If you got a hole in your soul, dont expect to use responsibly for too long.
One of my pet peeves is white ppl try to sound black via Ebonics. But in this case-this post above is very true. let me try and de-code it from the "Amy Weinhouse" set of critical tools:
Co-morbid condidtion.
What this mean is a number of heath factors that come together to create one larger problem; sometimes named or otherwise. You can read a bit of the DSM V (is it out yet!!) to get a handle on co-morbidity.
Lets say you have a festering depression problem---so you drink a lot to make it feel better. The drinking may help in the very short term but is the long term you have created a co-morbid situation: alcholism and depression.
Now is narco land--and as many of you know-opiates were used until 1951 for depression until it was "dioscovered" that narcs are addictive (give me a break-that info was known since the 19th cent. but the reral truth was to get congress to ban narcoticts for depression as the drug compasnies were just beginning to get a handle on psychotropic meds and getting something dropped and then added for research purps. via the DEA/and other govening regualtory bodies takes forever.)
Now lets go back to Ms. Lacey K's ex. The overwelming number of narcotics addicts have a comorbid condidtion--the depression (or ant combinations of psycho/social DXs) and thge attempt to fix the problem via narcotics which creates a normative condidtion of its own: addiction.
UNfortunately--m,any narcotics addicts have tried the "legit" route first i.e SSRI and other rspective meds for respective DXs. And for a lot of reasons, the respective meds don't work, or worse-stop working.
And further--have you ever tried to w/d off an SSRI after continuous use for over 7 year? Talk about a monkey.
The great inovative jazz musician Charlie Prker used to have a saying, "I see my heart doctor and he gives me pills and they do nothing; I see my liver doctor amd he gives me pills and thewy do nothing; then I see this cat down an ally and he sells me some white powder and all my problems are gone." [sic.]
Yup, Miss Lacy--a "hole in your soul"...it usually comes down to that.
Me? i got a so many holes in my soul; and in less ephemeral parts in my body and co-morbid is entry level when describing me--yeah, a chipper? I tried that--worked for a while-some years actually--but eventially, I needed a needle and thread to start patching up my soul and other parts of me.)
SO I'd have to go with Miss Lacy's complex conceit regarding opiates--and especially heroin.