tried Salvia as well. It is not legal in my state, and when it was it wasn't very good for me. I blacked out, and fell asleep, woke up 20 seconds later with a wtf. Second time I did it I heard my friend's voice echoing "Its like Deja Vu!"

PCP analogs? What kind? I have some DXM powder I can use right now, just don't really like it that much. What tier is a good amount?
 
I am really interested in PCP and it's analogs. Thinking about trying 4-MEO-PCP.

I love K, and back in the day I used to do DXM occasionally, so I'm somewhat experienced with disassociatives. Have you tried any of the PCPs?

Salvia is a nightmare. I've experienced ego death on it twice, and both times it felt like an eternal nightmare. It is interesting and unique, but not enjoyable.
 
Depressicaa said:
PCP analogs? What kind? I have some DXM powder I can use right now, just don't really like it that much. What tier is a good amount?
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If you haven't tried ketamine I would do that first; if you have an addictive nature towards it I would stop there and not do any other NMDA antagonists.

Here's a link about PCP analogues.

Project Will said:
Salvia is a nightmare. I've experienced ego death on it twice, and both times it felt like an eternal nightmare. It is interesting and unique, but not enjoyable.
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I don't disagree with your summation of the salvia experience; but I do enjoy it. I have only gotten to ego death with it once, but I still liked it and managed to integrate it for better or for worse. :)
 
Are they as toxic as PCP?
I have not.
I saw people getting freaked out by it, it was quite funny from my perspective. In retrospective I don't think I ever had ego death.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I don't disagree with your summation of the salvia experience; but I do enjoy it. I have only gotten to ego death with it once, but I still liked it and managed to integrate it for better or for worse. :)
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It was one of those things I look back on and am glad I tried, but not something I would want to repeat often. The perspective it gave me was far different from other psychedelics - it felt very negative. Almost like the universe was one big joke that was laughing in my face for eternity if that makes sense.

After discovering the Leak Brothers and reading about Big Lurch, I have been interested in trying PCP. It's more of a morbid interest than anything. I mean shit, a drug that turns people you into a murderer and and a cannibal? Count me in!
 
Just FTR, amphetamine IS a phenethylamine, the name is actually an abbreviation of such (alphamethylphenethylamine)
 
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