you know, its kinda funny. most people wouldn't share things like this with "strangers", but i feel that you guys aren't strangers.
My parents decided to have a big arguement about a week ago, my dad left the house, my mom started to panic, all hell has been broken loose for the last week, constant flame wars between me and my mom, including her grabbing a knife and threatening to slice my jugular.
Yes, my mom is a bit psycho, so am I, it runs in the family, it coarses through our veins to be a bit psychopathic, I'm fine with that, I am who I am, and I will continue to be who I am, not something else, but thats drifting away from the point.
My mom decided to leave the house approximately... 17hrs ago, "I'm going to the airport, the car keys are here, go start your license, the house is yours, your dad is going to scotland." It all crashed on me at once that I have to be a big boy now, no legal job(yes, i'm a dealer, a clean one though, i like to make my customers happy) and only 18 years old.
Now i have a big old townhouse, 3 stories, 3 bedrooms, 3 bathrooms, 1 spare bedroom, semi-large flat roof, a living room, kitchen, dining room. Sure thats all fine and dandy, I should consider myself lucky, I do, in a way.
I sat down, and I tried to find a reason to cry, to let it out, but all I could do is find reasons to smile, my parents finally get a break from it all. Time to clear their heads out, they've had 3 years of havoc from me, and my step-brother and its about them they got some time for themselves. Hopefully they can figure it all out and be happy again.
I dont really know why I'm writing this on bluelight... some people might find it something you keep to yourself, but hey, I needed to talk to someone and I found bluelight.
Anyways... wish me luck, life just changed in oh so many ways.
edit : it feels kinda lonely in here.. at least i have my dog