I am taking them for legitimate pain. I have been in many, many accidents and also have other back problems aside from that. In the mornings I just need something to act fast so I am not up at 3am in pain, waiting for an hour or two for the pain to subside.... That is my major concern.
I definitely understand how people can spiral out of control with them. I understand why they are highly addictive as well. Am I out of control with them? No, I do not believe so. I only take how much is prescribed to me, never more. I never ask for fills early. I also do not take ANY other meds other than from my pain doc (which I REALLY need to be taking my anxiety meds, but I'm scared to mix, even tho pain doc said it's okay). I also do not drink. Am I addicted? Probably........ without them I could not function normally.... I would be in too much pain. In my case - I would much rather depend on meds to function as a normal member of society than to suffer in pain & be miserable because I could NEVER sleep with the pain, it was next to impossible, not to mention dealing with the pain itself 24/7.
I'm just super nervous about this whole situation. I hate change, I don't deal well with it. I just want to keep doing what was working for me .... I don't understand why this happened this way - why didn't he just write me a script for the Ethex specifically?? I don't get it....
I am dreading tomorrow morning.... do I take it whole and wait & wait & wait for possible relief? Or cut it and make it IR? I guess I'll give it a go whole.... if it doesn't work, I'll ask if he can write for Ethex.... that's if it's in my area.... UGH I hate hate hate hate this worry. But my fingers are crossed for this to work, it would be nice to be off the oxy. I just have my doubts because this is the only thing that's worked thus far and I almost feel like he was "punishing" me today for bringing back the OPs.... that's what bothers me most, their reaction to me today. I felt like SUCH a POS when all I wanted was what I was prescribed the month before, I didn't want MORE - I just wanted things the same .... and I feel like I got "punished" for that by being given the morphine. Idk, maybe I'm going to deep into this.... I'll just take it tomorrow morning & see what happens.... hope for the best. Any input is welcomed. Thanks.