I took some 3 10 mg methadones on friday and i want to go back to my suboxone schedule as soon as possible. I wish i never took those because i feel like i want to go get some more but ive been holding myself off with some weed. Im gonna try and take 2mg of suboxone and see if i get sick. I hope the methadone gets out of my system before i go back to the doc. I feel like im not worthy to have my suboxone because i slipped up twice.
man, this made me really sad how your wrote this dude. I have total compassion for you, because I've been in that boat many times, and I still continue to slip almost weekly. Now I don't feel bad about it though, because I told my doctor I wanted off the suboxone but she teamed up with my family are demanding that I stay on it. When I use full agonists I now have the mindset that I'm just switching to another drug for a little while before I get back on the other one.
I'm not sure how long you were taking those methadones, or if it was a one time thing, but if you just did it that one time, you have nothing to worry about. As long as you don't develop a habit to a full agonist, you can switch back to subs without fear of the prec. withdrawal. For instance, I took a day off suboxone, the next day shot some dope, and then a few hours later took two milligrams of suboxone, no problem.
The only time I had a problem with prec withdrawal was when I went off the sub for a week and was using opana and oxy 4/5x a day. That's the kind of situation you got to worry about.
I know your probably also concerned about methadone's half life, but you only took 30 mg, and by now there's probably very little of that actually left in your system since it's now sunday.
I'm not sure if this is true, but my doctor said that buprenorphine at its cieling dose has the opioid activity of around 30-40 mg of methadone (can someone here verify this though? I've learned to trust facts here more than from doctors) If that's the case, if you caught a buzz off those methadone's, you'll probably feel a little warmth from the sub too.
as for the guilt, relapse is part of the process of getting clean. Some people relapse and relapse for years before they get it, others dont. Don't use it as an excuse, but cut yourself some slack. Opiate addiction is probably the biggest challenge I will ever have to face in my life.