☮ Social ☮ PD Social: swirling into homeostasis

[nearjat]

Giggidy giggidy lets have sex

 

[Xorkoth]

I hate violent crime One of my favorite trip spots was totally ruined for me now because they discovered a 2 month old corpse, dead from a shotgun to the head. sad

Ugh. I had a similar thing happen... I was in Cub Scouts and Boy Scouts all the way through, and when I was a kid we went to this one state park to camp a lot. The last time we went, me and my friends all went exploring down this dry creek bed. I remember we found a dirty shoe that looked recently abandoned, and then all of a sudden we all decided to turn back and go somewhere else. The next day after we got home, we saw on the news that a young girl's raped and murdered body had been found in that park, and they showed where, and it was literally RIGHT around the corner from where we decided to turn back. We never went back there.

I've always been really thankful that we didn't keep going and see it though... I was like 8 years old, I probably would have been fucked up from it.

I think I'm losing it, I'm not in control of myself.

I'm done with drugs, BL makes that hard I think, always being on the mind and talking about it.

Think I'm going to take a break for a bit. Peace.

Hey man, usually if you feel that way it's definitely time to take a break. I find that when I use drugs that freely for a period of time longer than maybe a week or two, it starts to become more and more necessary to step back. And I totally agree that BL makes it hard to do that, so a break from both seems in order. Good job recognizing that. And good luck to you. We'll miss you here but it's for a good reason.

 

[nearjat]

Good choice Pepper, I feel similar but you're being much more proactive about it.

God damn it I really need to stop wimping out and contacting this girl...I'm really gonna get myself hurt here...

 

[HighonLife]

Violence is always sad...On a totally unrelated note, has anybody ever encountered butalbital? I recently came across some fioricets, (50mg butalbital, 325mg APAP and some caffeine) and I tried taking 4, then 2 more, then 2 more, but I didn't feel any effects. The next day, however, I was groggy and kind of dizzy. Probably not anything worth risking respiratory depression for.

i got effects from butalbital the day of but that was why i didnt like em, b/c of thier long half-life the day after was always more drowsy then the day of.

only thing i found it good for was potentiating Opes......sometimes

Sending positive vibes your way man

yea peppersocks, hope things get better

Jesus, I'm out of my element, like donny. This chick I "confessed" my love to on my birthday (I was blacked out), has been all over me since then. When ever we've been chilling , shes been all over me (moving very close to me, letting me sit on her lap, pushing her leg up against mine when sitting next to each other), but I'm not sure what to do. Seems like she might be at least trying to hook up with me. We don't have the communication connection to really validate any other sort of relationship (besides friendship), but it seems like something physical is there. I've been trying to respond with putting my arm around her, and moving close to her, but not sure what to do in any other situation. We haven't chilled alone since then (I was hoping that would have happened tonight before she went to bed, but it got a little out of control near my apartment (people we were chilling with), which sucks, cuz I hardly can do this alone let alone around 4 other people who are 10x socially more mature than me. Oh well, we'll see what happens. I've loosened up alot in the past year that I think I can respond to signals in a more alone or intimate situation, but not in group situation.

Interesting night. Maybe I'm thinking to much. I am drunk. I tried to not smoke much weed though, just enough to get me feeling normal.

sounds like she is def into u, im the same wayyou are, very akward w/ girls, i would def try n call her/contact her sumtime for some one on one time, like dinner n a movie at ur place or sumthin

sucks not bein good with the ladies, im never good with the ladies n generally have somewhat low-self-esteem, coupled with anxiety n depression n can make it tough to feel im good enough for the women im interested in.

anyways, last week at work it was me n 2 other employees both of which are girls, the only two that work where i work, anyways one of the girls says to me n the other girl, we should have a threesome sometime, immediatly in my mind im like holy shit, fuck yes, lets do this, i will gladly take an ass chewing by the owner for bein the MOD who closed work 5 hours early so he could get some double nookie

anyways, all 3 participants are like "yea that would be fun", the other girl, the one who didnt mention it was like "I have always wanteed to be in a 3some" ....."but im with someone right now, i dont cheat, i would, but i dont cheat"

know that may or may not be true (the cheating part, i know she has a bf) anyways the reason why i told this story is cuz even tho i never in a million years woulda thought either one was interested in me in turns out both said that they thought i was somewhat attractive(not there words exactly)

i was asked if i had ever been in a 3 some before and i said" believe it or not i dont turn down girls left n right, i do ok with women (not true, im a loser, kinda) but im not some kinda stud" n one said "i think your hot" and the other "yea you're good looking"

anyways we havent had the 3 way....yet but the confidence boost made my day thats for sure

anyways, the girl who initiated the 3 some has kinda been agrressive about gettin together with or without the other girl, but just within the last 3 days i have been taperin on Opes and even tho the physicals havent been too too bad, i wanked it last night n my libido is completely gone soo i dunno, do i have sex with her n last 30 seconds, do i not have sex with her n stay clean or do i go back to a decent dose of Opes n just give it to her "LIKE BULL"

holly shit sorry so long, i know most of this wont get read cuz im not a regular, ohwell, cloudy i hope this helped u, somewhat, atleast.

 

[nearjat]

Don't start taking mad opes again just to be a stamina hero XD

 

[tBirdee]

Don't start taking mad opes again just to be a stamina hero XD

hahahahah

They should bring heroin back and market it as anti erection/orgasm medication :D

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

naw
i think amphetamine would work better (srsly..)
does h constrict blood vessels?

 

[Delsyd]

Anti erection? Are you kidding me? I pop some mean wood after a fat shot of dope. And the sex on it is great too, though you're right busting a nut is pretty hard to do but trying is fun.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

you srs syd.
so you'd like push the plunger down, then wood?
thats weird.

 

[Xorkoth]

Actually I always found kratom to be really good for sex, numbing but not so numbing that orgasm is impossible. I always found strong opiates to make it really hard to even feel like getting it up, let alone getting it done. And being addicted to opiates was the worst for sex drive for me.

Coming off opiates though makes it come back really strong, but the super increased sensitivity during acute withdrawal or taper makes it impossible to last long. But then I found that right after that period, where I wasn't withdrawing anymore but I was just starting to get back to normal, my sex drive was still super high but performance was totally increased to even surpass what was experienced during kratom addiction.

But I guess you're not at that point so it doesn't help. All I can say about it as far as advice is concerned is that you should definitely not start taking more opiates again for it. Just taper if you must (though I don't recommend it... it ultimately just leads to more and more rationalizations, at least for me), and then jump off as soon as you can, go through withdrawals, and get better. And THEN have the threesome.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

all i is lookin forward to right nao is omnom'ing molly next week
shits gonna be wild

 

[Xorkoth]

I'm looking forward to tonight... we're going to go out with friends and hang out and see some free live funk. I've been working and writing a lot so I haven't done anything really outside my house other than errands for a couple of weeks, so it'll be good to get out and see other people.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

i need more ketamine imput in order to function
please check your ketamine in my right nostril.
contents may shift

 

[Sega420]

budshotz:

NSFW:

Photos from this year so far:

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[Sega420]

continued;

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[Xorkoth]

Nice pictures sega.

 

[Bardeaux]

First day of work today

My legs are pisseddd. The last time I was working this kind of job I had a steady oxycodone connection. This time I just have ib profen

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

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molly shot
noice lookin buds tho sega
its a damn shame weed makes me paranoid, ya know
cause those look tasty

 

[Delsyd]

you srs syd.
so you'd like push the plunger down, then wood?
thats weird.

yeh man, pretty much just like that.
I dont know why it isnt heard of more often because it is pretty common. I brought it up a few days ago in NSADD social (where there are quite a few opiate users) and a bunch of them said the same thing happens.

 

[Sega420]

molly shot

if you're gonna throw up some photos of lady mandy, at least make it crystal.
i'll be picking up a g soon, i'll show y'all foolzes what some crystal clear crystal mandy looks like
asteroid flakes, maaaaaan!
Hows things anyways LMA? you got Black Ops yet?

Nice pictures sega.

thanks, they were all taken with my sony ericsson phone camera- 8.1 megapixel.
good for macro shots, especially if used with a big magnifying glass. superb detail.

thought my fellow aliens might fancy a gander at em

Dunno if you guys know this but i make my own tie-dye shirts, and hand drawn trippy art ones.
gave the girl tie dye underwear and she made her first tie dye shirt to go with it
for halloween she made a full tie-dye outfit on her own, felt proud, it looked fantastic.

here are some of my creations:

NSFW:

(meant to look faded)

detail on sleeve:

on back:

neck:

^ notice it says "Acid Cat" to the right.

new one im doing (will be ancient south-american & alien themed)