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panic in paradise said:
yes, that was delightful magic, after a weekend of trauma. i was full of toxic lightning until minutes before walking out for a smoke, looking around soaking in reality, restoring subconscious mental and physical control, feeling the actual weather, peace, and then he came plummeting through the tree, peeping four peeps at a time, flapping its wings wildly.
pure gold.

ocean tried filming it until it bucked up and sent her screaming ;) i was allowed a few feet away, and he looked right into the camera, pic, then flew into a big purple plum tree, leaving some undercoat/chick feathers in the wind, but neither of his tail feathers that were hardly hanging on.

there are several babes zigzagging across the fields and yards, giving these half hearted screetches, around 2 am since, they'll stay until the beginning of the year 2011! hurry! then leave for TRW...


i was coming in here to post about how the past six seven weeks my lithium has had me majorly manic, sleeping one to three hours a night if at all, thats always fun.
then a foolish dive off the klonopin, and a 60-80 mg oxy w/d combined together from thursday until monday left me, and more in shock... yyyikes.
now, a week later i feel iam rewiring, and different.

lol-im taking a forth IQ test, as my brain is rather coiled, and its hilarious how ive scored the same since early grade school...!

i need to load that picture of the owl, and baby tree frog that my cat found later that night.

isn't st andrew the patron of small animals?
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your spirit is quite beautiful and it eloquently reveals that through your way with words. That was a lovely post-except for your health problems. I HATE lithium. It made me a zombie-dead inside,void of all creativity. I truly hope you feel better soon.

Much Peace and Love.............skillz<3
 
thank you..

im not gonna be feeling much better, physically, forever, and progressively worse... hehehumm.

i can get pretty over-inspired, so the lithium is helpful with that. now though, it keeps me fucking wired and very disoriented/out-of-skin for 8-12 hours, then very attentive and awake for many more...


BUT, ive got my mind, and an unpredictable world and life to live through/with. i know that as close to hell as you may be, the next day at some point, things change again, for better or worse... then things like a baby owl falling into and through a tree a few meters away happens.
you realize that there really are always surprises, new life everywhere, first experiences, bad experiences we learn from, something or someone watching,,, even in the dark unseen loneliest night, there are little hearts beating, little eyes watching, and little wings flapping, wanting to trust, learning to live in the cruelest conditions.


Life Love & Laughter!
 
skillz!! It's great to see you in here hun! I was going to PM you today <3
How are you??

And also, following on from the owl discussion, I love owls as well. They are absolutely amazing creatures.

In Australia we have a particular species called the Barking Owl, a.k.a the "Murderbird" or the "Murdering Woman Owl". It's named after it's distinct barking calls, which sound very similar to a dog's bark/growl.
BUT it also has another calling sound (I can't remember when or why it makes this particular sound) but it sounds exactly like a woman screaming in pain, hence the Murdering Woman Owl nickname.

About 6 months ago my dad bought some new calves and I went over to the farm to meet them, then had dinner with my parents. After dinner my boyfriend called me on the phone so I stepped out the front to speak with him. Half-way through our conversation I could hear this horrific loud screaming/gurgling sound coming from the paddock containing the new baby cows, and it sounded exactly like one of them had its neck caught in barbed-wire, or had its throat slit, and was dying. The sound made my blood run cold. I immediately got off the phone, ran inside and told my dad what I'd heard, and we came back out with a torch to check the cows. As we were walking towards the paddock Dad said "Are you sure it wasn't the Murding Woman Owl??" (he's heard it once before) and I was like "No no I'm SURE it was one of the cows, something's wrong"

We shone the torch in the corner where the cows were huddled, did a head-count, and they were all perfectly fine.

It was totally the Barking Owl that I'd heard :)
It is extremely rare to ever hear that sound, even most farmers living out in the bush will hear it once in their lifetime, if they're lucky. So I feel very very privileged and honoured that I've heard it!

Scared the absolute bejeezus outta me though, I can tell you that much!!!!! 8o
 
wow, do they live in trees, or burrow? id imagine borrow... now, you need to record it, heheh
;)
im gonna read about those, you sure its not the chubahkahbrah
:o

before we moved to this specific area from the islands, every few years there would be a story of a Snow Owl or two right around here.
i guess i heard the mama of that little barn owl up in one of these two very tall evergreens behind our house, i could hear the size of her chest cavity and imagine the overall size from the reverberation. she was making a strange call, with an odd long cooing finish.
i listened to the snow owl, but not close, sounded like the barn, but not the description, or audio samples of typical calls, the "voice" was the same, but patterns and accents different.

i can hear them in our room with the window open often, on the beach, there would 3-5 pinging back and for forth for hours. we had an obnoxious maybe 6-7 meter tall, barely functioning antenna on our roof, with three 15meter long, inch thick twinned steel cabals bolted to our flat top roof, supporting the antenna.

some nights, they would land on the antenna, making the most wild vibrating-oscillating-trembling-bass reverberation up to 35-40Hz, bIZZarr-O.. it was louder when they would take off after spotting something, then fly back and then ~~~
BooOmRiiuuNGmMOompbruUUumwAWarARarwAWhaHWAAaaamm

scared the heck out of me the first time, i couldnt imagine WTF that sound shaking the roof slightly could be...!
 
i was coming in here to post about how the past six seven weeks my lithium has had me majorly manic, sleeping one to three hours a night if at all, thats always fun.
then a foolish dive off the klonopin, and a 60-80 mg oxy w/d combined together from thursday until monday left me, and more in shock... yyyikes.
now, a week later i feel iam rewiring, and different
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Yowza! Sounds really rough:\ Glad your feeling a bit better now tho! :)

i need to load that picture of the owl, and baby tree frog that my cat found later that night.
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Oh, plz DO!!!!:)

I'm not finding St Andrew as the patron of small animals at the moment but I found a passage that indicates he could be the patron of frolicking nude women.
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LMFAO, Wow, he must have been first in the queue; the day they were giving out the 'Patron Saint Certs', unlike St Bonaventure: the Patron saint of Bowel Disorders! ;)

It is extremely rare to ever hear that sound, even most farmers living out in the bush will hear it once in their lifetime, if they're lucky. So I feel very very privileged and honoured that I've heard it!
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Thats a great story, it's an amazing looking Bird, more Hawk-like kinda...
 
Asclepius, bright red birds in Eastern US are probably Cardinals. I recently took some photos of a male/female pair of cardinals i spotted in the gardenia bushes in my backyard. I'll put them online when i get to a computer.
 
^Uh oh, I happened upon your blog a while back...sorry PIP didnt mean to be tactless pet(Sure there's a Patron Saint for Idiocy too! ;)):o
...Good you can laugh mate!;)
 
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panic in paradise said:
thank you..

im not gonna be feeling much better, physically, forever, and progressively worse... hehehumm.

i can get pretty over-inspired, so the lithium is helpful with that. now though, it keeps me fucking wired and very disoriented/out-of-skin for 8-12 hours, then very attentive and awake for many more...


BUT, ive got my mind, and an unpredictable world and life to live through/with. i know that as close to hell as you may be, the next day at some point, things change again, for better or worse... then things like a baby owl falling into and through a tree a few meters away happens.
you realize that there really are always surprises, new life everywhere, first experiences, bad experiences we learn from, something or someone watching,,, even in the dark unseen loneliest night, there are little hearts beating, little eyes watching, and little wings flapping, wanting to trust, learning to live in the cruelest conditions.


Life Love & Laughter!
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Shit man that sounds rough. I don't care what anyone says manic episodes suck bad. I try everything i can to abort them or prevent them. Fuck they are bad especially mixed states.

Luckily i can take anti-psychotics but it's shit that olanzapine isint covered here yet. That one works the best by far. The risperidone seems to have crapped out on me and i don't wanna go above 2mg's a day.
 
Me too.

What are you wishing for C.H?? Is everything okay? <3

I'm wishing to pass my statistics exam tomorrow. Eeeeek! All I need is to pass by ONE MARK! That is all I'm asking for!
 
Damn it's good to hear from you taow!! PM me back if you want/when you get a chance :) <3

It's stats for research purposes, like for studies/experiments and stuff. It's interesting, and I'm going to be able to use heaps of the stuff I learn later on like if/when I do my thesis or honours or whatever, but it's REALLY HARD!!
 
n3o-- it's hard, but once you get it down it is beyond valuable. Hell, I think that proper stats (beyond 'this is what an average is') should be taught in high school. More people need to be intelligent consumers of information, and it pairs well with critical thinking-- which usually isn't taught much either until post-secondary.
 
n3ophy7e said:
Damn it's good to hear from you taow!! PM me back if you want/when you get a chance :) <3

It's stats for research purposes, like for studies/experiments and stuff. It's interesting, and I'm going to be able to use heaps of the stuff I learn later on like if/when I do my thesis or honours or whatever, but it's REALLY HARD!!
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yup, my brother is a prof for economics and does a lot of statistical work - he spent 6 months in India trying to work on ways to make more efficient ways to irrigate the land.

It's incredible what can be done if your mind is made for it - I am certainly not cut out for it.

Me, love algorithms, philosophy, psychology - but more than anything english (reading , writing )
Aber ich spreche Deutsch auf
 
n3ophy7e said:
Damn it's good to hear from you taow!! PM me back if you want/when you get a chance :) <3

It's stats for research purposes, like for studies/experiments and stuff. It's interesting, and I'm going to be able to use heaps of the stuff I learn later on like if/when I do my thesis or honours or whatever, but it's REALLY HARD!!
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Haha thats psychological statistics then I assume? You're studying covariances/anovas/one-way designs and all that bs? All I can tell you about that class is MEMORIZE EVERY formula you can.

If you know how to use the formulas you're golden. And yeh its really hard but you'll be thankful later. When I wound up doing my thesis the level of stats actually required is MUCH LESS than what you learned in stats, so when it comes time to attend a convention (which is what most schools do for their senior thesis you go to the convention to speak about it) you'll be on point with everything you need to know.

And it gets MUCH better after stats. G/luck!
 
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