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est1991

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First thread on bluelight, and would like to thank anyone who can help me with my situation.

Will make this short..
girlfriend introduced me to ecstasy about 4 months ago, and have dropped about 17 pills in this span of time. My first roll was amazing, of course. Had some depression the day after, and had to leave work. Second roll wasn't anything compared to the first, because I dropped only a week after my first. Third roll was at EDC, took 3 pokeballs. Felt amazing the next day, went to the beach, ect. And have dropped on other small occasions.

Sticking to my point, life has been very boring lately. Just got home from camping at the lake, riding boats and sea-doo's, and still wasn't as exciting as it should have been. For example, a year ago I would of had so much fun participating in lake activities like such. I'm only 18, so I don't know if I'm either growing up, or if I'm having some very boring, non-emotional side effects of MDMA.

Anyone that has had these same experience, please reply! Thanks!:)
 
You've been abusing MDMA to the point where your serotonin levels are lower than they were before you started rolling. TAKE A BREAK! Not trying to put down your girlfriend, but she is incredibly irresponsible for introducing you to the drug and letting you seriously abuse it.
 
When you think that it normally takes between 2 / 3 months to fully rebuild serotonin its not really a no brainer why your feel like this.

MDMA is a toxic drug (regardless on how it makes you feel) take too much of it in a short time and your going to have problems. Space out your rolls - dont make the mistake of thinking this drug makes me feel so good Ill take it too often.

MDMA / Ecstasy can give everything such a 'glow' that (if you over do it) normal life can seem somewhat 'flat'.
 
I agree. She laughs at the fact that she is a "bad influence." She says nothing is wrong with her, but we tend to fight a lot due to her odd mood swings out of the blue, literally. And she is about 25-30 pills deep within the past year, so something is obviously wrong with her, and myself too.
I've read around, seeing that people take 5-HTP, and other vitamins to get their levels back to normal?
 
I've heard the proper way to get any effects from 5-HTP is to take it with green tea and ginseng I think. I took it once or twice and didn't really notice anything. The best thing you can do now is take a break of a few months and never do it more than once a month.
 
its kind of hard to be very happy when there aren't sufficent levels of the chemicals that make you happy in your brain due to eating too many drugs....

slow down... give yourself longer breaks because its pretty evident that your body is not keeping up with the drugs....

I managed weekend use without any significant problems for a good 6 months. No significant tolerance built up, i never had to eat more than a couple, no significant emotional effects. but it does catch up to everyone eventually, its been a little over 2 months since i rolled and i am about to call it quits for a while. One more good roll with my girlfriend is all that i have left to ask out of this drug.

if you continue to use it, space your rolls out by a month or more and you will notice much less negatives from it.
 
And correct me if I'm wrong but I just want to understand how the drug works.
It releases the serotonin on your brain, and the longer you wait in between rolls, the more the serotonin rebuilds?
 
est1991 said:
I agree. She laughs at the fact that she is a "bad influence." She says nothing is wrong with her, but we tend to fight a lot due to her odd mood swings out of the blue, literally. And she is about 25-30 pills deep within the past year, so something is obviously wrong with her, and myself too.
I've read around, seeing that people take 5-HTP, and other vitamins to get their levels back to normal?
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dont think that 5-htp is a miracle supplement and you can continue to roll like you do. you would'nt need 5-htp if you space your rolls out 2-3 months apart and some people swear by it and some dont. so the only thing you can really do is be smart and responsible with MDMA.
 
est1991 said:
And correct me if I'm wrong but I just want to understand how the drug works.
It releases the serotonin on your brain, and the longer you wait in between rolls, the more the serotonin rebuilds?
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yes and no. it takes a while to regain your normal levels of serotonin, if they even go back to normal(im not sure if they do). but the longer you wait doesnt neccessarily mean your serotonin will keep building and building. it will just go back to normal/safe levels.
 
Well I'm glad I found this website in time. I don't have any desire to use right now, or in the near future. My next roll will be on New Years Eve, so I should be okay by then according to everyone. Thanks again.
 
Say no to MDMA

I had seratonin syndrome from mdma and it was the WORST thing to ever happen to me.

Seriously I would only advocate anyone rolling maybe once every 6 months, because ive seen it take peoples souls away from people not even abusing (rolling 1 every 2-3 months)
 
est1991 said:
And correct me if I'm wrong but I just want to understand how the drug works.
It releases the serotonin on your brain, and the longer you wait in between rolls, the more the serotonin rebuilds?
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up to a point, it takes different people different times for their brain chemistry to get back to stable/normal levels.

There is also some downregulation that comes from bombarding your synapses with these kinds of drugs. Basically you can damage the receptors that the serotonin works on by abusing. Over time it will repair and get more back to baseline though.

The problems come when your eating the drugs so frequently that your brain/body isn't able to keep up with it and as such you get that sort of lack of emotion/depression feeling...
 
Id think rolling responsively(ha) would only be once every few months at a massive, to make it really worth it. Maybe 3-4 massives a year if that. Irresponsible rolling to me is rolling a couple times a month, and dropping with a few friends in a car, or at a house, and having no plans for the night. Just my opinion.
Am I wrong or right?
 
est1991 said:
Id think rolling responsively(ha) would only be once every few months at a massive, to make it really worth it. Maybe 3-4 massives a year if that. Irresponsible rolling to me is rolling a couple times a month, and dropping with a few friends in a car, or at a house, and having no plans for the night. Just my opinion.
Am I wrong or right?
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I really dont see how its more "responsible" to roll at a massive where tons of cops are eyeing the rave scene looking for people with pills, as to rolling at a house with some friends. Ive had some amazing times with friends rolling together.

Plus I also feel like you dont NEED to roll at massives if you love the music.
 
Yeah, pretty much the longer you wait in between rolls, the more time your brain has to replenish its store of serotonin. Most of your serotonin will be back after about a month, but sometimes not quite. It's usually better the longer you wait, both because you want to roll and feel awesome, and you have more serotonin to feel awesome.
 
est1991 said:
Id think rolling responsively(ha) would only be once every few months at a massive, to make it really worth it. Maybe 3-4 massives a year if that. Irresponsible rolling to me is rolling a couple times a month, and dropping with a few friends in a car, or at a house, and having no plans for the night. Just my opinion.
Am I wrong or right?
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There is no such thing as irresponsible rolling if no one is in danger. That's just my thing though.
 
TearItDown said:
There is no such thing as irresponsible rolling if no one is in danger. That's just my thing though.
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there is a difference between use and abuse....

OP its good that your seeing this about your use though, know your body and your mind and it will help you avoid problems before they really start.
 
I guess it's all preference. I am glad i caught this site though, or else I would have been calling a connect within the next week just out of boredom.
Thanks guys
 
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