Weight = 85kg
Route of Action = Orally (mixed with water & white vinegar)
22/06/10 12:30 Allergy test
16:20 05mg taken (05mg total)
18:30 20mg taken (25mg total)
Notes:
1pm last ate
17:20 - Minor threshold effects felt, minor increase talkativeness & mood
18:50 - Definite pupil dilation
18:55 - Some effects present such as fuzzy vision, body load. Heavy body & relaxed
19:01 - Some jitteriness (most likely nerves),increased talkativeness
19:06 - Butterflys in my stomach
19:10 - Some minor visuals. Laptop screen seems like its breathing (regarding movement)
19:15 - Im aware of my entire body, my arams are extensions of me, doing what I tell them, yet I can feel they are unified with me
19:20 - Occasional flickers of lights across my vision, like a pen laser
19:22 - For some reason, I cant quite enjoy sitting at my desk, yet in any other room I feel great
19:25 - Can't enjoy sitting/lieing down. Standing up is more relaxing somehow
19:28 - Whole body is on edge, slight nausea, but bareably noticable, shapes and stuff in my vision aren't static
19:32 - Time seems to be going rather fast
19:35 - Feeling a tad anxious again
19:37 - Calmed down again (the blog helped), time is moving alarmingly fast. What I thought was a few seconds was 2 minutes
19:42 - It comes in waves, Ill go through a period of being anxious and aware, then Ill become totally relaxed without a care. The periods are getting
shorter, with it mostly being enjoyable
19:44 - Chilly - put on jeans, socks & boxers. Putting those socks on was the hardest thing Ive ever done. Increase in nausea
19:50 - now I feel warm. Its like I have tunnel vision, only what Im saying and what is happening to me is important
20:06 - increased music appreciation & some short term memory loss
20:12 - lowered inhibitions
20:13 - slighgtly sweaty & warm
20:15 - crap taste in my mouth
20:17 - for some reason I am assosciating my jittery body with nerves
20:20 - body feels heavy and jittery
20:22 - as time goes on I feel more nauseous
20:23 - letting the music take you in eradicates all nerves
20:24 - I think Im plateauing
20:26 - It feels like Im not all there, like my mind is elsewhere
20:27 - Close-eyes visuals are amazing, colours flying everywhere. Im definetly plateauing. Everything is moving, my hands are wavey
20:36 - I took my printer out so I could perch my laptop on it like the good old days
20:42 - Pupils are huge, this feeling is exquisite. I would liken this to what I imagine MDMA to be like, mainly euphoria & stimulation with minor visuals
which can be enhanced as I like
20:48 - 1 Magnesium tablet taken to ease the gurning I occassionally experience
20:57 - very warm & sweaty, gonna sit down for a bit to cool down (and keep heart rate lower)
20:58 - Was freaking out a bit about my hear rate, but then remembered 120 is very normal considering Im under a stimulant
21:00 - Everything feels so good. just moving about, feeling the air moving on me is very sexual
21:04 - Its like Im having several conversations with myself, at once. Makes it very difficult to keep track
21:05 - Ability to urinate is not impeeded
21:09 - Feeling kind of hungry, also wouldnt mind going for a walk outside
21:11 - Everything feels different. Im constantly voicing my thoughts in my mind, like a narration
21:16 - Chewing gum that I got at some point is enjoyable to chew and deals with gurning a bit
21:21 - For some reason I cant enjoy lots of dancing, just gentle swaying
21:24 - Music heavily influences my body energy. Calm music I want to sit down, fast I have to stand up and dance
21:26 - I keep having profound thoughts, that even though I know they don't make sense, they kinda do
21:37 - Huge fluctuations in time perception
21:41 - Calm music MJB sent me is almost orgasmic
21:46 - Trouble forming coherent thoughts
21:48 - Moments of control over my thoughts come and go
21:52 - Really cold
21:58 - Absolutely no urge to redose
22:04 - Its kind of scary how overwhelming music can be
22:06 - Still annoyed I took a 20mg dose insteas of 15mg
22:11 - Need the toilet, and maybe to vomit
22:15 - Couldnt go toilet, forgot I needed to vomit
22:18 - Warm again
22:21 - As time goes on, the trip becomes more enjoyable - the trick is to not focus, just be in the moment, but not too much
22:25 - I have no grasp of time anymore, fuck it can't be arsed
22:32 - Food is very good, even though I could taste it tasted bad, it still felt very good
22:35 - I have no desire for talking
22:52 - Gurning has mostly stopped
23:00 - Slight increase in nausea, hunger and effect of drug
00:34 - I think I might be starting to come down. I have much more control, thoughts are more linear & logical. I feel more sober
00:37 - Ability to urinate has (mostly) returned
00:43 - When eyes closed, keep getting sexual imagery. On the peak of the trip, I couldn't be bothered to report any of my experiences
00:53 - Talkativeness coming back, things are a lot more in line now. Perpective of time returning
00:56 - I think another wave is about to come
00:59 - Time perception slipping away, along with ability to type and wanting to talk to people
01:25 - Increase in nauseia
01:48 - That peak was shorter and less intense than the last one
02:09 - Peanut butter on toast was an awful idea for a snack (dry mouth)
02:14 - Sweaty, really warm again
03:21 - Everything feels a lot calmer, it is all within my control, heart rate is slower
03:38 - Need to piss a lot
04:06 - Feel a lot more sober, nearish normal
04:34 - Going to try and get some sleep
13:45 - Feel basically normal, mentally I am fine, my body is a little tired though. The whole experience was rather interesting, I think I need a few days to reflect up on it before trying again. And that when I do, I should start at 10mg. During the entire night, my back problem was worsened. Now though, my mood is generally rather good and I feel quite happy.
Heart Rate (BPM):
Resting Heart Rate = 75
18:30 = 75
19:00 = 78
19:30 = 93
20:00 = 120
20:30 = 114
21:00 = 120
21:30 = 111
22:00 = 111
22:30 = 102
23:00 = 108
23:30 = 114
00:00 = 111
00:30 = 102
01:00 = 120
01:30 = 108
02:00 = 99
02:30 = 96
03:00 = 117
03:30 = 96
04:00 = 102
04:30 = 96
Normally I like to be very much in control of myself when I am experimenting, but during the peak, this was just out of my control. My grasp of time was so gone I was having trouble taking my heart rate. Sometimes what felt 40 minutes, was more like 10. Then I would have a think about it for a few seconds and the reverse would happen and I would be surprised it was so long ago.
Route of Action = Orally (mixed with water & white vinegar)
22/06/10 12:30 Allergy test
16:20 05mg taken (05mg total)
18:30 20mg taken (25mg total)
Notes:
1pm last ate
17:20 - Minor threshold effects felt, minor increase talkativeness & mood
18:50 - Definite pupil dilation
18:55 - Some effects present such as fuzzy vision, body load. Heavy body & relaxed
19:01 - Some jitteriness (most likely nerves),increased talkativeness
19:06 - Butterflys in my stomach
19:10 - Some minor visuals. Laptop screen seems like its breathing (regarding movement)
19:15 - Im aware of my entire body, my arams are extensions of me, doing what I tell them, yet I can feel they are unified with me
19:20 - Occasional flickers of lights across my vision, like a pen laser
19:22 - For some reason, I cant quite enjoy sitting at my desk, yet in any other room I feel great
19:25 - Can't enjoy sitting/lieing down. Standing up is more relaxing somehow
19:28 - Whole body is on edge, slight nausea, but bareably noticable, shapes and stuff in my vision aren't static
19:32 - Time seems to be going rather fast
19:35 - Feeling a tad anxious again
19:37 - Calmed down again (the blog helped), time is moving alarmingly fast. What I thought was a few seconds was 2 minutes
19:42 - It comes in waves, Ill go through a period of being anxious and aware, then Ill become totally relaxed without a care. The periods are getting
shorter, with it mostly being enjoyable
19:44 - Chilly - put on jeans, socks & boxers. Putting those socks on was the hardest thing Ive ever done. Increase in nausea
19:50 - now I feel warm. Its like I have tunnel vision, only what Im saying and what is happening to me is important
20:06 - increased music appreciation & some short term memory loss
20:12 - lowered inhibitions
20:13 - slighgtly sweaty & warm
20:15 - crap taste in my mouth
20:17 - for some reason I am assosciating my jittery body with nerves
20:20 - body feels heavy and jittery
20:22 - as time goes on I feel more nauseous
20:23 - letting the music take you in eradicates all nerves
20:24 - I think Im plateauing
20:26 - It feels like Im not all there, like my mind is elsewhere
20:27 - Close-eyes visuals are amazing, colours flying everywhere. Im definetly plateauing. Everything is moving, my hands are wavey
20:36 - I took my printer out so I could perch my laptop on it like the good old days
20:42 - Pupils are huge, this feeling is exquisite. I would liken this to what I imagine MDMA to be like, mainly euphoria & stimulation with minor visuals
which can be enhanced as I like
20:48 - 1 Magnesium tablet taken to ease the gurning I occassionally experience
20:57 - very warm & sweaty, gonna sit down for a bit to cool down (and keep heart rate lower)
20:58 - Was freaking out a bit about my hear rate, but then remembered 120 is very normal considering Im under a stimulant
21:00 - Everything feels so good. just moving about, feeling the air moving on me is very sexual
21:04 - Its like Im having several conversations with myself, at once. Makes it very difficult to keep track
21:05 - Ability to urinate is not impeeded
21:09 - Feeling kind of hungry, also wouldnt mind going for a walk outside
21:11 - Everything feels different. Im constantly voicing my thoughts in my mind, like a narration
21:16 - Chewing gum that I got at some point is enjoyable to chew and deals with gurning a bit
21:21 - For some reason I cant enjoy lots of dancing, just gentle swaying
21:24 - Music heavily influences my body energy. Calm music I want to sit down, fast I have to stand up and dance
21:26 - I keep having profound thoughts, that even though I know they don't make sense, they kinda do
21:37 - Huge fluctuations in time perception
21:41 - Calm music MJB sent me is almost orgasmic
21:46 - Trouble forming coherent thoughts
21:48 - Moments of control over my thoughts come and go
21:52 - Really cold
21:58 - Absolutely no urge to redose
22:04 - Its kind of scary how overwhelming music can be
22:06 - Still annoyed I took a 20mg dose insteas of 15mg
22:11 - Need the toilet, and maybe to vomit
22:15 - Couldnt go toilet, forgot I needed to vomit
22:18 - Warm again
22:21 - As time goes on, the trip becomes more enjoyable - the trick is to not focus, just be in the moment, but not too much
22:25 - I have no grasp of time anymore, fuck it can't be arsed
22:32 - Food is very good, even though I could taste it tasted bad, it still felt very good
22:35 - I have no desire for talking
22:52 - Gurning has mostly stopped
23:00 - Slight increase in nausea, hunger and effect of drug
00:34 - I think I might be starting to come down. I have much more control, thoughts are more linear & logical. I feel more sober
00:37 - Ability to urinate has (mostly) returned
00:43 - When eyes closed, keep getting sexual imagery. On the peak of the trip, I couldn't be bothered to report any of my experiences
00:53 - Talkativeness coming back, things are a lot more in line now. Perpective of time returning
00:56 - I think another wave is about to come
00:59 - Time perception slipping away, along with ability to type and wanting to talk to people
01:25 - Increase in nauseia
01:48 - That peak was shorter and less intense than the last one
02:09 - Peanut butter on toast was an awful idea for a snack (dry mouth)
02:14 - Sweaty, really warm again
03:21 - Everything feels a lot calmer, it is all within my control, heart rate is slower
03:38 - Need to piss a lot
04:06 - Feel a lot more sober, nearish normal
04:34 - Going to try and get some sleep
13:45 - Feel basically normal, mentally I am fine, my body is a little tired though. The whole experience was rather interesting, I think I need a few days to reflect up on it before trying again. And that when I do, I should start at 10mg. During the entire night, my back problem was worsened. Now though, my mood is generally rather good and I feel quite happy.
Heart Rate (BPM):
Resting Heart Rate = 75
18:30 = 75
19:00 = 78
19:30 = 93
20:00 = 120
20:30 = 114
21:00 = 120
21:30 = 111
22:00 = 111
22:30 = 102
23:00 = 108
23:30 = 114
00:00 = 111
00:30 = 102
01:00 = 120
01:30 = 108
02:00 = 99
02:30 = 96
03:00 = 117
03:30 = 96
04:00 = 102
04:30 = 96
Normally I like to be very much in control of myself when I am experimenting, but during the peak, this was just out of my control. My grasp of time was so gone I was having trouble taking my heart rate. Sometimes what felt 40 minutes, was more like 10. Then I would have a think about it for a few seconds and the reverse would happen and I would be surprised it was so long ago.
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Perhaps the euphoria and empathy aspect of AMT would be more noticeable when you're with other people... I would really like to try AMT with some close friends and see what people think about it. Unfortunately I doubt I will be able to get it any time soon.
