digidubluv
Greenlighter
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- Apr 11, 2010
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Hi, Im new and i guess i am in the right Forum..hoping for some helpful feedback.
So here is my situation.. I am 28 -29 in a month and have been on 95 to 85 milligrams of liquid methadone hydrochloride from the clinic a day, for the past coming up on 2 years now. I have been at the leveled out point for damn near a year now, where as the first 6 months to a year, I was feeling great after dosing for most of the day. I came from doing H and all other opiates fairly heavily when entering the clinic. Now I am fully informed that I am a slave to that building and all the roads leading there. I hate it, and am now really, really ready to make that leap. I decided against cold turkey since I have someone else buying my doses. I haven't had a real job lasting more than a week since i started, and the other day I got the call I was waiting for. It is a landscaping job in SC, so its hot as hellfire..and if anyone knows about Methadone and sun..its not fun! So i was suppossed to start yesterday but called and made an excuse, boss said fine he was having troubles with his vehicles anyway..come in tommorrow..It's now 2morrow and i just sent him a message explaining how messed up i got this weekend on meth and was not gonna make it 2day, pittying myself as i apologized 3 times in one message...sorry so long but if your'e still reading...awesome..thanx. K,The mental, physical, and all around effects after the methadone hAS run its 2 hour limit i feel helpless and force myself to do pretty much anything..leading me into using meth,finding out its cut with H, to keep going and get shit done. No Meth 2day was my deciding factor not to go to work. I know how pathetic I am, but also know that I'm an addict and this shits happened all my life. So i could write a lot more, but I guess my big question is SHOULD I WEEN OFF THE METHADONE THE GO TO REHAB? ALL ADVICE WILL BE READ AND APPRECIATED. THANX
So here is my situation.. I am 28 -29 in a month and have been on 95 to 85 milligrams of liquid methadone hydrochloride from the clinic a day, for the past coming up on 2 years now. I have been at the leveled out point for damn near a year now, where as the first 6 months to a year, I was feeling great after dosing for most of the day. I came from doing H and all other opiates fairly heavily when entering the clinic. Now I am fully informed that I am a slave to that building and all the roads leading there. I hate it, and am now really, really ready to make that leap. I decided against cold turkey since I have someone else buying my doses. I haven't had a real job lasting more than a week since i started, and the other day I got the call I was waiting for. It is a landscaping job in SC, so its hot as hellfire..and if anyone knows about Methadone and sun..its not fun! So i was suppossed to start yesterday but called and made an excuse, boss said fine he was having troubles with his vehicles anyway..come in tommorrow..It's now 2morrow and i just sent him a message explaining how messed up i got this weekend on meth and was not gonna make it 2day, pittying myself as i apologized 3 times in one message...sorry so long but if your'e still reading...awesome..thanx. K,The mental, physical, and all around effects after the methadone hAS run its 2 hour limit i feel helpless and force myself to do pretty much anything..leading me into using meth,finding out its cut with H, to keep going and get shit done. No Meth 2day was my deciding factor not to go to work. I know how pathetic I am, but also know that I'm an addict and this shits happened all my life. So i could write a lot more, but I guess my big question is SHOULD I WEEN OFF THE METHADONE THE GO TO REHAB? ALL ADVICE WILL BE READ AND APPRECIATED. THANX
