JustinD0769
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I'll begin my report by offering some background information... I'm a 21 year old male, 130-140lbs, with a LOT of experience with illegal street drugs (cocaine, opiates, marijuana, etc) but comparatively limited experience with psychedelics.
I've taken maybe 15-20 extremely weak hits of lsd (I'm assuming...it was sold as LSD, but the effects were minimal compared to what I've read about it) at least one true hit of LSD, 2-3 experiences with 2c-t-7, 2c-e, 2c-i, a couple mushroom trips ranging from a gram to an 1/8th gram, a couple trips with LSA via HBWR seeds (ranging from 8 to 14) and an unknown psychedelic sold on blotter paper with the street name "Wax." So I could I would be considered to have light to moderate experience with psychedelics? (Correct me if I'm mistaken plz!)
So yesterday, around 3~4, I had a 125mg bag of 4-aco-DMT. I now have an empty, slightly chewed up bag.This is the 2nd time I've purchased this product from this vendor, along with a couple 2c-x orders, some methylone, and some MDPV... My first trip with 4-aco-DMT was mild, around 10-15 mg, basically a test run to get a feel for the substance, it's frequency, and potency. I've also had one other trip that I shared with two roommates, again not much more than 15mgs. Both roommates, not having done psychedelics in a while, found the experience to be emotionally difficult, while the only difficulty I experienced in this trip was having to settle them two down.
After some drama with them a couple weeks down the road, my remaining 3-400mgs (My first trips came from a 500mg order) were stolen, along with several hundred dollars of electronics... (needless to say, they are no longer my roommates.)
So two days ago, my order came in, and I decided to spent Thursday preparing for my trip, setting up the house with lights, music, etc. The day finally came, and at about 4-5pm I ingested anywhere from a quarter to a little less than half the bag, after reading multiple successful, positive trip reports from doses around 40mgs. Within an hour or so, I had a headspace very reminiscent to mild MDMA, with almost all negative emotions being replaced by empathy and understanding. "Extremely gentle" is an EXCELLENT description for this psychedelic, as there was NO negative physical effects. No lethargy, no anxiety, no nausea. In fact, before the 4-aco-dmt took effect, I was extremely physically exhausted, to the point of being sore all over. Visuals were comparable to a little over an 1/8th oz. of psilocybe cubensis, but not quite powerful enough for my tastes (though i've had maybe 10 psychedelic trips over the past 2 years, with my latest trip being at least a month before present experience, I've had a few "oops" moments with accidentally snorting too much 2c-t-7, and one trip with LSA in which I actually accepted the notion that I was probably going to die from the vasoconstriction before it was all said and done...)
After a little more reading, I came across several reports mentioning effects I've never experienced on any psychedelic... ego-death, my body collapsing into itself, etc. etc. I became intensely curious... I went back to my supply, and snorted another 20mg or so, around 6pm. Within half an hour, I was tripping absolute balls, but everything still seemed...sane? logical? The visuals had intensified to a level I've never experienced before, at least in aesthetic value. (The night I accidentally took too much 2c-t-7, I could wave my arm in front of my face, and I would lose vision for 2-3 seconds from the tracers... but overall the hallucinations were just sorta there, they didn't have the beauty, imagination, clarity, etc that 4-aco-DMT offers at much weaker levels of visuals) Unsatisfied, I snorted half the remainder of the bag, and ate the other half, bag and all, at approximately 8pm
Although my level of "understanding" was magnified unbelievably, I still did not experience the realization of the infinite oneness of everything, etc etc etc) though I did have a very strong mental image of our civilization as a single living entity, a collective consciousness equal to a child slowly developing in an infinitesimal speck (I kept picturing fungal spores, lol) of our universe, but part of a much greater system, similar to the organelles in a muscle cell being part of a much larger, more advanced system.
I was asking for a bad trip. I was begging to experience ego-death. To have my known world twisted and shattered and dissolved into an entirely mental state. I had read on one report from many people that a dose over 100mgs of 4-aco-DMT would have them in a near catatonic state, begging for it to stop. Never happened... the only signs of a "bad" trip were these horrid, disgusting images of pornography occasionally creeping into my CEVs (possibly due to a recent break-up of a very serious relationship with an older woman who turned out to be a bit of a whore, and my disgust with the twisted forms sexuality has taken in our culture, since I regard sex as a very emotional, spiritual action. Or possibly due to my extended self-activities day before? Who knows.) Normally, I'm kinda prone to having bad trips with higher levels of psychedelics, but at one point I thought to myself, "What's the point of a bad trip? To teach one a lesson." I already knew everything I needed to know, it seemed, being connected to some sort of energy, truth. Except for grand realization I was referring to earlier that seems so prominent with high tryptamine doses, particular DMT. (which I now HAVE to experience, without a doubt.)
At one point, the sky was no longer a black void with white stars, but had just as much texture as the ground below me, but luxuriously smooth. There were massive patterns of energies swirling about in 3d... it's hard to put into words, but easily the most beautiful visuals I've ever experienced. The sky was like a thick silk comforter, with the stars embedded in various curves and folds.
For the most part, indoor hallucinations have usually been less complex than what nature provides, with everything remaining relatively in place, but with designs/colors coming off of objects in the room, particularly edges. Reading the trip reports on large flat screen, sections of the TV would start sliding down while other sections would slide off to the side. It reminded me of DXM's visuals in a sense, but with certain parts of my vision seeming to constantly move up/down/etc, instead of my whole field of vision.
Music became absolutely ridiculous to listen to... anything with a heavy beat or rhythm induced an almost uncontrollable desire to move, dance, headbanging with it... Classical music was irresistably fun, humorous, but still beautiful. I was giggling uncontrollably a good portion of the trip, occasionally screaming in joy with uncontrollable giddiness of it all.
Although I do NOT recommend attempting this sort of dose to ANYONE, because like I said, I've seen people take a 1/5th of what I took and have rough experiences... this was easily one of my best, most intense, yet "easiest" trips I've ever experienced. AND the most insightful. I realized that growing up with basically unlimited freedoms (my mother always trusted me to make the right decisions, and other than consuming lots of drugs (which I didn't see as a "bad decision" necessarily, until a couple years ago when I realized I had spent over 16,000$ with friend of mine on our cocaine use over the course of about 8 months. Kept decent grades, never did anything else illegal, but never spent money on much else... lesson learned) and this free, open exploration of the world did amazing things for the development of my character, but also led to a strong dependence on the immediate, extrinsic rewards in life (money, "fun", etc) and a total rejection of most of our current systems (public education, capitalism/money/banks, government/nationalism/politics, religion. etc) which basically destroyed my intrinsic motivations to advance myself further in life, and without intrinsic motivation, success as a person is challenged, as money and good times can only do so much to drive my self-development forward.
Oh, yeah, I think this may be my first post. Not sure, I've been reading on bluelight for a while now, but don't think I've ever contributed. So...
Hello everyone! :D
I've taken maybe 15-20 extremely weak hits of lsd (I'm assuming...it was sold as LSD, but the effects were minimal compared to what I've read about it) at least one true hit of LSD, 2-3 experiences with 2c-t-7, 2c-e, 2c-i, a couple mushroom trips ranging from a gram to an 1/8th gram, a couple trips with LSA via HBWR seeds (ranging from 8 to 14) and an unknown psychedelic sold on blotter paper with the street name "Wax." So I could I would be considered to have light to moderate experience with psychedelics? (Correct me if I'm mistaken plz!)
So yesterday, around 3~4, I had a 125mg bag of 4-aco-DMT. I now have an empty, slightly chewed up bag.This is the 2nd time I've purchased this product from this vendor, along with a couple 2c-x orders, some methylone, and some MDPV... My first trip with 4-aco-DMT was mild, around 10-15 mg, basically a test run to get a feel for the substance, it's frequency, and potency. I've also had one other trip that I shared with two roommates, again not much more than 15mgs. Both roommates, not having done psychedelics in a while, found the experience to be emotionally difficult, while the only difficulty I experienced in this trip was having to settle them two down.
After some drama with them a couple weeks down the road, my remaining 3-400mgs (My first trips came from a 500mg order) were stolen, along with several hundred dollars of electronics... (needless to say, they are no longer my roommates.)
So two days ago, my order came in, and I decided to spent Thursday preparing for my trip, setting up the house with lights, music, etc. The day finally came, and at about 4-5pm I ingested anywhere from a quarter to a little less than half the bag, after reading multiple successful, positive trip reports from doses around 40mgs. Within an hour or so, I had a headspace very reminiscent to mild MDMA, with almost all negative emotions being replaced by empathy and understanding. "Extremely gentle" is an EXCELLENT description for this psychedelic, as there was NO negative physical effects. No lethargy, no anxiety, no nausea. In fact, before the 4-aco-dmt took effect, I was extremely physically exhausted, to the point of being sore all over. Visuals were comparable to a little over an 1/8th oz. of psilocybe cubensis, but not quite powerful enough for my tastes (though i've had maybe 10 psychedelic trips over the past 2 years, with my latest trip being at least a month before present experience, I've had a few "oops" moments with accidentally snorting too much 2c-t-7, and one trip with LSA in which I actually accepted the notion that I was probably going to die from the vasoconstriction before it was all said and done...)
After a little more reading, I came across several reports mentioning effects I've never experienced on any psychedelic... ego-death, my body collapsing into itself, etc. etc. I became intensely curious... I went back to my supply, and snorted another 20mg or so, around 6pm. Within half an hour, I was tripping absolute balls, but everything still seemed...sane? logical? The visuals had intensified to a level I've never experienced before, at least in aesthetic value. (The night I accidentally took too much 2c-t-7, I could wave my arm in front of my face, and I would lose vision for 2-3 seconds from the tracers... but overall the hallucinations were just sorta there, they didn't have the beauty, imagination, clarity, etc that 4-aco-DMT offers at much weaker levels of visuals) Unsatisfied, I snorted half the remainder of the bag, and ate the other half, bag and all, at approximately 8pm
Although my level of "understanding" was magnified unbelievably, I still did not experience the realization of the infinite oneness of everything, etc etc etc) though I did have a very strong mental image of our civilization as a single living entity, a collective consciousness equal to a child slowly developing in an infinitesimal speck (I kept picturing fungal spores, lol) of our universe, but part of a much greater system, similar to the organelles in a muscle cell being part of a much larger, more advanced system.
I was asking for a bad trip. I was begging to experience ego-death. To have my known world twisted and shattered and dissolved into an entirely mental state. I had read on one report from many people that a dose over 100mgs of 4-aco-DMT would have them in a near catatonic state, begging for it to stop. Never happened... the only signs of a "bad" trip were these horrid, disgusting images of pornography occasionally creeping into my CEVs (possibly due to a recent break-up of a very serious relationship with an older woman who turned out to be a bit of a whore, and my disgust with the twisted forms sexuality has taken in our culture, since I regard sex as a very emotional, spiritual action. Or possibly due to my extended self-activities day before? Who knows.) Normally, I'm kinda prone to having bad trips with higher levels of psychedelics, but at one point I thought to myself, "What's the point of a bad trip? To teach one a lesson." I already knew everything I needed to know, it seemed, being connected to some sort of energy, truth. Except for grand realization I was referring to earlier that seems so prominent with high tryptamine doses, particular DMT. (which I now HAVE to experience, without a doubt.)
At one point, the sky was no longer a black void with white stars, but had just as much texture as the ground below me, but luxuriously smooth. There were massive patterns of energies swirling about in 3d... it's hard to put into words, but easily the most beautiful visuals I've ever experienced. The sky was like a thick silk comforter, with the stars embedded in various curves and folds.
For the most part, indoor hallucinations have usually been less complex than what nature provides, with everything remaining relatively in place, but with designs/colors coming off of objects in the room, particularly edges. Reading the trip reports on large flat screen, sections of the TV would start sliding down while other sections would slide off to the side. It reminded me of DXM's visuals in a sense, but with certain parts of my vision seeming to constantly move up/down/etc, instead of my whole field of vision.
Music became absolutely ridiculous to listen to... anything with a heavy beat or rhythm induced an almost uncontrollable desire to move, dance, headbanging with it... Classical music was irresistably fun, humorous, but still beautiful. I was giggling uncontrollably a good portion of the trip, occasionally screaming in joy with uncontrollable giddiness of it all.
Although I do NOT recommend attempting this sort of dose to ANYONE, because like I said, I've seen people take a 1/5th of what I took and have rough experiences... this was easily one of my best, most intense, yet "easiest" trips I've ever experienced. AND the most insightful. I realized that growing up with basically unlimited freedoms (my mother always trusted me to make the right decisions, and other than consuming lots of drugs (which I didn't see as a "bad decision" necessarily, until a couple years ago when I realized I had spent over 16,000$ with friend of mine on our cocaine use over the course of about 8 months. Kept decent grades, never did anything else illegal, but never spent money on much else... lesson learned) and this free, open exploration of the world did amazing things for the development of my character, but also led to a strong dependence on the immediate, extrinsic rewards in life (money, "fun", etc) and a total rejection of most of our current systems (public education, capitalism/money/banks, government/nationalism/politics, religion. etc) which basically destroyed my intrinsic motivations to advance myself further in life, and without intrinsic motivation, success as a person is challenged, as money and good times can only do so much to drive my self-development forward.
Oh, yeah, I think this may be my first post. Not sure, I've been reading on bluelight for a while now, but don't think I've ever contributed. So...
Hello everyone! :D
